If I don't write my end of the year post now and new year's resolutions...I'll never do it :-) Hence the title of the post.
As a precursor, I'm attempting to be less aggravated than I was last night for reasons that only my closest friends know. That being said, I will not be divulging that information in this post. It's (hopefully) fleeting) and a bit off topic to say the least.
Now....let me see if I can't dig up my 2011 Resolutions somewhere.......ah yes, the post was here. But for time's sake, these were my 2K11 resolutions:
1. Get a Student Teaching position at LMHS or in the LMSD.
2. Accomplish my "30 in 30" List (see below)
3. Get a summer managing job/coaching job.
4. Be better with guys and how I handle myself with them - let's be honest, I'm terrible in this department.
5. Learn to focus on the right things.
As I read over them...I realize that I definitely did 1 and 3. Number 2 is still a work in progress, but I do have 7 more months before I'm 31 so I have some time. I guess that'll get added to my 2K12 resolutions. Number 4. Well. I think I've definitely come a long way with this. This time last year I was definitely at a place in my life where I was being pulled along for a ride. SO much changed over the course of 2011. I could write an entirely separate post on the guys of 2011....but....I promised myself a few months ago that I wouldn't do too much of that. That kind of information is for phone conversations with my friends. Let's just say, it was a definite learning experience and a relative boost to my emotional well-being in some areas. That being said....
#5 - Learn to focus on the right things. I think this is the one I am the MOST proud of this year. While there is no concrete evidence per se, I know in my heart I've done this. And by focusing on the right things I mean, I literally worked my ass off in 2011. I ran a marathon (trust me, that was VERY tough), I got a student teaching job in the school and district I not only wanted to but HAD to, I made some new connections in and out of the education world. I also made a few new friends but one new friend in particular I am extremely grateful for - Heather! Yay! I've learned that hard work does not go unnoticed and that getting what you want is a matter of time.
The changes that have happened in 2011:
- Probably the biggest one is moving out of my mom's house. I moved the weekend of Labor day and the first weekend in my new apartment I got food poisoning. Ha. Happy House Warming to say the least! I am thankful for my friend Brian in helping me move otherwise it would've been a difficult task.
-I got more involved in my own things. Albeit there was a LOT of family dramz this year - like, major family dramz (and last year did not start out well with the death of my uncle) - I think I've still done a really good job in focusing on the right things. I still worry about my family and sister but I'm learning that it can't be the WHOLE focus of what's going on in my life.
-Physically, I'm probably in the best shape I've ever been in. Yes, I'm tired a lot but if you had my schedule you'd be tired too. I'm trying to eat more organic and be more responsible with my drinking. In fact, I think after the weekend of the 6/7th, I'll be taking a hiatus all together.
Things I've got on the horizon in 2012:
With the new year just a day and a half away, I have a lot of things to look forward to. One is obviously student teaching. While I'm excited, I'm pretty freaking scared too. Everyone tells me I'll be okay but I really am freaking out. I realize I have an "up" so to speak because I already coach so I know how to relate to the kids - but to be honest, I'm worried I'll just not be prepared. We all know how OCD I am when it comes to being prepared. I really am freaking out in my own mind. I hide it well, don't I?
I have the rest of swim season - which is speeding by so quickly - and then lacrosse to look forward to! I am so pumped for lax this year! I can't wait!
Continuing to live on my own and seek out new adventures. I think one of the best things that happened in the latter half of 2011 was moving out. THANKS PAUL FOR ENCOURAGING IT! I am hoping to continue balancing the money/socializing/personal time for the next five months. I'm also hoping to make some money while I'm not actually working (RICH??!?!? Help a girl out!).
For the next 5 or so months, my schedule(s) will look something like this:
Monday through Friday - Teach from 7-3PM, Coach 3-6PM, Workout 6-7:30PM, 10PM bed.
Weekends are probably going to be spent doing work and sleeping. I feel badly for anyone that thinks they'll get to see me a lot. I just need to get through May and I'm good to go.
Of course, in between now and then there are other things I have to do:
-RTF 5K/1Mile Walk - March 25th
-My Runs with Bethany
-Training for another Marathon
-Finish my 30 in 30.
-Plan for the RTF Golf Outing
-Kelly's 35th Birthday
-Plan my mom's 60th Birthday
-Joanne's 50th Birthday
......oh yeah and....stay afloat financially. To be honest, it's almost a blessing in disguise that I'll be so busy during the week - I won't be spending money. Ha.
So.....I've been dawdling enough....what are my 2K12 resolutions???
In the year 2012, I hope to:
Finish my 30 in 30. (starred things I finished)
1. Skydive
2. Bungee Jump
3. Travel Somewhere Alone
4. Run a Marathon ★
5. Get a Teaching Job
6. Learn to Play Guitar
7. Re-learn Spanish
8. Do a Triathlon
9. Become a regular Rock Climber
10. Learn to Canoe
11. Visit Cooperstown Baseball Hall of Fame
12. Go to Hawaii
13. Wine Tasting
14. Get my spin instructor’s certification
15. Volunteer with habitat for humanity.
16. Volunteer to help with a race (marathon/half marathon/etc)
17. Blog at least 5 times a week.
18. Complete an Open Water Race
19. Do P90X
20. Be more organic★
21. Join a soccer league ★
22. Take a Hot-air Balloon Ride
23. Go Ziplining
24. Learn to shoot a gun/go to the gun range
25. See all four Phillies starting pitchers in a game. ★
26. Whitewater rafting
27. Read 1 book a month. ★
28. Get my dual citizenship
29. Learn how to make balloon animals
30. Plan a trip with my Zuzelo Cousins.
Get a Real Teaching Job (I realize this is a 30 in 30 task but it's still an ongoing resolution)
Continue to practice patience and compassion.
Visit my friends more (Florida, Indianapolis, Ft. Wayne, New Jersey, New York, North Carolina, etc)
Bridge the gaps in friendships that seem to have become larger than I would've liked.
I think that's enough for this year. My 30 in 30 will take me a while anyway...so I might as well just stick to that. But I really do want to continue to remain patient and compassionate. Regardless of the personal and social aspects of my life that might change in the next year.
I was not expecting 2011 to come to a close in the way it is. My dad seems to think that I'm due for a really good year. I think he's right. For some reason, I think 2012 might be that year - but I don't want to count my chickens before they hatch....you know? So in the mean time...I'm just going to take things one day at a time. I find that looking too far forward really does me a disservice because things can change in a moment.....
Here's to the new year! Wishing everyone a healthy and happy 2012!
Friday, December 30, 2011
Sunday, December 25, 2011
Merry Christmas!
For the few of you who read this and are NOT celebrating Christmas today....Happy Hanukkah, Happy Festivus, Happy Kwanzaa...etc. And for you Jehova's Witness'.....well......nothing back at ya. :-)
I was chatting with my friend Rich this past week and he said prior to calling that he was looking at my blog to see what he needed to catch up on before he called....and then said that there was nothing posted on my blog for months. Ha! I owned up to that because I've been WAY too busy and in my free time I'm usually reading or sleeping...so here it is. Christmas morning. I'm the only one awake. I figured now is as good a time as any to do this. Expect at least 1 more post before the year is over. I mean, I do need to do my traditional new years resolutions and such :-).
But I digress.....on to the updates:
1. 2011 started out with SO much hope and possibility. The year has had it's ups and downs and for awhile I was SO ready to get off the rollercoaster but realized quickly that not all the bad things going on are truly bad. It's just a matter of perspective :-)
2. Since my last post - I've been getting a lot of things in order:
a. I finished my teaching classes and will now be teaching at Lower Merion High School starting January 18th as a student teacher for Mr. Rich Kressly. I realize this isn't entirely NEW news but it's still exciting nonetheless. It's also official. I think the last time I was writing about it I was SO nervous and had a lot of anxiety about it. Beyond student teaching, I have about three more classes for my second masters degree (READ: NERD). I've already been looking into PhD programs......um, yeah.....
b. The most wonderful time of the year started and is currently en medias res: SWIM SEASON!!!!! YAYAYAYAYAYA! We all know how much love to coach and how amazingly happy swimming makes me. This year is no different. The girls are so awesome and we're a solid team! We're already three meets into the season - and this last one made me so proud to be their coach and made me feel like I'm actually doing a good job for once :-).
c. I ran a Marathon! (haha, way to bury the lead katie)....but for realsies, it was by far the hardest thing I think I've every (physically) done. I have friends who I've asked about having babies and how much pain that is. They say a marathon will pretty much beat you up more than having a kid. Sweet - so it's all downhill from here! I'm still debating whether I'll sign up for another one. The possibility of running the Dublin Marathon in October is being dangled in my face. I suppose it'll all depend on how much everything costs (plane ticket, etc). Oh yeah, I finished in just over 4 hours - 4:03 and change....
d. Kelly got her thyroid out (Thursday) and is recovering nicely. Yeah, I know - this isn't necessarily about me - but hey - it affects me and therein it's important so I talk about it :-). Let's hope this helps some of the other medical issues she's been having.
e. What else.............................................................well................................heheheheh. I started dating someone :-) Most of you are friends with me on facebook so you already know who it is but we'll just go with first names on here. I'll write more about the story of us "meeting" in another post but to put it succinctly: He's probably one of the nicest, kindest, sweetest, most caring, and thoughtful people I know in my life. Which only makes his handsomeness shine through even more. I feel as though he sometimes doesn't give himself enough credit when it comes to seeing how truly amazing of a person he is - but then he's a Cancer, like me, and I think that's a trait we all have :-) He makes me so incredibly happy. I can truly be myself around him without worrying whether he'll judge me for the things I said or do or the mistakes I make or how often I forget some of the small minor details that he knows I really know. I'm so excited to start 2012 with him and see what the new year has in store for us. :-)
What's coming up:
1. Student Teaching - as I mentioned earlier. I have three books to read and write out three unit plans for three different classes. I'm pumped but dreading it. The reading part is the easy part. I have to figure out how long the Co-op wants me to spend on each book.
2. Figuring out my workout regime - since I'll be in school by 7:15 every day, I'll need to decide if I'm going to work out early in the morning before school or after Swim?/Lax practices - which means I won't start working out til about 6:30 or so. That's honestly not too late - and might be better for me. I could also teach evening spin class if I did that.
3. The rest of swim season. A few good things about this season - I'm probably going to have a pretty big squad going to Districts this year - Districts is also on a Thursday and Friday this year - so that means I won't have to give up my saturday! Lots of organizing to do. I feel like this season is just going by in a blur!
4. Lacrosse season - starts the week after Swim Season is over. Yikes! No rest for the wicked. We'll be getting a new assistant coach this year because Gretchen now officially lives in Hawaii (damn her).
So anyway - I hope everyone is having a wonderful holiday season. That's all I got for this morning. I'm gonna see if I can't go catch some holiday movie on TV. Or just read (nerd).
Happy Chrismakwanzkkah!
I was chatting with my friend Rich this past week and he said prior to calling that he was looking at my blog to see what he needed to catch up on before he called....and then said that there was nothing posted on my blog for months. Ha! I owned up to that because I've been WAY too busy and in my free time I'm usually reading or sleeping...so here it is. Christmas morning. I'm the only one awake. I figured now is as good a time as any to do this. Expect at least 1 more post before the year is over. I mean, I do need to do my traditional new years resolutions and such :-).
But I digress.....on to the updates:
1. 2011 started out with SO much hope and possibility. The year has had it's ups and downs and for awhile I was SO ready to get off the rollercoaster but realized quickly that not all the bad things going on are truly bad. It's just a matter of perspective :-)
2. Since my last post - I've been getting a lot of things in order:
a. I finished my teaching classes and will now be teaching at Lower Merion High School starting January 18th as a student teacher for Mr. Rich Kressly. I realize this isn't entirely NEW news but it's still exciting nonetheless. It's also official. I think the last time I was writing about it I was SO nervous and had a lot of anxiety about it. Beyond student teaching, I have about three more classes for my second masters degree (READ: NERD). I've already been looking into PhD programs......um, yeah.....
b. The most wonderful time of the year started and is currently en medias res: SWIM SEASON!!!!! YAYAYAYAYAYA! We all know how much love to coach and how amazingly happy swimming makes me. This year is no different. The girls are so awesome and we're a solid team! We're already three meets into the season - and this last one made me so proud to be their coach and made me feel like I'm actually doing a good job for once :-).
c. I ran a Marathon! (haha, way to bury the lead katie)....but for realsies, it was by far the hardest thing I think I've every (physically) done. I have friends who I've asked about having babies and how much pain that is. They say a marathon will pretty much beat you up more than having a kid. Sweet - so it's all downhill from here! I'm still debating whether I'll sign up for another one. The possibility of running the Dublin Marathon in October is being dangled in my face. I suppose it'll all depend on how much everything costs (plane ticket, etc). Oh yeah, I finished in just over 4 hours - 4:03 and change....
d. Kelly got her thyroid out (Thursday) and is recovering nicely. Yeah, I know - this isn't necessarily about me - but hey - it affects me and therein it's important so I talk about it :-). Let's hope this helps some of the other medical issues she's been having.
e. What else.............................................................well................................heheheheh. I started dating someone :-) Most of you are friends with me on facebook so you already know who it is but we'll just go with first names on here. I'll write more about the story of us "meeting" in another post but to put it succinctly: He's probably one of the nicest, kindest, sweetest, most caring, and thoughtful people I know in my life. Which only makes his handsomeness shine through even more. I feel as though he sometimes doesn't give himself enough credit when it comes to seeing how truly amazing of a person he is - but then he's a Cancer, like me, and I think that's a trait we all have :-) He makes me so incredibly happy. I can truly be myself around him without worrying whether he'll judge me for the things I said or do or the mistakes I make or how often I forget some of the small minor details that he knows I really know. I'm so excited to start 2012 with him and see what the new year has in store for us. :-)
What's coming up:
1. Student Teaching - as I mentioned earlier. I have three books to read and write out three unit plans for three different classes. I'm pumped but dreading it. The reading part is the easy part. I have to figure out how long the Co-op wants me to spend on each book.
2. Figuring out my workout regime - since I'll be in school by 7:15 every day, I'll need to decide if I'm going to work out early in the morning before school or after Swim?/Lax practices - which means I won't start working out til about 6:30 or so. That's honestly not too late - and might be better for me. I could also teach evening spin class if I did that.
3. The rest of swim season. A few good things about this season - I'm probably going to have a pretty big squad going to Districts this year - Districts is also on a Thursday and Friday this year - so that means I won't have to give up my saturday! Lots of organizing to do. I feel like this season is just going by in a blur!
4. Lacrosse season - starts the week after Swim Season is over. Yikes! No rest for the wicked. We'll be getting a new assistant coach this year because Gretchen now officially lives in Hawaii (damn her).
So anyway - I hope everyone is having a wonderful holiday season. That's all I got for this morning. I'm gonna see if I can't go catch some holiday movie on TV. Or just read (nerd).
Happy Chrismakwanzkkah!
Thursday, November 10, 2011
Do Not Worry
I know I've used this on here before but I think right now it rings very true for me and my life.....enjoy.
“Therefore I tell you, do not worry about your life, what you will eat or drink; or about your body, what you will wear. Is not life more than food, and the body more than clothes? Look at the birds of the air; they do not sow or reap or store away in barns, and yet your heavenly Father feeds them. Are you not much more valuable than they? Can any one of you by worrying add a single hour to your life?"
“And why do you worry about clothes? See how the flowers of the field grow. They do not labor or spin. Yet I tell you that not even Solomon in all his splendor was dressed like one of these. If that is how God clothes the grass of the field, which is here today and tomorrow is thrown into the fire, will he not much more clothe you—you of little faith? So do not worry, saying, ‘What shall we eat?’ or ‘What shall we drink?’ or ‘What shall we wear?’ For the pagans run after all these things, and your heavenly Father knows that you need them. But seek first his kingdom and his righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well. Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own.
Matthew 6:25-34
“Therefore I tell you, do not worry about your life, what you will eat or drink; or about your body, what you will wear. Is not life more than food, and the body more than clothes? Look at the birds of the air; they do not sow or reap or store away in barns, and yet your heavenly Father feeds them. Are you not much more valuable than they? Can any one of you by worrying add a single hour to your life?"
“And why do you worry about clothes? See how the flowers of the field grow. They do not labor or spin. Yet I tell you that not even Solomon in all his splendor was dressed like one of these. If that is how God clothes the grass of the field, which is here today and tomorrow is thrown into the fire, will he not much more clothe you—you of little faith? So do not worry, saying, ‘What shall we eat?’ or ‘What shall we drink?’ or ‘What shall we wear?’ For the pagans run after all these things, and your heavenly Father knows that you need them. But seek first his kingdom and his righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well. Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own.
Matthew 6:25-34
Tuesday, November 1, 2011
Friday, October 28, 2011
Monday, October 24, 2011
A few questions....
Welcome to the new week people!
Did you like my video blog? I'm not sure if I'll do another - even though I said I would.
So my friend Heather and I have been talking a lot lately about how wonderful it is to have friends and family that care but at the same time, sucks because they think they're helping us with the comments they say.
Take for example - Heather was at her grandmother's 91st birthday celebration yesterday (woo for long life genes!) and she told me that most of the day she had tears in her eyes because everyone in her family kept asking her why she didn't have someone special yet? And how she's such a wonderful person that it's a shame for it to go to waste.
A few things I that I have issues with on this: 1. I totally get how she's feeling. It happens to me all the time with my family and some of my friends who I haven't seen or talked to in a while. 2. Why wouldn't it be okay for her to be a wonderful person on her own? Is she still going to waste to her friends and family? 3. What makes you think it SO EASY to find someone out there?
Heather, like me, has tried and feels as though she's exhausted her options as far as dating goes. Online. Check. Speed dating. Check. Mixers for 30-somethings. Check. Random setups. Check. Social bump-ins. Check. You get the point.
We went out on Saturday night and both agreed in our conversation that everyone else seems to make it look so easy. So my questions are as follows:
-Is it REALLY that easy to find someone?
-WHY MUST PEOPLE CONTINUALLY MAKE US FEEL BAD FOR HOW WE'RE LIVING OUR LIFE WHEN WE'RE TRYING TO DO THE BEST WE CAN? (I'm lookin at my mother on this).
-If it really IS that easy, what's wrong with me that I haven't been able to find it?
I watch a whole lot of dating shows - Tough Love, 'Why Am I Still Single?, Millionaire Matchmaker - to get some ideas as to what I might be doing wrong when it comes to meeting someone. For the good majority, I've changed a lot of how I approach guys. I used to get very physical way too soon.
I was talking with my dad about it yesterday and he asked me - of all the guys that are currently my 'friends', do any of them fit my ramifications? I explained to him that they do - but the thing is - I don't want to sleep with any of them. Because he made the argument that if I'm looking for someone who's 'just like my dad', then I should have a nice selection, right? That is a good point - HOWEVER - I don't want to sleep with my dad....so I don't want to sleep with these guys. Make sense?
More questions:
-Do people think it's comforting to hear, 'but you're so wonderful, I just wish you'd find someone already'? And why is it okay for you to judge me based on my marital status? ('oh you're a single 30 year old, you must have issues' - NEWS FLASH - WE'VE ALL GOT ISSUES!)
-Why are we SO emphatic about people needing someone else? (more of a philosophical question)
Because the truth of the matter is - I want to find someone. Just because I'm still single doesn't mean I don't want to find anyone...it means I haven't been able to. And of the ones I supposedly have, there's no physical chemistry. I want to share my life with someone. I want to have a family and start a new chapter with someone. I do. I really and truly do.
People tell me I'm not open to it. I don't know how much more open to it I could be. I've even toyed with the idea of doing online dating again...if only it didn't cost anything.
Did you like my video blog? I'm not sure if I'll do another - even though I said I would.
So my friend Heather and I have been talking a lot lately about how wonderful it is to have friends and family that care but at the same time, sucks because they think they're helping us with the comments they say.
Take for example - Heather was at her grandmother's 91st birthday celebration yesterday (woo for long life genes!) and she told me that most of the day she had tears in her eyes because everyone in her family kept asking her why she didn't have someone special yet? And how she's such a wonderful person that it's a shame for it to go to waste.
A few things I that I have issues with on this: 1. I totally get how she's feeling. It happens to me all the time with my family and some of my friends who I haven't seen or talked to in a while. 2. Why wouldn't it be okay for her to be a wonderful person on her own? Is she still going to waste to her friends and family? 3. What makes you think it SO EASY to find someone out there?
Heather, like me, has tried and feels as though she's exhausted her options as far as dating goes. Online. Check. Speed dating. Check. Mixers for 30-somethings. Check. Random setups. Check. Social bump-ins. Check. You get the point.
We went out on Saturday night and both agreed in our conversation that everyone else seems to make it look so easy. So my questions are as follows:
-Is it REALLY that easy to find someone?
-WHY MUST PEOPLE CONTINUALLY MAKE US FEEL BAD FOR HOW WE'RE LIVING OUR LIFE WHEN WE'RE TRYING TO DO THE BEST WE CAN? (I'm lookin at my mother on this).
-If it really IS that easy, what's wrong with me that I haven't been able to find it?
I watch a whole lot of dating shows - Tough Love, 'Why Am I Still Single?, Millionaire Matchmaker - to get some ideas as to what I might be doing wrong when it comes to meeting someone. For the good majority, I've changed a lot of how I approach guys. I used to get very physical way too soon.
I was talking with my dad about it yesterday and he asked me - of all the guys that are currently my 'friends', do any of them fit my ramifications? I explained to him that they do - but the thing is - I don't want to sleep with any of them. Because he made the argument that if I'm looking for someone who's 'just like my dad', then I should have a nice selection, right? That is a good point - HOWEVER - I don't want to sleep with my dad....so I don't want to sleep with these guys. Make sense?
More questions:
-Do people think it's comforting to hear, 'but you're so wonderful, I just wish you'd find someone already'? And why is it okay for you to judge me based on my marital status? ('oh you're a single 30 year old, you must have issues' - NEWS FLASH - WE'VE ALL GOT ISSUES!)
-Why are we SO emphatic about people needing someone else? (more of a philosophical question)
Because the truth of the matter is - I want to find someone. Just because I'm still single doesn't mean I don't want to find anyone...it means I haven't been able to. And of the ones I supposedly have, there's no physical chemistry. I want to share my life with someone. I want to have a family and start a new chapter with someone. I do. I really and truly do.
People tell me I'm not open to it. I don't know how much more open to it I could be. I've even toyed with the idea of doing online dating again...if only it didn't cost anything.
Wednesday, October 19, 2011
Tiredness
The current theme of my life. Tiredness.
It all started last Friday night and I guess I haven't completely recovered. Friday night I went out to Happy Hour with my friend Heather...we went to 333 Belrose, then Mixx, then Hykel's, and then John Henry's. Heather was kind enough to cover all the bills for the evening...nice friend, huh? She assured me that it was entirely okay and that once I had a real job, I could pay her back. I don't like doing that too often but it was nice of her and she's superawesomesauce so it was hard for me to say no. Plus, it was bound to be a fun night. AND. IT. WAS. Esp since I drank 5 glasses of wine..and then water. Lots of water.
See, remember that swim conference I told you about? Yeah, I still had to get to bed early enough that night so I would be okay the rest of the weekend. And although I was in bed by 11pm - I think the fact that Martha stopped by and I was already tired from the previous week...it all caught up to me. I felt and looked like crapola for the whole weekend of the conference. Didn't matter to me. I was there to learn. I have no one to impress. So after not working out all day Saturday and feeling like poop I decided (as you know from a previous post) to get up early on Sunday and run. And I did. At 5 AM. I'm crazy.
The run was less than spectacular and I only made it through 3.55 miles (which you know). And I headed to the conference feeling better but realizing that the wind that was blowing in my eyes that morning caused some major irritations....soooooo...I had puffy eyes the rest of the day. Ugh. I couldn't win. I got out of there relatively early that day. I got to go home and hang out a bit and just relax. I had to go house sit for Will and Gus so I ended up going to bed at 9PM but didn't fall asleep at 10 instead. The freakin' dogs were annoying the bejesus out of me and woke me up three times Sunday night so I didn't get a good night sleep. Had to get up at 6 to get Gus and Will off to school.
Monday I taught spin and after I got home and made some lunch, I attempted to read some of my book for my Lit class - I ended up taking a 2 hour nap instead. I was still tired. I went to bed early again Monday but woke up earlier on Tuesday. The 20 mile run became a 9 mile run. Last night I attempted to go to bed early but still didn't fall asleep til 11. Woke up at 6:30 today and taught spin. Felt tired from the getgo but Spin made me feel better. I had a full day but after I sat to read for three hours - I was ready for a nap. The dentist appointment I had didn't let me sleep and I had practice tonight.
I've got a full few more days through the weekend and it doesn't stop next week either. Something every day/night next week. Whew. Did you get all that?
It all started last Friday night and I guess I haven't completely recovered. Friday night I went out to Happy Hour with my friend Heather...we went to 333 Belrose, then Mixx, then Hykel's, and then John Henry's. Heather was kind enough to cover all the bills for the evening...nice friend, huh? She assured me that it was entirely okay and that once I had a real job, I could pay her back. I don't like doing that too often but it was nice of her and she's superawesomesauce so it was hard for me to say no. Plus, it was bound to be a fun night. AND. IT. WAS. Esp since I drank 5 glasses of wine..and then water. Lots of water.
See, remember that swim conference I told you about? Yeah, I still had to get to bed early enough that night so I would be okay the rest of the weekend. And although I was in bed by 11pm - I think the fact that Martha stopped by and I was already tired from the previous week...it all caught up to me. I felt and looked like crapola for the whole weekend of the conference. Didn't matter to me. I was there to learn. I have no one to impress. So after not working out all day Saturday and feeling like poop I decided (as you know from a previous post) to get up early on Sunday and run. And I did. At 5 AM. I'm crazy.
The run was less than spectacular and I only made it through 3.55 miles (which you know). And I headed to the conference feeling better but realizing that the wind that was blowing in my eyes that morning caused some major irritations....soooooo...I had puffy eyes the rest of the day. Ugh. I couldn't win. I got out of there relatively early that day. I got to go home and hang out a bit and just relax. I had to go house sit for Will and Gus so I ended up going to bed at 9PM but didn't fall asleep at 10 instead. The freakin' dogs were annoying the bejesus out of me and woke me up three times Sunday night so I didn't get a good night sleep. Had to get up at 6 to get Gus and Will off to school.
Monday I taught spin and after I got home and made some lunch, I attempted to read some of my book for my Lit class - I ended up taking a 2 hour nap instead. I was still tired. I went to bed early again Monday but woke up earlier on Tuesday. The 20 mile run became a 9 mile run. Last night I attempted to go to bed early but still didn't fall asleep til 11. Woke up at 6:30 today and taught spin. Felt tired from the getgo but Spin made me feel better. I had a full day but after I sat to read for three hours - I was ready for a nap. The dentist appointment I had didn't let me sleep and I had practice tonight.
I've got a full few more days through the weekend and it doesn't stop next week either. Something every day/night next week. Whew. Did you get all that?
Tuesday, October 18, 2011
Confession(s) Time...
Remember that 20 mile run I wanted to get in today (Tuesday)?
Confession: It didn't happen. Well. The run still happened. I finished 9 miles. Huffing and Puffing. I guess that's what happens when you step away from running for five days....eek! And I thought I was doing myself a favor! I just couldn't keep my heart rate under control and my breathing was all wacky. I don't know what was up with me but I should've known to postpone my run when my green iPod wasn't working. Then I had to switch to my purple iPod which is tempermental. THEN my garmin was like...what's this shizzz...we're running today? Oh hell no. Thankgoodness I got that to reset and work. I even had my camelback all juiced up and ready to go. And then..the first half mile went so quickly. I thought maybe I just had too much bottled up energy and I went out too fast. I did finish half a mile in 3 minutes (song time)....sooooo, yeah. But I kept going anyway - despite the heart palpatations. You'dve thought I was out of shape...eek.
I have been feeling lethargic this week - maybe that's the two days off. Maybe it's Martha (most likely). I just hope in a month from now when I have the Marathon, I'm not dealing with this! UGH.
Confession: When I get stressed, I like to make lists - calendars - organize everything. I worry a lot about forgetting things when I'm stressed because that's the FIRST sign you're stressed out...forgetting things. As of right now, I haven't forgotten too much. Why? Because I write it all down. You better believe as of right now not only do I have a planner - but I have a re-written schedule - then a list of things for the week - then a list of things each day - then a list of things I'm doing each day of the week. Yup. I told ya.
I'm pretty sure I've mentioned my OCD-edness on here before. Yes? I have OCD about organization of my schedule/lists/things. Sometimes - sometimes I do just let it go. But after about a week, I get that itch again. On my way home from Baldwin last night I started thinking about how much stuff I have to do in the next two and a half months. So I made a list. I've also since revised the list.
In the months after the new year, I'll have a slew of new things on the list.
I won't bore you with my list right now - but honestly - I make these lists and then lately, I've been slackin on finishing them. I don't know why. I guess I'm a laid back organized person? Like I don't have the same urgency to get certain things finished. I know I'll get them done. I don't leave it to the last minute, I just don't do it right away. This little habit irks my mother to no end. She doesn't understand why I hesitate to do things. Part of me waits on some things becuse ocassionally things will change and it was better that I waited. All-in-all though, I'm never one of those girls that waits to the last minute to pay a bill or call someone. Atleast, I don't think I am.
Confession: I found Jenna Marbles Blog via a friend on Facebook after watching This Video. O. M. G. It is seriously funny. This chick is awesome and yet somewhat obnoxious but I have to agree with her while confessing that I have had a few of the moments she talks about. :-/ EEK. Told ya it was confession time.
Confession: I've been house sitting for Gus and Will since Sunday. I'm finished as of today but I just love watching these boys. They're hilariously funny and they make me laugh. I hope I have kids just like them one day - but mine will assuredly clean up after themselves.
Confession: I am counting down the days til Swim Season starts! I CAN NOT WAIT! I love coaching (as you all know) and this season has a lot of great things in it to look forward to. I'm meeting with my captains on Thursday.
Confession: I feel like I've been a terrible friend lately. I don't call anyone anymore. I don't even text anyone really. I guess I'm going through kind of a funk. Eh.
On the UPSWING!
As upset as I was about only getting in 9 miles today - it was 9 miles more than I had run the day before!
As stressed as I am right now, things are looking up :-) And there are a lot of good things coming my way in the next two months.
I love finding ridiculous videos on the internets to make me laugh.
My being a bad friend won't continue. Everyone gets busy. Atleast, I hope my friends don't just get mad at me now because I haven't contacted anyone. I guess if they're true friends, they'll understand....
Confession: It didn't happen. Well. The run still happened. I finished 9 miles. Huffing and Puffing. I guess that's what happens when you step away from running for five days....eek! And I thought I was doing myself a favor! I just couldn't keep my heart rate under control and my breathing was all wacky. I don't know what was up with me but I should've known to postpone my run when my green iPod wasn't working. Then I had to switch to my purple iPod which is tempermental. THEN my garmin was like...what's this shizzz...we're running today? Oh hell no. Thankgoodness I got that to reset and work. I even had my camelback all juiced up and ready to go. And then..the first half mile went so quickly. I thought maybe I just had too much bottled up energy and I went out too fast. I did finish half a mile in 3 minutes (song time)....sooooo, yeah. But I kept going anyway - despite the heart palpatations. You'dve thought I was out of shape...eek.
I have been feeling lethargic this week - maybe that's the two days off. Maybe it's Martha (most likely). I just hope in a month from now when I have the Marathon, I'm not dealing with this! UGH.
Confession: When I get stressed, I like to make lists - calendars - organize everything. I worry a lot about forgetting things when I'm stressed because that's the FIRST sign you're stressed out...forgetting things. As of right now, I haven't forgotten too much. Why? Because I write it all down. You better believe as of right now not only do I have a planner - but I have a re-written schedule - then a list of things for the week - then a list of things each day - then a list of things I'm doing each day of the week. Yup. I told ya.
I'm pretty sure I've mentioned my OCD-edness on here before. Yes? I have OCD about organization of my schedule/lists/things. Sometimes - sometimes I do just let it go. But after about a week, I get that itch again. On my way home from Baldwin last night I started thinking about how much stuff I have to do in the next two and a half months. So I made a list. I've also since revised the list.
In the months after the new year, I'll have a slew of new things on the list.
I won't bore you with my list right now - but honestly - I make these lists and then lately, I've been slackin on finishing them. I don't know why. I guess I'm a laid back organized person? Like I don't have the same urgency to get certain things finished. I know I'll get them done. I don't leave it to the last minute, I just don't do it right away. This little habit irks my mother to no end. She doesn't understand why I hesitate to do things. Part of me waits on some things becuse ocassionally things will change and it was better that I waited. All-in-all though, I'm never one of those girls that waits to the last minute to pay a bill or call someone. Atleast, I don't think I am.
Confession: I found Jenna Marbles Blog via a friend on Facebook after watching This Video. O. M. G. It is seriously funny. This chick is awesome and yet somewhat obnoxious but I have to agree with her while confessing that I have had a few of the moments she talks about. :-/ EEK. Told ya it was confession time.
Confession: I've been house sitting for Gus and Will since Sunday. I'm finished as of today but I just love watching these boys. They're hilariously funny and they make me laugh. I hope I have kids just like them one day - but mine will assuredly clean up after themselves.
Confession: I am counting down the days til Swim Season starts! I CAN NOT WAIT! I love coaching (as you all know) and this season has a lot of great things in it to look forward to. I'm meeting with my captains on Thursday.
Confession: I feel like I've been a terrible friend lately. I don't call anyone anymore. I don't even text anyone really. I guess I'm going through kind of a funk. Eh.
On the UPSWING!
As upset as I was about only getting in 9 miles today - it was 9 miles more than I had run the day before!
As stressed as I am right now, things are looking up :-) And there are a lot of good things coming my way in the next two months.
I love finding ridiculous videos on the internets to make me laugh.
My being a bad friend won't continue. Everyone gets busy. Atleast, I hope my friends don't just get mad at me now because I haven't contacted anyone. I guess if they're true friends, they'll understand....
Sunday, October 16, 2011
early morning drabble....and other nonsensical stuff
redundant, no?
A few items before I venture off to Cherry Hill on this brisk Sunday morning. How do I know? Funny you should ask....I decided that I'm JUST crazy enough to get up at 5am and go for a run. Albeit - it was only 3.55 miles...but it was more than I thought I'd do all weekend. Truth be told - I'm supposed to be running a Half Marathon today in Hershey with my trusty running partner Beth Any...but because of the swim clinic/conference (and it's kind of part of my job)...I'm missing it. I'm bummed! Honestly - it's fine - Martha decided to stop by this morning so I wasn't really feelin it...hence only the 3.55 miles....but I digress....
In random yet sequential order (and solely sequential because I've numbered them....gosh aren't I quite the nerd at 6:36am)....
1. I've decided to start fresh with my eating/drinking/exercising habits. My friend heather and I decided that after Friday night...it's time to 'go on the wagon' so to speak. She suggested two weeks - I said - 'how about until for a long time'? She said that's even better. You see....my wallet...it loves me. But it loves me because I keep using it. I. However. Do not love it. Yes it's pink and cute and from Fossil. But those are materialistic things. So are it's contents for that matter - with the exception of my drivers license (because that's necessary), insurance card and car registration. All very important. I felt like crappity crap all day yesterday and even though part of it was because of the impending arrival of Martha....I just don't want to feel like that.
2. Another big reason I only did 3.55 today was because on Thursday when I ran, my left shin on the side of my leg just above my ankle started to really bother me. Today when I ran I wore different sneakers...but usually when anything on my legs hurt when I run it's because I need new sneaks. That being said - I'm up to 950 miles for the year so far. Only 250 to go! I can do it! Esp since I have a marathon in there and the training for the marathon. December might be a bit tougher since I'll probably do most of my running inside but - I can do it! 1200 miles on the year, here I come! Next year I won't be able to accomplish that many because I'll have to alter my workouts - but more on that later.
3. Met Ryan Lochte and Nathan Adrian yesterday. Who's Ryan Lochte and Nathan Adrian?! Kill Yourself....(does anyone get that reference?...no? If you don't watch Glee you won't get it.)...
Ryan Lochte
Nathan Adrian
Together
ANNNNNND you're welcome....
You can be jealous now :-)
So pumped to see them again today!
4. While I was at the swim clinic yesterday, I decided - as much as it'll be to take on - I'm going to start a blog/site for the girls/boys team(s) this year and continue it. I think it'd be a good way for them to get information about things and it'll eliminate too many emails.
5. Getting lots of good tips/ideas from the clinic. There a few sessions this morning I'm pumped to hear about. The most interesting one yesterday was on sports psychology. I might buy some of the guy's stuff either today or online to help me with the team this year. I want to take a different approach.
6. I'm house sitting starting tonight thru Tuesday evening. I'm gonna be tired all week. I'm not doing anything (if at all) until Friday. I might try to pick up Friday coaching shift and possibly even Saturday morning - we'll see. One of the coaches is going away so I might try to take it up from her.
7. I need to finish my USSC certification.
8. I need to look into getting my training certification.
9. I have to call the Y and LA Fitness back about adding some more spin classes.
10. I have to read A Wrinkle in Time for my YA Lit class this week. I've never read it. It's science fiction, no? Apparently we're also going to watch parts of the movie too.
11. I think I'm picking The Book Thief for my outside reading for that class. Anyone know if it's good or not? I was gonna do the Hunger Games but turns out everyone else wants to do that too. Besides, why not pick a book I haven't read yet?
Anywho gotta grab something to eat and then head out! Yay! Informative Swim Meetings and HOT SWIMMERS!
A few items before I venture off to Cherry Hill on this brisk Sunday morning. How do I know? Funny you should ask....I decided that I'm JUST crazy enough to get up at 5am and go for a run. Albeit - it was only 3.55 miles...but it was more than I thought I'd do all weekend. Truth be told - I'm supposed to be running a Half Marathon today in Hershey with my trusty running partner Beth Any...but because of the swim clinic/conference (and it's kind of part of my job)...I'm missing it. I'm bummed! Honestly - it's fine - Martha decided to stop by this morning so I wasn't really feelin it...hence only the 3.55 miles....but I digress....
In random yet sequential order (and solely sequential because I've numbered them....gosh aren't I quite the nerd at 6:36am)....
1. I've decided to start fresh with my eating/drinking/exercising habits. My friend heather and I decided that after Friday night...it's time to 'go on the wagon' so to speak. She suggested two weeks - I said - 'how about until for a long time'? She said that's even better. You see....my wallet...it loves me. But it loves me because I keep using it. I. However. Do not love it. Yes it's pink and cute and from Fossil. But those are materialistic things. So are it's contents for that matter - with the exception of my drivers license (because that's necessary), insurance card and car registration. All very important. I felt like crappity crap all day yesterday and even though part of it was because of the impending arrival of Martha....I just don't want to feel like that.
2. Another big reason I only did 3.55 today was because on Thursday when I ran, my left shin on the side of my leg just above my ankle started to really bother me. Today when I ran I wore different sneakers...but usually when anything on my legs hurt when I run it's because I need new sneaks. That being said - I'm up to 950 miles for the year so far. Only 250 to go! I can do it! Esp since I have a marathon in there and the training for the marathon. December might be a bit tougher since I'll probably do most of my running inside but - I can do it! 1200 miles on the year, here I come! Next year I won't be able to accomplish that many because I'll have to alter my workouts - but more on that later.
3. Met Ryan Lochte and Nathan Adrian yesterday. Who's Ryan Lochte and Nathan Adrian?! Kill Yourself....(does anyone get that reference?...no? If you don't watch Glee you won't get it.)...
Ryan Lochte
Nathan Adrian
Together
ANNNNNND you're welcome....
You can be jealous now :-)
So pumped to see them again today!
4. While I was at the swim clinic yesterday, I decided - as much as it'll be to take on - I'm going to start a blog/site for the girls/boys team(s) this year and continue it. I think it'd be a good way for them to get information about things and it'll eliminate too many emails.
5. Getting lots of good tips/ideas from the clinic. There a few sessions this morning I'm pumped to hear about. The most interesting one yesterday was on sports psychology. I might buy some of the guy's stuff either today or online to help me with the team this year. I want to take a different approach.
6. I'm house sitting starting tonight thru Tuesday evening. I'm gonna be tired all week. I'm not doing anything (if at all) until Friday. I might try to pick up Friday coaching shift and possibly even Saturday morning - we'll see. One of the coaches is going away so I might try to take it up from her.
7. I need to finish my USSC certification.
8. I need to look into getting my training certification.
9. I have to call the Y and LA Fitness back about adding some more spin classes.
10. I have to read A Wrinkle in Time for my YA Lit class this week. I've never read it. It's science fiction, no? Apparently we're also going to watch parts of the movie too.
11. I think I'm picking The Book Thief for my outside reading for that class. Anyone know if it's good or not? I was gonna do the Hunger Games but turns out everyone else wants to do that too. Besides, why not pick a book I haven't read yet?
Anywho gotta grab something to eat and then head out! Yay! Informative Swim Meetings and HOT SWIMMERS!
Tuesday, October 11, 2011
Love that movie!
Evey Hammond: Who are you?
V: Who? Who is but the form following the function of what, and what I am is a man in a mask.
Evey Hammond: Well I can see that.
V: Of course you can. I'm not questioning your powers of observation, I'm merely remarking upon the paradox of asking a masked man who he is.
Seriously, V for Vendetta is a great movie. I wish more people knew it...and if you do (Painter, I know you do)...you're one of the lucky ones! It was on TV last night and amongst my channel surfing (now that I live on my own I can flip back and forth as much as I want!) I stopped upon V for Vendetta and flipped back and forth between that and....wait for it....Stick It. Yes, the adolescent motion picture about gymnasts. Don't judge me.
On a related note - I was recently asked why I've chosen to leave some things off my blog - i.e. stuff about guys - and I simply said to the person that it's mainly because when I write stuff here it's to basically journal but because people are reading it - a sense of judgement can come out based on what they're reading and rather than be judged for something that usually in my opinion isn't worthy of being judged for, I'm leaving it out. I find the older I get, the more difficult it becomes for me to tell things to people and even my friends without them judging me in the back of their minds. Sad but true. You don't expect your friends to judge you - you expect them to accept you for all your wonderful qualities and your shortcomings too. No one is perfect....there's some quote somewhere that says, "judge not lest ye be judged" - from the bible I think?
But back to the top quote(s)....I've been pondering who I am lately and what it is I hope to continue to be. Right now, I'm a graduate student who's got a million and one things going on. I feel as though I'm too old for this shit sometimes. I can't wait to have a normal job again. Possibly odd to some but true. Right now, I'm stressed so I've been forgetting things. I'm trying to make lists so I don't forget but you know how that goes...I forget to put things on my list! Ha. I'm also trying to make money every which way.
I have a long list of things to accomplish before the end of this month....time to get started!
V: Who? Who is but the form following the function of what, and what I am is a man in a mask.
Evey Hammond: Well I can see that.
V: Of course you can. I'm not questioning your powers of observation, I'm merely remarking upon the paradox of asking a masked man who he is.
Seriously, V for Vendetta is a great movie. I wish more people knew it...and if you do (Painter, I know you do)...you're one of the lucky ones! It was on TV last night and amongst my channel surfing (now that I live on my own I can flip back and forth as much as I want!) I stopped upon V for Vendetta and flipped back and forth between that and....wait for it....Stick It. Yes, the adolescent motion picture about gymnasts. Don't judge me.
On a related note - I was recently asked why I've chosen to leave some things off my blog - i.e. stuff about guys - and I simply said to the person that it's mainly because when I write stuff here it's to basically journal but because people are reading it - a sense of judgement can come out based on what they're reading and rather than be judged for something that usually in my opinion isn't worthy of being judged for, I'm leaving it out. I find the older I get, the more difficult it becomes for me to tell things to people and even my friends without them judging me in the back of their minds. Sad but true. You don't expect your friends to judge you - you expect them to accept you for all your wonderful qualities and your shortcomings too. No one is perfect....there's some quote somewhere that says, "judge not lest ye be judged" - from the bible I think?
But back to the top quote(s)....I've been pondering who I am lately and what it is I hope to continue to be. Right now, I'm a graduate student who's got a million and one things going on. I feel as though I'm too old for this shit sometimes. I can't wait to have a normal job again. Possibly odd to some but true. Right now, I'm stressed so I've been forgetting things. I'm trying to make lists so I don't forget but you know how that goes...I forget to put things on my list! Ha. I'm also trying to make money every which way.
I have a long list of things to accomplish before the end of this month....time to get started!
Thursday, October 6, 2011
Double Your Pleasure...Double Your Fun....
Twice in one day.
I've blogged twice and three times in one day. But seriously. I am starting to melt.
I really need to either have a two hour sob-fest or I need to go all rambo on something. Anyone own a gun and want to take me to a shooting range? I wouldn't actually shoot anyone - just need to release some tension! And no, it's not pent up sexual frustration. Trust me.
I'll let you in on a little secret....which is actually a big secret....
I have....NO. IDEA. WHAT. I'M. DOING. WITH. MY. LIFE.
Just when I thought I might actually be heading down the right path with my life...I start thinking I might not be.
It's moments like these when I question myself - why did I ever leave television? Why did I ever leave florida? What possessed me to make these drastic changes in my life?
I think back on the time when I did make these decisions and I find it weird that I changed my whole life when things were actually going so well.
-I had steady freelance work with the possibility of more coming my way.
-I wasn't missing PA because I was loving living in Florida and the foundation of friends I had built whom I still miss every day. Despite the lessening of communication, I know they miss me and they always ask me to move back.
-Although I had a boyfriend but was dating him from a distance and it ended up not working out in the end (ha), that was not a reason I chose to move back here. I knew I wanted to get back involved with school somehow. Why didn't I look into UCF? or UF or some other school down there? Was it because I didn't think I could afford it? Because if I'm able to live on my own (albeit it financial burdens but I'm still doing it) now - had I stayed and gone to school there AND kept freelancing - I probably would've been fine.
Ultimately, I made the decision to move back to PA. I do love this area. I do love being able to see my family more. I won't deny that being here has been great. I'm coaching - which we all know is a true love of mine. I'm working with new people all the time - which is a great opportunity for me to keep networking. I made new friends - again - but still stay connected with old ones even if I don't get to see them all the time. I'm doing the best I can and yet some how I still feel as though I'm missing something.
Am I weird because I feel lost? Shouldn't I feel like I'm heading in the right direction? Why do I suddenly feel as though every decision I'm making is questionable and why do I suddenly feel as though I want to run away and never look back?
I've blogged twice and three times in one day. But seriously. I am starting to melt.
I really need to either have a two hour sob-fest or I need to go all rambo on something. Anyone own a gun and want to take me to a shooting range? I wouldn't actually shoot anyone - just need to release some tension! And no, it's not pent up sexual frustration. Trust me.
I'll let you in on a little secret....which is actually a big secret....
I have....NO. IDEA. WHAT. I'M. DOING. WITH. MY. LIFE.
Just when I thought I might actually be heading down the right path with my life...I start thinking I might not be.
It's moments like these when I question myself - why did I ever leave television? Why did I ever leave florida? What possessed me to make these drastic changes in my life?
I think back on the time when I did make these decisions and I find it weird that I changed my whole life when things were actually going so well.
-I had steady freelance work with the possibility of more coming my way.
-I wasn't missing PA because I was loving living in Florida and the foundation of friends I had built whom I still miss every day. Despite the lessening of communication, I know they miss me and they always ask me to move back.
-Although I had a boyfriend but was dating him from a distance and it ended up not working out in the end (ha), that was not a reason I chose to move back here. I knew I wanted to get back involved with school somehow. Why didn't I look into UCF? or UF or some other school down there? Was it because I didn't think I could afford it? Because if I'm able to live on my own (albeit it financial burdens but I'm still doing it) now - had I stayed and gone to school there AND kept freelancing - I probably would've been fine.
Ultimately, I made the decision to move back to PA. I do love this area. I do love being able to see my family more. I won't deny that being here has been great. I'm coaching - which we all know is a true love of mine. I'm working with new people all the time - which is a great opportunity for me to keep networking. I made new friends - again - but still stay connected with old ones even if I don't get to see them all the time. I'm doing the best I can and yet some how I still feel as though I'm missing something.
Am I weird because I feel lost? Shouldn't I feel like I'm heading in the right direction? Why do I suddenly feel as though every decision I'm making is questionable and why do I suddenly feel as though I want to run away and never look back?
The part in which I have a nervous breakdown....
I've been holding it together pretty well. At least, I think I have.
I'm extremely guilty of holding in my emotions WAY too much. This time is no exception.
The last few nights I've had a lot of different dreams. Last night I had a doozie of a dream. I've told y'all about them before and although I'm not going to divulge the details at this moment....let's just say this one kind of put me over the edge. I feel as though I need someone to help me wipe my subconscious from having dreams about this particular person. It does me no favors and actually upsets. A LOT.
Figured out who it is yet?
Aside from the stupidest dreams in the world....my life is completely topsy turvy right now. I feel like I'm going in a million different directions but am completely still.
I got an email from the director of Student Teaching yesterday telling me she received some paperwork for clearances at LM. LM has my clearances. Not only that, but I'm an employee there. The director of ST basically told me, "I hope you know how to handle this".....which, of course, sent me into an anxious spiral downward. For those that know my SINGLE issue that I have on my record...I can't imagine a school wouldn't let me student teach when I ALREADY WORK FOR THEM! I've been trying to calm myself and dispel the anxiety but it doesn't really seem to be working.
Along with that....I'm completely worried about my sister. It's kind of all my dad and I talk about these days. And he does ask me about me...but I feel like my life is kind of taking a back seat these days. Just in general...not because of anything else.
I can't focus. I can't make up a decision.
On top of which, I've been discussing some things with a few friends lately about guys. Yep. It wouldn't be a Katiefitz post without something about guys.
Truth be told...it has been SO long since I've been in a real relationship that even if a guy wanted to date me...I really wouldn't know what to do or how to be. Some people tell me that it'll be natural and you won't feel like you have to change too much. But is that really true? I find myself in situations where I am perfectly content with going home to myself. I find myself being attracted to guys who are completely unavailable because I am too and I know if I find someone as busy as me, then I won't have to feel badly that I'm not willing to make time for them......sounds terrible but it's where I'm at right now.
But then...how does that change? Because, you see, I do want all those things. I want a boyfriend...I want the eventual marriage...I want kids too. How do I make the transition from this life to a different one? Or have I gotten myself so engrained in the single life that I might never get out? It makes me anxious thinking about it.....
“Breathe. Let go. And remind yourself that this very moment is the only one you know you have for sure.”~Oprah Winfrey
I'm extremely guilty of holding in my emotions WAY too much. This time is no exception.
The last few nights I've had a lot of different dreams. Last night I had a doozie of a dream. I've told y'all about them before and although I'm not going to divulge the details at this moment....let's just say this one kind of put me over the edge. I feel as though I need someone to help me wipe my subconscious from having dreams about this particular person. It does me no favors and actually upsets. A LOT.
Figured out who it is yet?
Aside from the stupidest dreams in the world....my life is completely topsy turvy right now. I feel like I'm going in a million different directions but am completely still.
I got an email from the director of Student Teaching yesterday telling me she received some paperwork for clearances at LM. LM has my clearances. Not only that, but I'm an employee there. The director of ST basically told me, "I hope you know how to handle this".....which, of course, sent me into an anxious spiral downward. For those that know my SINGLE issue that I have on my record...I can't imagine a school wouldn't let me student teach when I ALREADY WORK FOR THEM! I've been trying to calm myself and dispel the anxiety but it doesn't really seem to be working.
Along with that....I'm completely worried about my sister. It's kind of all my dad and I talk about these days. And he does ask me about me...but I feel like my life is kind of taking a back seat these days. Just in general...not because of anything else.
I can't focus. I can't make up a decision.
On top of which, I've been discussing some things with a few friends lately about guys. Yep. It wouldn't be a Katiefitz post without something about guys.
Truth be told...it has been SO long since I've been in a real relationship that even if a guy wanted to date me...I really wouldn't know what to do or how to be. Some people tell me that it'll be natural and you won't feel like you have to change too much. But is that really true? I find myself in situations where I am perfectly content with going home to myself. I find myself being attracted to guys who are completely unavailable because I am too and I know if I find someone as busy as me, then I won't have to feel badly that I'm not willing to make time for them......sounds terrible but it's where I'm at right now.
But then...how does that change? Because, you see, I do want all those things. I want a boyfriend...I want the eventual marriage...I want kids too. How do I make the transition from this life to a different one? Or have I gotten myself so engrained in the single life that I might never get out? It makes me anxious thinking about it.....
“Breathe. Let go. And remind yourself that this very moment is the only one you know you have for sure.”~Oprah Winfrey
Tuesday, October 4, 2011
So much for that....
Yeah...I couldn't do it....I didn't even make it two days....but I can start over! Which I am going to...today. Ha.
I really...ugh. I just needed a drink after this weekend. I really did.
Forget the fact that the Phillies lost - which is clearly a good reason to drink but after what I had to deal with....omg.
So I thought moving out of my mother's house meant that I wouldn't have to deal with the problems that are at home now....turns out they're just amplified by like a billion. And maybe this makes me sound like a terrible daughter/sister - but when the family issues that really have nothing to do with me start interfering with my social life, I start to get really annoyed.
This weekend, for example: Friday night I was out with my friend Habby - just hanging at a bar watching baseball. I get a phone call. From my dad. About my sister. And how she and my mother just had a huge fight. You wanna know what it was about?
Books. How Kelly has all these books still in storage. How my mom wants to get rid of the storage space. How Kelly needs to do something with her stuff. Bleh bleh bleh. But the kicker - why my dad called me - and then my sister promptly texted me - was twofold:
Dad: Kate, your sister is hysterical. I don't know what to do with her. I told her to bring her stuff to my house but she's not listening to me. Call her and calm her down. (keep in mind, I'm at the bar).
Text from Kel: Mom just had a hissy fit at me. I'm so miserable. I need to get out of this house.
Both of which I replied that she could come to stay with me. She ended up not coming out Friday night - but the invitation was still there Saturday.
A little backstory to this - LAST Friday - the same exact thing happened. Kelly got home from her therapy session and my mom instantly blew up on her. She, again, declined to come out and stay with me....so this was kind of building up.
Saturday morning rolls around and I call Kelly to see if she's okay...she said my mother has been ignoring her all morning and said probably two things to her. I told her - then ignore her back. She's only as strong as the power you give her. Kelly can't seem to do that - so she folded and another fight broke out.
Meanwhile - I was planning on going downtown to watch the Phillies on Saturday but then - of course - I get a hysterical phone call - it's my sister. She's beside herself. I tell her to come over and at first she hesitates but then decides shes going to. I then spend the rest of the afternoon - and all through the phillies - consoling her.
So you can imagine - not only did I not get to watch the first game....but even after having tickets to the second game (of which I thought would cheer her up)...they lost. Needless to say it was a frustrating weekend.
And some of you might be thinking...it's not your problem Katie...it's not. But listen....when you have someone you care about that is on the verge of possibly hurting themselves and knowing you didn't do anything in the past to help another person who was just as depressed...of which resulted in not one but two losses of life...you kind of drop everything to help them. Especially if it's your sister.
I'm really worried about her. Her physical health is terrible. Her mental health is....not that much better. She's started seeing a therapist but I'm very worried that she's formulating the wrong ideas in her head. It's her life and I know she can make it through...I just don't want her to take the easy way out - especially when I know she's been hinting at it. She is SO emotional and fragile. I honestly don't remember being this way when I was depressed. I feel as though I'm not helping enough or doing enough. I worry that if I don't contact her every day - something could go wrong and I'll blame myself.
Yes, I realize I need to keep living my life and yes I realize it really isn't my problem...but you tell me...if your sister/brother or a best friend were THIS depressed....and they reached out for help....wouldn't you do anything you could to help them?
I really...ugh. I just needed a drink after this weekend. I really did.
Forget the fact that the Phillies lost - which is clearly a good reason to drink but after what I had to deal with....omg.
So I thought moving out of my mother's house meant that I wouldn't have to deal with the problems that are at home now....turns out they're just amplified by like a billion. And maybe this makes me sound like a terrible daughter/sister - but when the family issues that really have nothing to do with me start interfering with my social life, I start to get really annoyed.
This weekend, for example: Friday night I was out with my friend Habby - just hanging at a bar watching baseball. I get a phone call. From my dad. About my sister. And how she and my mother just had a huge fight. You wanna know what it was about?
Books. How Kelly has all these books still in storage. How my mom wants to get rid of the storage space. How Kelly needs to do something with her stuff. Bleh bleh bleh. But the kicker - why my dad called me - and then my sister promptly texted me - was twofold:
Dad: Kate, your sister is hysterical. I don't know what to do with her. I told her to bring her stuff to my house but she's not listening to me. Call her and calm her down. (keep in mind, I'm at the bar).
Text from Kel: Mom just had a hissy fit at me. I'm so miserable. I need to get out of this house.
Both of which I replied that she could come to stay with me. She ended up not coming out Friday night - but the invitation was still there Saturday.
A little backstory to this - LAST Friday - the same exact thing happened. Kelly got home from her therapy session and my mom instantly blew up on her. She, again, declined to come out and stay with me....so this was kind of building up.
Saturday morning rolls around and I call Kelly to see if she's okay...she said my mother has been ignoring her all morning and said probably two things to her. I told her - then ignore her back. She's only as strong as the power you give her. Kelly can't seem to do that - so she folded and another fight broke out.
Meanwhile - I was planning on going downtown to watch the Phillies on Saturday but then - of course - I get a hysterical phone call - it's my sister. She's beside herself. I tell her to come over and at first she hesitates but then decides shes going to. I then spend the rest of the afternoon - and all through the phillies - consoling her.
So you can imagine - not only did I not get to watch the first game....but even after having tickets to the second game (of which I thought would cheer her up)...they lost. Needless to say it was a frustrating weekend.
And some of you might be thinking...it's not your problem Katie...it's not. But listen....when you have someone you care about that is on the verge of possibly hurting themselves and knowing you didn't do anything in the past to help another person who was just as depressed...of which resulted in not one but two losses of life...you kind of drop everything to help them. Especially if it's your sister.
I'm really worried about her. Her physical health is terrible. Her mental health is....not that much better. She's started seeing a therapist but I'm very worried that she's formulating the wrong ideas in her head. It's her life and I know she can make it through...I just don't want her to take the easy way out - especially when I know she's been hinting at it. She is SO emotional and fragile. I honestly don't remember being this way when I was depressed. I feel as though I'm not helping enough or doing enough. I worry that if I don't contact her every day - something could go wrong and I'll blame myself.
Yes, I realize I need to keep living my life and yes I realize it really isn't my problem...but you tell me...if your sister/brother or a best friend were THIS depressed....and they reached out for help....wouldn't you do anything you could to help them?
Saturday, October 1, 2011
I'm gonna try something....
and it might sound a bit crazy...because as soon as you all read this you'll be like...what!!!!????
For 1 month - I'm not going to drink any kind of alcohol.
Yes, I know the playoffs start today. Yes, I know there's a lot of stuff going on in October that would suggest having a beer or two.....and I even went and bought some wine the other night.
Ok, maybe I'll just drink wine. At home. On occasion. But honestly - I workout so hard that drinking kind of just negates everything I do and it's starting to piss me off.
For example, yesterday I ran 13.5 miles. I had 5 beers last night. There goes that calorie burn. Seriously. Now don't get me wrong, I don't run for the calorie burn - that's just a bonus. But honestly - I am not doing myself any favors by drinking.
It's just a thought. I'm gonna see how far I get this month without drinking....
For 1 month - I'm not going to drink any kind of alcohol.
Yes, I know the playoffs start today. Yes, I know there's a lot of stuff going on in October that would suggest having a beer or two.....and I even went and bought some wine the other night.
Ok, maybe I'll just drink wine. At home. On occasion. But honestly - I workout so hard that drinking kind of just negates everything I do and it's starting to piss me off.
For example, yesterday I ran 13.5 miles. I had 5 beers last night. There goes that calorie burn. Seriously. Now don't get me wrong, I don't run for the calorie burn - that's just a bonus. But honestly - I am not doing myself any favors by drinking.
It's just a thought. I'm gonna see how far I get this month without drinking....
Friday, September 30, 2011
Last Day of the Month....
Where oh where did September go?! Seriously. We have 3....THREE months left in 2011. I am seriously blown away by how quickly this year went and that it feels as though it all just started. So much has changed in just these past 9 months. I guess more change is on the horizon.
This week has been a 'head down and push through' week. Basically everyone bailed on me this week which is fine because my horoscope (don't judge) told me this week would be a bear...in fact, the next two weeks are supposed to be kind of sucky too.....so I'm prepared for that.
And yes...to touch on it....I do read my horoscope. While I don't follow it religiously - I do get one sent to me every morning in my email. And I do read a monthly horoscope projection from Susan Miller's Astrology Zone. Honestly - she's been pretty right since I started reading them - which I believe was back in July around my birthday. Whether you believe in them or not, I do think there is some element of realism to them.
Astrology is the study of celestial bodies interpreted as affecting personality, human affairs, and natural events.[1] The primary astrological bodies are the Sun, Moon, and planets, which are analyzed by their aspects (relative positions to one another), by their placement in 'houses' (spatial divisions of the sky), and their movement through signs of the zodiac (spatial divisions of the ecliptic). To read more about it you can google it...but basically - it's how people used to make decisions.
I truly believe we are affected by the environment in which we are surrounded. I haven't decided yet if my life is fated or if I have control of my destiny but what I do know is that there are a lot of things that happen to me that are out of my control and it makes sense that a lot of the times it has to do with where I'm at and how things have effected me.
I'm looking forward to reading my October astrology reading. Lame? Possibly....but don't sit there and tell me you don't know your sign. Everyone knows. And don't tell me you've NEVER looked up what your sign means....you're lying.
Me? I'm a cancer - water sign :-) I'd say this is the best description of me and what I'm all about as far as astrology goes. My compatibility is typically with Scorpios (Oct 23-Nov22) and Pisces (Feb 19 - March 20) but I am also compatible with Taurus (April 20 - May 21), Virgo (August 23 - Sept 23) and Capricorn (Dec 22 - Jan 20). The dates are give or take a few days because some of my best friends are actually Scorpio's. It'd be interesting if I actually sat down and took a look at the dates of birth of my friends and past boyfriends were to see where everything falls.
What do you think? Do you follow astrology or do you think it's all a bunch of bologna? Like I said, I read it every day but I don't take it for scripture. I do find some times that it's ironic when I read it later in the day after everything has happened and it was pretty accurate.
This week has been a 'head down and push through' week. Basically everyone bailed on me this week which is fine because my horoscope (don't judge) told me this week would be a bear...in fact, the next two weeks are supposed to be kind of sucky too.....so I'm prepared for that.
And yes...to touch on it....I do read my horoscope. While I don't follow it religiously - I do get one sent to me every morning in my email. And I do read a monthly horoscope projection from Susan Miller's Astrology Zone. Honestly - she's been pretty right since I started reading them - which I believe was back in July around my birthday. Whether you believe in them or not, I do think there is some element of realism to them.
Astrology is the study of celestial bodies interpreted as affecting personality, human affairs, and natural events.[1] The primary astrological bodies are the Sun, Moon, and planets, which are analyzed by their aspects (relative positions to one another), by their placement in 'houses' (spatial divisions of the sky), and their movement through signs of the zodiac (spatial divisions of the ecliptic). To read more about it you can google it...but basically - it's how people used to make decisions.
I truly believe we are affected by the environment in which we are surrounded. I haven't decided yet if my life is fated or if I have control of my destiny but what I do know is that there are a lot of things that happen to me that are out of my control and it makes sense that a lot of the times it has to do with where I'm at and how things have effected me.
I'm looking forward to reading my October astrology reading. Lame? Possibly....but don't sit there and tell me you don't know your sign. Everyone knows. And don't tell me you've NEVER looked up what your sign means....you're lying.
Me? I'm a cancer - water sign :-) I'd say this is the best description of me and what I'm all about as far as astrology goes. My compatibility is typically with Scorpios (Oct 23-Nov22) and Pisces (Feb 19 - March 20) but I am also compatible with Taurus (April 20 - May 21), Virgo (August 23 - Sept 23) and Capricorn (Dec 22 - Jan 20). The dates are give or take a few days because some of my best friends are actually Scorpio's. It'd be interesting if I actually sat down and took a look at the dates of birth of my friends and past boyfriends were to see where everything falls.
What do you think? Do you follow astrology or do you think it's all a bunch of bologna? Like I said, I read it every day but I don't take it for scripture. I do find some times that it's ironic when I read it later in the day after everything has happened and it was pretty accurate.
Tuesday, September 27, 2011
On the hook....
We've all had one of these people....in one way or another. I was watching an old episode of How I Met Your Mother tonight and realize....we all have a person we keep 'on the hook'...essentially meaning that there's always one person we have as a "backup" or as a "go to" when we don't want to be alone. I should specify that I'm pretty sure this applies to everyone that is SINGLE....not those that are currently involved with someone - especially if you're serious with them.
Who're mine? Well...I was thinking about it and to be honest I am pretty sure I know who he or they are...
What makes a person an "on the hook" person? When you find yourself telling someone: "I just can't give you what you want right now....." or "I can't be with you right now because (fill in the hole for whatever lame excuse you've heard before)..." or "You're great but my life is so crazy right now that I just don't have time to make major plans...." or "I'm not really a planner".
And as I just wrote those last two - I know who's hook I'm on and have been on before. Now tell me you've never found yourself hearing someone say that kind of stuff to you or that you, yourself, haven't said that to someone? True. They all sound like ways to break up with someone or ways to not hurt someone's feelings so that IF by chance you decide to hang out again, they're not pissed beyond belief and it has them or you thinking, "maybe they're not so busy now.....sweet" And you go out with them again...
Truth is....if a guy really wants to be with you or you really want to be with someone YOU WILL FIND A WAY. Those things that you might have heard or said at some point aren't excuses, they are reasons that you aren't necessarily with someone that could be so great for you. Also, truthfully, you don't want to really be with someone that brushes you off that way anyway....right? Agreed. Then why do we keep going back? Because we think that maybe..just maybe...this time they really won't get busy...or maybe they've suddenly become a planner...
I talk about guys a lot and it's true that most guys don't change. Girls, don't do it! Don't even try. The only way a guy will change is if it's for HIM. And Ladies...same goes for you too....DON'T CHANGE FOR ANYONE! Do it for yourself if you're going to change. It's taken me a while to realize that if I meet a guy and he's got some things about him that you don't know if you can look past...it's probably not going to change...no matter how much you like him.
So...no you're all wondering who's hook I'm on and who I've got on my hook....right? Ah, too bad. I'm not going to tell you :-) But those of you that know enough about my personal life are probably smart enough to figure it out.....
So here's part of my new leaf I'm trying to turn over....no more. No more keeping someone on the hook. No more being on someone's hook. Sure, maybe I'll be alone. Isn't any different than my current situation. There is someone out there that will hook me and always want to see me. Someone who will have no problem planning things with me a week in advance. Someone who will want to be with me right now..not in a few months. Someone who will want to be with me because I'm great and that's it.
Small tangent: I feel as though sometimes things get misconstrued with friends and so if you're a girl with guy friends there is that possibility that these friendships can be thought of as being "on the hook" and vice versa with guys and girls. I've tried to be honest with any of my guy friends that have mentioned they've been interested in me as more than friends but I don't see them that way.
New Leaf.
Who're mine? Well...I was thinking about it and to be honest I am pretty sure I know who he or they are...
What makes a person an "on the hook" person? When you find yourself telling someone: "I just can't give you what you want right now....." or "I can't be with you right now because (fill in the hole for whatever lame excuse you've heard before)..." or "You're great but my life is so crazy right now that I just don't have time to make major plans...." or "I'm not really a planner".
And as I just wrote those last two - I know who's hook I'm on and have been on before. Now tell me you've never found yourself hearing someone say that kind of stuff to you or that you, yourself, haven't said that to someone? True. They all sound like ways to break up with someone or ways to not hurt someone's feelings so that IF by chance you decide to hang out again, they're not pissed beyond belief and it has them or you thinking, "maybe they're not so busy now.....sweet" And you go out with them again...
Truth is....if a guy really wants to be with you or you really want to be with someone YOU WILL FIND A WAY. Those things that you might have heard or said at some point aren't excuses, they are reasons that you aren't necessarily with someone that could be so great for you. Also, truthfully, you don't want to really be with someone that brushes you off that way anyway....right? Agreed. Then why do we keep going back? Because we think that maybe..just maybe...this time they really won't get busy...or maybe they've suddenly become a planner...
I talk about guys a lot and it's true that most guys don't change. Girls, don't do it! Don't even try. The only way a guy will change is if it's for HIM. And Ladies...same goes for you too....DON'T CHANGE FOR ANYONE! Do it for yourself if you're going to change. It's taken me a while to realize that if I meet a guy and he's got some things about him that you don't know if you can look past...it's probably not going to change...no matter how much you like him.
So...no you're all wondering who's hook I'm on and who I've got on my hook....right? Ah, too bad. I'm not going to tell you :-) But those of you that know enough about my personal life are probably smart enough to figure it out.....
So here's part of my new leaf I'm trying to turn over....no more. No more keeping someone on the hook. No more being on someone's hook. Sure, maybe I'll be alone. Isn't any different than my current situation. There is someone out there that will hook me and always want to see me. Someone who will have no problem planning things with me a week in advance. Someone who will want to be with me right now..not in a few months. Someone who will want to be with me because I'm great and that's it.
Small tangent: I feel as though sometimes things get misconstrued with friends and so if you're a girl with guy friends there is that possibility that these friendships can be thought of as being "on the hook" and vice versa with guys and girls. I've tried to be honest with any of my guy friends that have mentioned they've been interested in me as more than friends but I don't see them that way.
New Leaf.
Sunday, September 25, 2011
Redacted
I'm redacting something from the previous post. The one that deals with the new years resolution of 'being better with guys'. Yeah. So much for that. It's a long story and I'll share it with all of you at some point I'm sure. I just don't feel like dwelling on it right now and to be honest I need to start listening and following Rachels Rules....namely Rule #15. It basically says that it's okay to be excited about a guy and it's not crazy to want to spend more time with him if you're in to him...he should want to spend more time with you too....and if by chance he doesn't feel that way...it's 100% good to peace the ef out and find someone else that will get excited about seeing you.
So today...I'm turning a new page....starting a new chapter. New rules of my own:
1. I will stop drinking so much - this might seem silly but I just don't feel as good on a day to day basis when I drink - even if it's only once a week. Plus, financially I can't really afford it.
2. I'll be better to my body and start fueling it in a healthier way. I've been eating a lot of crap lately on my own accord. Nachos are not a good food choice :-) haha. No matter how much I love them.
3. I will continue to educate my mind and be good to my soul. I will not allow anyone to make me feel like what I am doing is wrong. All I can do every day is my best.
4. I will always keep in mind that no matter how bad it might seem, things will get better.
5. I will keep my distance from guys. If they aren't in to me or excited about me - I will not allow myself to sit and pine away for them.
6. I will be better at saving my money and spending it wisely.
Clear Eyes. Full Hearts. Can't Lose.
So today...I'm turning a new page....starting a new chapter. New rules of my own:
1. I will stop drinking so much - this might seem silly but I just don't feel as good on a day to day basis when I drink - even if it's only once a week. Plus, financially I can't really afford it.
2. I'll be better to my body and start fueling it in a healthier way. I've been eating a lot of crap lately on my own accord. Nachos are not a good food choice :-) haha. No matter how much I love them.
3. I will continue to educate my mind and be good to my soul. I will not allow anyone to make me feel like what I am doing is wrong. All I can do every day is my best.
4. I will always keep in mind that no matter how bad it might seem, things will get better.
5. I will keep my distance from guys. If they aren't in to me or excited about me - I will not allow myself to sit and pine away for them.
6. I will be better at saving my money and spending it wisely.
Clear Eyes. Full Hearts. Can't Lose.
Thursday, September 22, 2011
99 Days
As of today, there are 99 days left in 2011. EEK! Can you believe it?! Where did this year go?
It got me to thinking, how much of my 30 in 30 list have I accomplished? Or even, how much of my New Year's Resolution List have I accomplished? What's left?
Without further adieu....let's take a look, shall we?
Alrighty - on to my 2K11 Resolutions:
1. Get a Student Teaching position at LMHS or in the LMSD. - YES YES YES! I got the official email that I will be student teaching with Rich Kressly this Spring :-D yay!
2. Accomplish my "30 in 30" List (see below) - we'll get back to this....
3. Get a summer managing job/coaching job. - Got a Summer job Coaching at Mermaid...
4. Be better with guys and how I handle myself with them - let's be honest, I'm terrible in this department. - I'd say so far so good with this.....we'll see how the next 99 days go :-)
5. Learn to focus on the right things. - still working on this....but it's a vast improvement!
My "30 in 30" List: (Keep in mind, I have until my 31st birthday to do these things)
1. Skydive
2. Bungee Jump
3. Travel Somewhere Alone
4. Run a Marathon
5. Get a Teaching Job
6. Learn to Play Guitar
7. Re-learn Spanish
8. Do a Triathlon
9. Become a regular Rock Climber
10. Learn to Canoe
11. Visit Cooperstown Baseball Hall of Fame
12. Go to Hawaii
13. Wine Tasting
14. Get my spin instructor’s certification
15. Volunteer with habitat for humanity.
16. Volunteer to help with a race (marathon/half marathon/etc)
17. Blog at least 5 times a week.
18. Complete an Open Water Race
19. Do P90X
20. Be more organic
21. Join a soccer league - CHECK
22. Take a Hot-air Balloon Ride
23. Go Ziplining
24. Learn to shoot a gun/go to the gun range
25. See all four Phillies starting pitchers in a game. - CHECK
26. Whitewater rafting
27. Read 1 book a month. - so far - CHECK
28. Get my dual citizenship
29. Learn how to make balloon animals
30. Plan a trip with my Zuzelo Cousins.
So as we can see, I'm pretty good on my Resolutions! Except the 2nd one which is to accomplish my 30 in 30 list..haha. I guess some financial circumstances are preventing me from doing some of them...although I have a feeling before the year is over I'll be doing a few things that aren't even on that list.....I'll keep you updated!
Anyhoodle - I'm off to run before it rains again! Toodles!
It got me to thinking, how much of my 30 in 30 list have I accomplished? Or even, how much of my New Year's Resolution List have I accomplished? What's left?
Without further adieu....let's take a look, shall we?
Alrighty - on to my 2K11 Resolutions:
1. Get a Student Teaching position at LMHS or in the LMSD. - YES YES YES! I got the official email that I will be student teaching with Rich Kressly this Spring :-D yay!
2. Accomplish my "30 in 30" List (see below) - we'll get back to this....
3. Get a summer managing job/coaching job. - Got a Summer job Coaching at Mermaid...
4. Be better with guys and how I handle myself with them - let's be honest, I'm terrible in this department. - I'd say so far so good with this.....we'll see how the next 99 days go :-)
5. Learn to focus on the right things. - still working on this....but it's a vast improvement!
My "30 in 30" List: (Keep in mind, I have until my 31st birthday to do these things)
1. Skydive
2. Bungee Jump
3. Travel Somewhere Alone
4. Run a Marathon
5. Get a Teaching Job
6. Learn to Play Guitar
7. Re-learn Spanish
8. Do a Triathlon
9. Become a regular Rock Climber
10. Learn to Canoe
11. Visit Cooperstown Baseball Hall of Fame
12. Go to Hawaii
13. Wine Tasting
14. Get my spin instructor’s certification
15. Volunteer with habitat for humanity.
16. Volunteer to help with a race (marathon/half marathon/etc)
17. Blog at least 5 times a week.
18. Complete an Open Water Race
19. Do P90X
20. Be more organic
21. Join a soccer league - CHECK
22. Take a Hot-air Balloon Ride
23. Go Ziplining
24. Learn to shoot a gun/go to the gun range
25. See all four Phillies starting pitchers in a game. - CHECK
26. Whitewater rafting
27. Read 1 book a month. - so far - CHECK
28. Get my dual citizenship
29. Learn how to make balloon animals
30. Plan a trip with my Zuzelo Cousins.
So as we can see, I'm pretty good on my Resolutions! Except the 2nd one which is to accomplish my 30 in 30 list..haha. I guess some financial circumstances are preventing me from doing some of them...although I have a feeling before the year is over I'll be doing a few things that aren't even on that list.....I'll keep you updated!
Anyhoodle - I'm off to run before it rains again! Toodles!
Tuesday, September 20, 2011
I can't get no.....
Satisfaction.....
You know that old Rolling Stones song, yes? Of course you do. And if you don't - find it on youtube and get back to this post.....
There, now....
I'd like to think that Mick Jagger was pretty much talking about being frustrated with wanting more out of his life. Let me tell you my friends - yesterday was one of those days where I was SO frustrated. This 5K I'm trying to organize for the foundation - yeah well - I kind of feel like it's all on my shoulders and I'm failing. MISERABLY. As of yesterday we had 1...count it 1 person signed up. Yeah. So that's awesome. To top it off, the foundation President is kind of being a pill.
And although today is a new day - we have a board meeting tonight - so we'll see how we go from there. Obviously I'll be keeping all 7 of you informed as to how it goes.
In other unsatisfactory news....I knew this was going to happen to me. And yet, I didn't care. I valued my freedom more than my money and after all, it IS only money right? I need to find a way to either win the lottery or make some more money. Right now I have four jobs. Two of which I make money at. In the winter I'll have a fifth job in which I'll make money and that should help a bit. But I could really use some extra bank. I've been looking online at craigslist for help. And there are a few feelers I've put out - but I don't know how okay these places would be with me saying - yeah I can work for four months but then I have to stop because I'll be student teaching....most places won't hire you if you do that. I have a few leads on smaller things and definitely put the feelers out for teaching swim lessons - but you know - there's only so much you can do with those.
Le sigh. I just have to be better with budgeting my monies. I'm generally pretty good at it. I just have to be excellent at it, you know?
In other news.....October is almost here! Which means a few things:
1. Playoff Baseball!
2. More Football
3. Swimming is getting closer!
4. Student Teaching is imminent :-)
I've left a lot of personal/guy stuff off of here for a reason.....I realized that by talking about it it kind of jinxes it, in a way. Besides, no one wants to hear about my boring life ;-) haha
You know that old Rolling Stones song, yes? Of course you do. And if you don't - find it on youtube and get back to this post.....
There, now....
I'd like to think that Mick Jagger was pretty much talking about being frustrated with wanting more out of his life. Let me tell you my friends - yesterday was one of those days where I was SO frustrated. This 5K I'm trying to organize for the foundation - yeah well - I kind of feel like it's all on my shoulders and I'm failing. MISERABLY. As of yesterday we had 1...count it 1 person signed up. Yeah. So that's awesome. To top it off, the foundation President is kind of being a pill.
And although today is a new day - we have a board meeting tonight - so we'll see how we go from there. Obviously I'll be keeping all 7 of you informed as to how it goes.
In other unsatisfactory news....I knew this was going to happen to me. And yet, I didn't care. I valued my freedom more than my money and after all, it IS only money right? I need to find a way to either win the lottery or make some more money. Right now I have four jobs. Two of which I make money at. In the winter I'll have a fifth job in which I'll make money and that should help a bit. But I could really use some extra bank. I've been looking online at craigslist for help. And there are a few feelers I've put out - but I don't know how okay these places would be with me saying - yeah I can work for four months but then I have to stop because I'll be student teaching....most places won't hire you if you do that. I have a few leads on smaller things and definitely put the feelers out for teaching swim lessons - but you know - there's only so much you can do with those.
Le sigh. I just have to be better with budgeting my monies. I'm generally pretty good at it. I just have to be excellent at it, you know?
In other news.....October is almost here! Which means a few things:
1. Playoff Baseball!
2. More Football
3. Swimming is getting closer!
4. Student Teaching is imminent :-)
I've left a lot of personal/guy stuff off of here for a reason.....I realized that by talking about it it kind of jinxes it, in a way. Besides, no one wants to hear about my boring life ;-) haha
Monday, September 19, 2011
NEW PR!!!
WOOT WOOT! AWWW yea - promptly after writing this post I'll be updating my sidebar with PR times :-)
Yesterday's Rock n' Roll Half Marathon was "rockin', rollin', and whatnah" (name that movie!) I got a great night sleep the night before and although I missed the Phillies winning the NL East...it was worth it (plus, they've won 5 years in a row now....bite my tongue for saying that...I shouldn't take it for granted!)....but I digress.
I woke up bright and early at 5am - had my usual peanut butter on an english muffin and a nice cup of coffee. I also had some water (which came back later to bite me in the butt but oh well). Bethany arrived at my mom's house at 6:15ish and we were on our way. We were down at the start by 6:50 and had an hour or so to kill so we made a bee line to the bag drop off (I always bring something to either change into or put over me and since I knew it was going to be cooler that morning, I brought a sweatshirt - THANK GOODNESS! I was fa-ree-zing! More on that later). We then made a direct walk over to the port-a-potties (first of the morning) and got in and out and on our way.....to which we then took some pictures:
So my time on the website says 1:47.59 but like I said, the course was actually 13.45 miles and not 13.1. My Garmin says I ran 13.1 in 1:43.28....so we're going with that :-)
The rest of the day.....I took an ice bath for my leggies...then just chilled at home. It was a relaxing Sunday. Now...on to training for the full in November. EEK!
Yesterday's Rock n' Roll Half Marathon was "rockin', rollin', and whatnah" (name that movie!) I got a great night sleep the night before and although I missed the Phillies winning the NL East...it was worth it (plus, they've won 5 years in a row now....bite my tongue for saying that...I shouldn't take it for granted!)....but I digress.
I woke up bright and early at 5am - had my usual peanut butter on an english muffin and a nice cup of coffee. I also had some water (which came back later to bite me in the butt but oh well). Bethany arrived at my mom's house at 6:15ish and we were on our way. We were down at the start by 6:50 and had an hour or so to kill so we made a bee line to the bag drop off (I always bring something to either change into or put over me and since I knew it was going to be cooler that morning, I brought a sweatshirt - THANK GOODNESS! I was fa-ree-zing! More on that later). We then made a direct walk over to the port-a-potties (first of the morning) and got in and out and on our way.....to which we then took some pictures:
So my time on the website says 1:47.59 but like I said, the course was actually 13.45 miles and not 13.1. My Garmin says I ran 13.1 in 1:43.28....so we're going with that :-)
The rest of the day.....I took an ice bath for my leggies...then just chilled at home. It was a relaxing Sunday. Now...on to training for the full in November. EEK!
Tuesday, September 13, 2011
Let the madness begin!
“Success usually comes to those who are too busy to be looking for it.”~Henry David Thoreau
Here's hoping that HDT was and is correct!
Many of you know that I'm a pretty busy person. Well, this Fall is no exception to that. In fact, I'm about to pick up two more jobs! So what makes me so busy? Well, here is what a weekly schedule looks like right now...without the two extra jobs (which I'll put in parenthesis so you can see where it fits in):
Mondays
9:15-10:15 Teach Spinning
(12-4 Work @ Mainline Audiology)
4:30-7 Coach @ Baldwin
Tuesdays
9-11 Workout Time
12-3:30 Work @ Cabrini
(3:30-4:30 Teach Swimming Lessons)
*4:30-7 Coach @ Baldwin (some Tuesdays - not all)
Wednesdays
9:15-10:15 Teach Spinning
(12-4 Work @ Mainline Audiology)
4:30-7 Coach @ Baldwin
Thursdays
9-11 Workout Time
1-4 Work @ Cabrini
4:30-7 Class
Fridays
9-11 Workout Time
(12-4 Work @ Mainline Audiology)
(4-4:30 Teach Swim Lessons)
Saturdays
(Teach Swim Lessons 11am-2pm)
Sundays
8:15-9 Teach Spinning
1pm - Swim Lesson
Whew! I'm busy - but I need the money, esp now that I've got my own crib. Honestly though, I wouldn't have it any other way. The nice thing is that I'm finished every day by 7pm and I have some flexibility on the weekends. I'm actually thinking about switching around my spin class to see if I can't teach on Saturday mornings or pick up one on a Friday morning so I don't have to go to bed early on Saturday night. I find that most of my friends want to go out on Saturdays instead of Fridays. I need to call the Fitness Coordinator.
This Saturday I'm supposed to go to a Spinning Certification Class from 11-2 - I'm slightly nervous because I am concerned I'll be spinning for 4 hours when I need to be relaxing since I'm running the Rock n' Roll Half Sunday morning. I guess I'll have to call to find out. But I really shouldn't miss this opportunity because it's FREE for me and normally a cert like that costs $200+. So yeah. Other than that...it's Tuesday....didn't you know? :-)
Yesterday was the first official day of Swimming at Baldwin for the year. I've lost my voice already :-) I was amazed at how quickly my memory of the kids' names came back! That and that I was able to remember SO many of the new ones right away. It was awesomesauce to say the least. I LOVE COACHING! Makes me so happy. I think if I could do that as a permanent job I would.....
Here's hoping that HDT was and is correct!
Many of you know that I'm a pretty busy person. Well, this Fall is no exception to that. In fact, I'm about to pick up two more jobs! So what makes me so busy? Well, here is what a weekly schedule looks like right now...without the two extra jobs (which I'll put in parenthesis so you can see where it fits in):
Mondays
9:15-10:15 Teach Spinning
(12-4 Work @ Mainline Audiology)
4:30-7 Coach @ Baldwin
Tuesdays
9-11 Workout Time
12-3:30 Work @ Cabrini
(3:30-4:30 Teach Swimming Lessons)
*4:30-7 Coach @ Baldwin (some Tuesdays - not all)
Wednesdays
9:15-10:15 Teach Spinning
(12-4 Work @ Mainline Audiology)
4:30-7 Coach @ Baldwin
Thursdays
9-11 Workout Time
1-4 Work @ Cabrini
4:30-7 Class
Fridays
9-11 Workout Time
(12-4 Work @ Mainline Audiology)
(4-4:30 Teach Swim Lessons)
Saturdays
(Teach Swim Lessons 11am-2pm)
Sundays
8:15-9 Teach Spinning
1pm - Swim Lesson
Whew! I'm busy - but I need the money, esp now that I've got my own crib. Honestly though, I wouldn't have it any other way. The nice thing is that I'm finished every day by 7pm and I have some flexibility on the weekends. I'm actually thinking about switching around my spin class to see if I can't teach on Saturday mornings or pick up one on a Friday morning so I don't have to go to bed early on Saturday night. I find that most of my friends want to go out on Saturdays instead of Fridays. I need to call the Fitness Coordinator.
This Saturday I'm supposed to go to a Spinning Certification Class from 11-2 - I'm slightly nervous because I am concerned I'll be spinning for 4 hours when I need to be relaxing since I'm running the Rock n' Roll Half Sunday morning. I guess I'll have to call to find out. But I really shouldn't miss this opportunity because it's FREE for me and normally a cert like that costs $200+. So yeah. Other than that...it's Tuesday....didn't you know? :-)
Yesterday was the first official day of Swimming at Baldwin for the year. I've lost my voice already :-) I was amazed at how quickly my memory of the kids' names came back! That and that I was able to remember SO many of the new ones right away. It was awesomesauce to say the least. I LOVE COACHING! Makes me so happy. I think if I could do that as a permanent job I would.....
Monday, September 12, 2011
Memories....
like the corner of my mind.....
haha, no. This isn't that kind of blog.
Good. New. Old. Bad. We all have them. Some we'd rather not have but as I've learned in my educational psych classes, you'll always have them - even if you don't remember them. Sometimes it takes something small to trigger a memory....especially one you hadn't thought of in a long while or possibly thought you forgot about....sometimes there are signs you see every day.
The other evening, I was fortunate enough to see my dear dear friend DAVE from Albright. I hadn't seen Dave, until Saturday night, in 11 1/2 years. WOWZERS! And I have to be totally honest....it was like no time had passed at all.
You see, some friends you lose touch with and when you reconnect you just don't quite click anymore.....and some friends it's as if you saw them yesterday. I couldn't believe it - I didn't really know what to expect - Dave and I are the friends of the former. Seriously - it felt like nothing had changed. Sure, we're 11 years older and sure our physical appearances have changed a bit....but seriously. It was like home. In the best way possible :-)
And time, as it always does with us...flies. We both had some zingers we let slip in our conversation....unfortunately because I had to get up early the next day I had to cut the evening short but not without knowing it will be SOONER rather than later as to the next time I see him.
Have you ever had a friend or friends that this happens to you with?
......switching gears a bit.....
The next morning was September 11th. I would be incredibly remiss if I did not acknowledge the way in which that day changed nearly everyone's life that day. I was having a conversation with my friend Paul the other evening and he made an interesting comment. We were talking about how shortly after the 9/11 attacks, there were other attacks throughout the world...London...Madrid...etc. He made the comment, "it's funny, when America was hit by terrorism...the world stopped. But when Madrid got hit...it was only there that it affected." So true.
Regardless of your political affiliation or how you feel about the government...we, as Americans...are SO fortunate to live in a country that is considered to be free of so many oppressions. Our 50 United states make of one of the most powerful and influential country's in the world....if not THE most powerful and influential. A lot of lives were taken from us that day 10 years ago and many were because they were doing their civic duty as firefighters, policemen, and medical workers. I think too often we lose sight of the fact that as a whole our country has overcome SO many things and yet we continue to fight for our freedom each and every day. I feel blessed to have so many amazing men and women who fight for my right to sit my ass on a couch in the middle of an afternoon and type this.
Life has certainly changed in America and all over the world since those attacks and thankfully the mastermind(s) behind the terrorism has been taken down...but who's to say it won't happen again? Nothing. Does that mean we should live in fear? HELL NO. It means it is our duty to make the most of what we have with what we're given. It means you should find those memories you have that are lost of the people you always think..."I wonder what they're doing now..."...or..."I wish I had kept in touch...". Now more than ever, the internet makes it possible to find those people. Do yourself a favor and reconnect with someone you miss dearly. You'll be glad you did and you'll be even more thankful we live in a place that allows us to do that.
haha, no. This isn't that kind of blog.
Good. New. Old. Bad. We all have them. Some we'd rather not have but as I've learned in my educational psych classes, you'll always have them - even if you don't remember them. Sometimes it takes something small to trigger a memory....especially one you hadn't thought of in a long while or possibly thought you forgot about....sometimes there are signs you see every day.
The other evening, I was fortunate enough to see my dear dear friend DAVE from Albright. I hadn't seen Dave, until Saturday night, in 11 1/2 years. WOWZERS! And I have to be totally honest....it was like no time had passed at all.
You see, some friends you lose touch with and when you reconnect you just don't quite click anymore.....and some friends it's as if you saw them yesterday. I couldn't believe it - I didn't really know what to expect - Dave and I are the friends of the former. Seriously - it felt like nothing had changed. Sure, we're 11 years older and sure our physical appearances have changed a bit....but seriously. It was like home. In the best way possible :-)
And time, as it always does with us...flies. We both had some zingers we let slip in our conversation....unfortunately because I had to get up early the next day I had to cut the evening short but not without knowing it will be SOONER rather than later as to the next time I see him.
Have you ever had a friend or friends that this happens to you with?
......switching gears a bit.....
The next morning was September 11th. I would be incredibly remiss if I did not acknowledge the way in which that day changed nearly everyone's life that day. I was having a conversation with my friend Paul the other evening and he made an interesting comment. We were talking about how shortly after the 9/11 attacks, there were other attacks throughout the world...London...Madrid...etc. He made the comment, "it's funny, when America was hit by terrorism...the world stopped. But when Madrid got hit...it was only there that it affected." So true.
Regardless of your political affiliation or how you feel about the government...we, as Americans...are SO fortunate to live in a country that is considered to be free of so many oppressions. Our 50 United states make of one of the most powerful and influential country's in the world....if not THE most powerful and influential. A lot of lives were taken from us that day 10 years ago and many were because they were doing their civic duty as firefighters, policemen, and medical workers. I think too often we lose sight of the fact that as a whole our country has overcome SO many things and yet we continue to fight for our freedom each and every day. I feel blessed to have so many amazing men and women who fight for my right to sit my ass on a couch in the middle of an afternoon and type this.
Life has certainly changed in America and all over the world since those attacks and thankfully the mastermind(s) behind the terrorism has been taken down...but who's to say it won't happen again? Nothing. Does that mean we should live in fear? HELL NO. It means it is our duty to make the most of what we have with what we're given. It means you should find those memories you have that are lost of the people you always think..."I wonder what they're doing now..."...or..."I wish I had kept in touch...". Now more than ever, the internet makes it possible to find those people. Do yourself a favor and reconnect with someone you miss dearly. You'll be glad you did and you'll be even more thankful we live in a place that allows us to do that.
Friday, September 9, 2011
I Lied.....
Only because I don't have my camera cord to connect to my computer to show you what the new apartment looks like.
I did have my first visitor last night though! My dear friend Paul who will be flying back to his place of residence (which I use loosely because it WILL NOT BE FOREVER!) in Spain on Monday. I guess the pictures don't really show how big the apartment is because he kept saying that it was bigger than it looks in the pictures. I guess? IDK.
Anywho - I'm finally feeling like a normal person again! Although with all the rest, my body is having a hard time getting back into the running and I'm growing a little concernicus about the Half Marathon next weekend. Hopefully I'll be able to finish it. I haven't been able to do a long run yet so here's hoping I can get it in tomorrow.
Today I'm going to take it easy at the gym - probably just use the Precor AMT machine for an hour or so. Then I DESPERATELY need to go food shopping. I have to make a list of things to get. YAY! I love to food shop. Did you know that about me? No? Well then, you learn something new every day. SRSLY. I heart food shopping. But always keep in mind - it is never a good idea to go shopping when you're hungry because you always buy food you'd never normally eat. I'm so pumped to go to Trader Joes for my stuff. :-D I'm also pretty pumped to make this recipe and freeze it. This one too for, you know....ess and gees :-)
In the mean time, I've got a pretty jam packed weekend - a HUGE change from last weekend. Thankgoodness for feeling better!
Tonight I'm heading to happy hour (minus drinking for me since I'm planning a long run - okay maybe 1 beer) and hangin at JHP's in Ardmore. Tomorrow morning - long run (the goal is 14 miles...I'll let you know how many I actually do...I'd be pretty okay with 12 considering the following weekend I need to run just 1 more mile than that). Saturday afternoon/evening I'm heading up to Allentown to see a dear DEAR friend whom I haven't seen since January of 2000 when I said goodbye to him at Albright. Little did I know it would be 11 and 1/2 years til I'd see him again. I'm pretty excited to see Dave :-). I've mentioned him a few times on here. I'm sure I'll post all about it afterwards. Sunday morning I'm FINALLY teaching my Spin class again. Yay! Then having brunch with Heather at White Dog Cafe. I'll probably pop over to the Fall Ball Lax game - if we're finished early enough. Sunday afternoon I'll most likely head home to do some laundry and see my mom. I do have plans for Sunday night but I'll tell you about them later ;-)
For now though, I leave you with my current favorite song to play on repeat....
I did have my first visitor last night though! My dear friend Paul who will be flying back to his place of residence (which I use loosely because it WILL NOT BE FOREVER!) in Spain on Monday. I guess the pictures don't really show how big the apartment is because he kept saying that it was bigger than it looks in the pictures. I guess? IDK.
Anywho - I'm finally feeling like a normal person again! Although with all the rest, my body is having a hard time getting back into the running and I'm growing a little concernicus about the Half Marathon next weekend. Hopefully I'll be able to finish it. I haven't been able to do a long run yet so here's hoping I can get it in tomorrow.
Today I'm going to take it easy at the gym - probably just use the Precor AMT machine for an hour or so. Then I DESPERATELY need to go food shopping. I have to make a list of things to get. YAY! I love to food shop. Did you know that about me? No? Well then, you learn something new every day. SRSLY. I heart food shopping. But always keep in mind - it is never a good idea to go shopping when you're hungry because you always buy food you'd never normally eat. I'm so pumped to go to Trader Joes for my stuff. :-D I'm also pretty pumped to make this recipe and freeze it. This one too for, you know....ess and gees :-)
In the mean time, I've got a pretty jam packed weekend - a HUGE change from last weekend. Thankgoodness for feeling better!
Tonight I'm heading to happy hour (minus drinking for me since I'm planning a long run - okay maybe 1 beer) and hangin at JHP's in Ardmore. Tomorrow morning - long run (the goal is 14 miles...I'll let you know how many I actually do...I'd be pretty okay with 12 considering the following weekend I need to run just 1 more mile than that). Saturday afternoon/evening I'm heading up to Allentown to see a dear DEAR friend whom I haven't seen since January of 2000 when I said goodbye to him at Albright. Little did I know it would be 11 and 1/2 years til I'd see him again. I'm pretty excited to see Dave :-). I've mentioned him a few times on here. I'm sure I'll post all about it afterwards. Sunday morning I'm FINALLY teaching my Spin class again. Yay! Then having brunch with Heather at White Dog Cafe. I'll probably pop over to the Fall Ball Lax game - if we're finished early enough. Sunday afternoon I'll most likely head home to do some laundry and see my mom. I do have plans for Sunday night but I'll tell you about them later ;-)
For now though, I leave you with my current favorite song to play on repeat....
Tuesday, September 6, 2011
The A-P-T!
So I bet all 5 of you are excited to see the new digs?!?!?!?!?!
Well this isn't that post :-). Sorry! Next one, I promise!
This particular post is about being sick because that's exactly what I've been the last three days. Over the long weekend nonetheless. Ugh. It already sucks to be sick but for it to be over a long weekend when you've moved into a new place and are really excited to do stuff....yeah.
It all started with a super duper sore throat in which I kept thinking that I might be getting strep again - turns out it wasn't strep but possibly the flu or a 24 hour bug. Although from what I understand, a 24 hour bug would disappear within....24 hours. This not feeling good thing is still kind of lingering.
After moving in on Saturday and finishing everything by about 2pm, Brian and I went to get lunch of which I bought because it's the LEAST I could do to thank him for helping me. A few hours after I ate my stomach started feeling wonky and I should've known then that I shouldn't have attempted to eat anything (thinking: maybe I'm just hungry?) ha. I went back to my mom's house to pick up a few more things and ended up getting sick once at her place and thinking: ok, maybe that's all. I did feel better but little did I know what was to come.
I made it back to my apartment without getting sick but once I was home, it was all bets off. A few hours into my illness I called my dad. Why; I have no idea - actually that's not true. My dad is AMAZING in crisis situations and especially when I am being unreasonable. I knew calling him he would atleast soothe my upsetness. I am not kidding when I tell this thing KICKED. MY. ASS. My dad and stepmom came over and brought over all the necessary things: ginger ale, crackers, medicine for nausea, etc. Basically my dad was and is my knight in white shining armor (good luck guys on living up to his high standards). He and Jo stayed with me until close to midnight at which my illness subsided after taking alka-seltzer and I eventually fell asleep. I was in a lot of physical pain though. My whole body was basically like, "hey katie, what's goin on...oh, you don't like feeling like every single one of your muscles is about to explode with tremendous backpain?! Well too bad. TAKE IT ALL."
The next day - after pretty much no sleep - I still felt pretty craptastic. Soooo...I was up by 6am - called out of my spin class (there is no way I couldve taught. I couldn't even stand for more than 5 minutes without getting dizzy) - stayed in bed for about two hours then moved to my living room where I proceeded to lay down on my couch and passed-the-ef-out for three more hours. Shortly thereafter my dad called to ask if I needed anything and then he proceeded to buy me some groceries. He came over to a completely pitiful me and then did tons of stuff around my apartment. He's really the best :-)
After he left I took a shower and felt a little bit more normal but not 100%. I went home again because Aster Lane always has a BBQ and I couldn't miss it. They're some of my favorite childhood traditions that I hope continue forever. Meanwhile my neighbor Sue bought me some veggie soup from a nearby chinese restaurant place and as soon as I ate it - the color came back into my face - I seriously think I had magic potion. So good and made me feel better. I took it easy the rest of the night.
The next day I was scheduled to teach spin - which I did....and got a good workout in. Of course afterwards I felt like crap again and so obviously I had to cancel any plans I had for the rest of the day. I ate the rest of my soup and felt better but then I was like - ohhh, it'll be fine, I'll just have some real food at the BBQ. Yeah, not a good idea. I felt nauseous the rest of the night. I didn't sleep well last night.
I woke up this morning feeling the same way and took some nausea medicine. I am afraid to eat anything. Ugh. This sucks! I have a half marathon in a week and a half and I still need to get a long run in. Maybe I'll be better by Saturday.
Anyway - that's my sicky sick story. I don't care if it sounds like I'm whining. I don't know anyone that likes being SO sick they're crying.
What's your worst sick story? I have a few more doozies but those are for another time and another place.
NEXT POST IS APT PICS! I PROMISE!
Well this isn't that post :-). Sorry! Next one, I promise!
This particular post is about being sick because that's exactly what I've been the last three days. Over the long weekend nonetheless. Ugh. It already sucks to be sick but for it to be over a long weekend when you've moved into a new place and are really excited to do stuff....yeah.
It all started with a super duper sore throat in which I kept thinking that I might be getting strep again - turns out it wasn't strep but possibly the flu or a 24 hour bug. Although from what I understand, a 24 hour bug would disappear within....24 hours. This not feeling good thing is still kind of lingering.
After moving in on Saturday and finishing everything by about 2pm, Brian and I went to get lunch of which I bought because it's the LEAST I could do to thank him for helping me. A few hours after I ate my stomach started feeling wonky and I should've known then that I shouldn't have attempted to eat anything (thinking: maybe I'm just hungry?) ha. I went back to my mom's house to pick up a few more things and ended up getting sick once at her place and thinking: ok, maybe that's all. I did feel better but little did I know what was to come.
I made it back to my apartment without getting sick but once I was home, it was all bets off. A few hours into my illness I called my dad. Why; I have no idea - actually that's not true. My dad is AMAZING in crisis situations and especially when I am being unreasonable. I knew calling him he would atleast soothe my upsetness. I am not kidding when I tell this thing KICKED. MY. ASS. My dad and stepmom came over and brought over all the necessary things: ginger ale, crackers, medicine for nausea, etc. Basically my dad was and is my knight in white shining armor (good luck guys on living up to his high standards). He and Jo stayed with me until close to midnight at which my illness subsided after taking alka-seltzer and I eventually fell asleep. I was in a lot of physical pain though. My whole body was basically like, "hey katie, what's goin on...oh, you don't like feeling like every single one of your muscles is about to explode with tremendous backpain?! Well too bad. TAKE IT ALL."
The next day - after pretty much no sleep - I still felt pretty craptastic. Soooo...I was up by 6am - called out of my spin class (there is no way I couldve taught. I couldn't even stand for more than 5 minutes without getting dizzy) - stayed in bed for about two hours then moved to my living room where I proceeded to lay down on my couch and passed-the-ef-out for three more hours. Shortly thereafter my dad called to ask if I needed anything and then he proceeded to buy me some groceries. He came over to a completely pitiful me and then did tons of stuff around my apartment. He's really the best :-)
After he left I took a shower and felt a little bit more normal but not 100%. I went home again because Aster Lane always has a BBQ and I couldn't miss it. They're some of my favorite childhood traditions that I hope continue forever. Meanwhile my neighbor Sue bought me some veggie soup from a nearby chinese restaurant place and as soon as I ate it - the color came back into my face - I seriously think I had magic potion. So good and made me feel better. I took it easy the rest of the night.
The next day I was scheduled to teach spin - which I did....and got a good workout in. Of course afterwards I felt like crap again and so obviously I had to cancel any plans I had for the rest of the day. I ate the rest of my soup and felt better but then I was like - ohhh, it'll be fine, I'll just have some real food at the BBQ. Yeah, not a good idea. I felt nauseous the rest of the night. I didn't sleep well last night.
I woke up this morning feeling the same way and took some nausea medicine. I am afraid to eat anything. Ugh. This sucks! I have a half marathon in a week and a half and I still need to get a long run in. Maybe I'll be better by Saturday.
Anyway - that's my sicky sick story. I don't care if it sounds like I'm whining. I don't know anyone that likes being SO sick they're crying.
What's your worst sick story? I have a few more doozies but those are for another time and another place.
NEXT POST IS APT PICS! I PROMISE!
Friday, September 2, 2011
Blame it on someone else....
But this post is totally out of left field - haha :-)
You know how I've been whining (yes, I know I have) about my mother and her antics in trying to have me spontaneously (combust) get married? Well I was reading Rachel Wilkerson's Blog about proposals and such and it got me thinking I would answer the questions she asked the girls on this page an entirely different way. Why? Because I can. And for what reason? Because I have some time to kill this morning before I meet up with the USATF guy to certify our 5k course :-)
So here goes:
What is the point of a traditional, down-on-one-knee surprise proposal?
Personally, for as independent as I am - and I'm pretty sure I've mentioned this on here before, I want a guy to take the initiative. I think the down-on-one-knee proposal and a surprise one at that is a great way to show your woman that you've been thinking about it for awhile and that this random or not-so-random time was when you thought would be best because it was THOUGHTFUL on his part. In fact, if you're really curious you can check out this site that talks about all the traditions that go along with proposals. You can also see where the phrase "on bended knee" comes from here. As the second link shows - getting down on one knee is sign of respect to anyone - you kneel in a church before you enter a pew before God, you bow to people you meet in a lot of other countries....you kneel to a woman to show her you respect her and want to spend the rest of your life with her. I think a lot of women think they shouldn't want this tradition because women and men are supposed to be equals and everything but in this very moment, I think its entirely okay for him to be asking for your hand in marriage on one knee. I think this gesture is one of those chivalric things that should never go away - Chivalry is not dead people! Don't let it die just because you think it might be silly.....it's not. It's a grand gesture :-)
Do you think proposals are at all overrated?
Hellz to the no I do not think proposals are overrated. In fact, I already know HOW I'd like a guy to propose to me - if I'm ever so lucky! If you read through my answer to the first question you should know that I'm big on proposals. Especially if they're surprises. It always makes for a nice story and understand that this is usually one of the biggest events that happen in a person's life - who doesn't want to remember it fondly?
What are your thoughts on picking out your own ring? Why not let the guy choose?
I've actually thought about this a lot. Ha - and I don't even have a boyfriend! But ideally the guy will know what kind of ring I want. Whether it's because I showed him a style I like or because he knows me well enough - that's why the guy SHOULD be picking it out. I realize it's a huge investment and I realize that the woman will be wearing it on her finger forever but part of the excitement is seeing how well he did. Besides, if the guy knows his girl well enough, he'll KNOW that she'd want a Lucida Cut Platinum Ring....:-) I'm just sayin. Haha.
Are trips to jewelers and conversations about the logistics of engagement (like roughly when it will happen) killing romance?
Not necessarily but if those talks happen guys - understand that you're starting a fire in the girl's minds so be prepared for that to occupy her thoughts for awhile. And then wait like 3 months before you propose because she'll be expecting it sooner - esp if you are the one to bring it up. Which most guys don't/won't so I guess the question is moot. :-)
So isn’t “picking out rings” kind of the new proposal?
No. See question(s) above.
Do you have a dream proposal in mind? Would you be upset if it didn’t work out that way? I do have a dream proposal in mind - a few people know about it. I won't divulge this info on here but if you're lucky enough to know - then you're lucky enough to know :-) And call me crazy or whatever but I've told the people that if I don't get proposed to in that way, I won't be accepting the proposal (ha, who am I kidding....if it's the right guy it won't matter where he asks me......except it will).
What does your boyfriend think of all this stuff?
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA - what boyfriend?
Last question: is your man asking your dad if it’s cool?
Knowing my dad - he will DEFINITELY want the guy to ask him. My dad's a BIG traditionalist. I wonder how upset he'll be when he finds out I'm not getting married in a church (if I ever get married)? I think it's traditional and a smart way to say - "hey, I respect you and your daughter a lot and want to make sure I'll be a welcome part of this family." Of course, that doesn't always work out that way and it doesn't always matter if the parents don't like your beau - but then, think about whether you should be marrying him in the first place if your parents really don't like him.
With regard to this last question - obviously if dad isn't around for whatever reason, Mom's are the next person to ask. Mom's (atleast in my case) will most likely always answer YES YOU CAN HAVE HER AND KEEP HER AND THANKGOD YOU'RE ASKING HER I NEVER THOUGHT SHE'D GET MARRIED - WHENWILLYOUHAVEKIDS? But like I said - that could just be my mom. :-)
You know how I've been whining (yes, I know I have) about my mother and her antics in trying to have me spontaneously (combust) get married? Well I was reading Rachel Wilkerson's Blog about proposals and such and it got me thinking I would answer the questions she asked the girls on this page an entirely different way. Why? Because I can. And for what reason? Because I have some time to kill this morning before I meet up with the USATF guy to certify our 5k course :-)
So here goes:
What is the point of a traditional, down-on-one-knee surprise proposal?
Personally, for as independent as I am - and I'm pretty sure I've mentioned this on here before, I want a guy to take the initiative. I think the down-on-one-knee proposal and a surprise one at that is a great way to show your woman that you've been thinking about it for awhile and that this random or not-so-random time was when you thought would be best because it was THOUGHTFUL on his part. In fact, if you're really curious you can check out this site that talks about all the traditions that go along with proposals. You can also see where the phrase "on bended knee" comes from here. As the second link shows - getting down on one knee is sign of respect to anyone - you kneel in a church before you enter a pew before God, you bow to people you meet in a lot of other countries....you kneel to a woman to show her you respect her and want to spend the rest of your life with her. I think a lot of women think they shouldn't want this tradition because women and men are supposed to be equals and everything but in this very moment, I think its entirely okay for him to be asking for your hand in marriage on one knee. I think this gesture is one of those chivalric things that should never go away - Chivalry is not dead people! Don't let it die just because you think it might be silly.....it's not. It's a grand gesture :-)
Do you think proposals are at all overrated?
Hellz to the no I do not think proposals are overrated. In fact, I already know HOW I'd like a guy to propose to me - if I'm ever so lucky! If you read through my answer to the first question you should know that I'm big on proposals. Especially if they're surprises. It always makes for a nice story and understand that this is usually one of the biggest events that happen in a person's life - who doesn't want to remember it fondly?
What are your thoughts on picking out your own ring? Why not let the guy choose?
I've actually thought about this a lot. Ha - and I don't even have a boyfriend! But ideally the guy will know what kind of ring I want. Whether it's because I showed him a style I like or because he knows me well enough - that's why the guy SHOULD be picking it out. I realize it's a huge investment and I realize that the woman will be wearing it on her finger forever but part of the excitement is seeing how well he did. Besides, if the guy knows his girl well enough, he'll KNOW that she'd want a Lucida Cut Platinum Ring....:-) I'm just sayin. Haha.
Are trips to jewelers and conversations about the logistics of engagement (like roughly when it will happen) killing romance?
Not necessarily but if those talks happen guys - understand that you're starting a fire in the girl's minds so be prepared for that to occupy her thoughts for awhile. And then wait like 3 months before you propose because she'll be expecting it sooner - esp if you are the one to bring it up. Which most guys don't/won't so I guess the question is moot. :-)
So isn’t “picking out rings” kind of the new proposal?
No. See question(s) above.
Do you have a dream proposal in mind? Would you be upset if it didn’t work out that way? I do have a dream proposal in mind - a few people know about it. I won't divulge this info on here but if you're lucky enough to know - then you're lucky enough to know :-) And call me crazy or whatever but I've told the people that if I don't get proposed to in that way, I won't be accepting the proposal (ha, who am I kidding....if it's the right guy it won't matter where he asks me......except it will).
What does your boyfriend think of all this stuff?
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA - what boyfriend?
Last question: is your man asking your dad if it’s cool?
Knowing my dad - he will DEFINITELY want the guy to ask him. My dad's a BIG traditionalist. I wonder how upset he'll be when he finds out I'm not getting married in a church (if I ever get married)? I think it's traditional and a smart way to say - "hey, I respect you and your daughter a lot and want to make sure I'll be a welcome part of this family." Of course, that doesn't always work out that way and it doesn't always matter if the parents don't like your beau - but then, think about whether you should be marrying him in the first place if your parents really don't like him.
With regard to this last question - obviously if dad isn't around for whatever reason, Mom's are the next person to ask. Mom's (atleast in my case) will most likely always answer YES YOU CAN HAVE HER AND KEEP HER AND THANKGOD YOU'RE ASKING HER I NEVER THOUGHT SHE'D GET MARRIED - WHENWILLYOUHAVEKIDS? But like I said - that could just be my mom. :-)
Tuesday, August 30, 2011
All my bags are packed...
I'm ready to go!.....
I'm moving! I'm moving! I'M MOVING! yay! :-D
Here' is where I am moving:
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I'm so pumped I can't even describe. Of course the actual leading up to the move is kind of nerve-wracking. I feel so disorganized plus I am worried that the people I have helping me move will somehow back out on me (by no fault of their own - one of their family members is sick and could possibly pass away in the new few days). I keep thinking to myself, it's not that much stuff, it's not that much stuff - but then I remember that I'm using all of my sisters old furniture - of which I went to our storage space yesterday and rearragned so it would be easier to get it out come Saturday. What I am hoping for is to move a lot of smaller things on Friday so that on Saturday I just have the big things: Couch, Chair(s), Table(s), Sofa, Bed, etc. Of course all that moving I did yesterday has kind of made my back feel like an 80 year old man. I took some advil and plan on running in about an hour or so - I haven't run since Saturday so it should feel good to stretch my legs a bit. But I can't wait!
I have a lot to do before then but in the mean time I have a story to tell all of you (all 7 of you that read this, haha).
So I went to the Phillies game on Friday night with my sister. Unfortunately the Phillies lost but they were attempting a good comeback. However, the phils and their loss has nothing to do with this story. In fact, what I'm about to tell you could've happened anywhere.
As Kelly and I were looking for our seats, we ran into my eye doctor and his wife - who also happen to be old friends because I used to be best friends with her daughter (who's birthday is the day after mine and when she'd have birthday parties they were almost always on the date of my birthday so they would always have a separate cake for me - how nice, right? Ah childhood memories). So we start chatting with Linda and Scott and eventually leads to talking about how a friend of mine from high school is coming home for 3 weeks in October - which is fantastic news because he lives in Hawaii and I never get to see him or really talk to him. But I digress, Linda turns to me and says:
"You know why he's coming home then, right? And for that long, right?"
To which I say, "I'm guessing because his mom wants him to be home? I don't know."
Linda: "Well that and...Anne had to convince him to come home because you know, that's when Derek is getting married." And then she kept talking about Penn State and how the girl wasn't local so the wedding wasn't local...blah blah blah. I kind of started listening...until she said:
"He was the one that got away...or something...right"......so which I replied...."no, but he was a serious boyfriend of mine."
She must've seen my facial expression (which was pretty annoyed - and I'll tell you why in a few lines) because she said, "oh but you're over him...right? You don't care about that - that was so long ago."
I replied with, "Of course I'm over him but I really could've done without knowing that information..........of course he's the one that is missing out, you know?" To which she promptly replied, "Well of course." Which was hardly sincere but you get my point.
I've mentioned Derek on this blog a few times before - for whatever reason (hurt from love, having a hard time trusting guys, keeping my distance....whatever) - and when I found out he was engaged to 'she who shall not be named' I defriended him in all areas of my life. I no longer have his phone number, his facebook is completely blocked and even if he were to find me (which would be difficult) he couldn't friend me. I've also deleted his email address. I just knew that I didn't want to have any part of his life anymore and I DEFINITELY didn't want him to be a part of mine. Some of you might have noticed I changed my name on Facebook - it's for that reason and for the reasons that I don't want the school districts to go searching for my FB stuff so they can try to dig up some dirt on me...even though there isn't any - but tangent aside, I have to say, I was kind of thrown for a loop when Linda told me.
I knew he was getting married - I knew it was inevitable and I knew it was probably happening soon if not already. But I didn't want to know - I just didn't want to know anything else about him. That's why I took all of the above actions! I guess the universe has a funny way of making you realize that you have no control over that stuff. But anyway - until the game started, I was kind of unsure to what think. I was texting my friend Matt and told him what happened. I'm not sure why but I always think of things between Derek and I, now, as a competition....and somehow - he's won all of them. I DON'T KNOW HOW THAT HAPPENS!? And I know life isn't a competition and I'm the only one doing that to myself, but really? REALLY. That's a whole other tangent I could go off on but if I did many of you would think I'm still hung up on him - trust me, I'm not. It just irks me that someone had to tell me. I know I would've found out sooner or later but I was COMPLETELY FINE with that being later instead of Friday night when I was having a good time with my sister.
Luckily, the game distracted me pretty well and I didn't think about it the rest of the night. I thought about it briefly on Saturday morning while I was on my run but since then, with the exception of this post, nada. I honestly don't care at all. I don't want to know about him and I don't want him to know about me.
All that being said - I hope he has a great life and gets everything he deserves.
As for me - I'm moving!!! DID YOU FORGET!? I didn't :-D So much to look forward to this school year:
New apartment
Swim team(s)
New adventures of living alone!
Playoff baseball
Teaching Spinning close to my apartment
Lacrosse Season
Student Teaching!
Trying to get a job
Speaking of those things I'm looking forward to, expect a list of goals shortly after I move into my new place. I want to set some parameters for myself for the next 11 months (yeah, the lease is 11 months but I'll most likely be there for longer :-)!)
I'm moving! I'm moving! I'M MOVING! yay! :-D
Here' is where I am moving:
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I'm so pumped I can't even describe. Of course the actual leading up to the move is kind of nerve-wracking. I feel so disorganized plus I am worried that the people I have helping me move will somehow back out on me (by no fault of their own - one of their family members is sick and could possibly pass away in the new few days). I keep thinking to myself, it's not that much stuff, it's not that much stuff - but then I remember that I'm using all of my sisters old furniture - of which I went to our storage space yesterday and rearragned so it would be easier to get it out come Saturday. What I am hoping for is to move a lot of smaller things on Friday so that on Saturday I just have the big things: Couch, Chair(s), Table(s), Sofa, Bed, etc. Of course all that moving I did yesterday has kind of made my back feel like an 80 year old man. I took some advil and plan on running in about an hour or so - I haven't run since Saturday so it should feel good to stretch my legs a bit. But I can't wait!
I have a lot to do before then but in the mean time I have a story to tell all of you (all 7 of you that read this, haha).
So I went to the Phillies game on Friday night with my sister. Unfortunately the Phillies lost but they were attempting a good comeback. However, the phils and their loss has nothing to do with this story. In fact, what I'm about to tell you could've happened anywhere.
As Kelly and I were looking for our seats, we ran into my eye doctor and his wife - who also happen to be old friends because I used to be best friends with her daughter (who's birthday is the day after mine and when she'd have birthday parties they were almost always on the date of my birthday so they would always have a separate cake for me - how nice, right? Ah childhood memories). So we start chatting with Linda and Scott and eventually leads to talking about how a friend of mine from high school is coming home for 3 weeks in October - which is fantastic news because he lives in Hawaii and I never get to see him or really talk to him. But I digress, Linda turns to me and says:
"You know why he's coming home then, right? And for that long, right?"
To which I say, "I'm guessing because his mom wants him to be home? I don't know."
Linda: "Well that and...Anne had to convince him to come home because you know, that's when Derek is getting married." And then she kept talking about Penn State and how the girl wasn't local so the wedding wasn't local...blah blah blah. I kind of started listening...until she said:
"He was the one that got away...or something...right"......so which I replied...."no, but he was a serious boyfriend of mine."
She must've seen my facial expression (which was pretty annoyed - and I'll tell you why in a few lines) because she said, "oh but you're over him...right? You don't care about that - that was so long ago."
I replied with, "Of course I'm over him but I really could've done without knowing that information..........of course he's the one that is missing out, you know?" To which she promptly replied, "Well of course." Which was hardly sincere but you get my point.
I've mentioned Derek on this blog a few times before - for whatever reason (hurt from love, having a hard time trusting guys, keeping my distance....whatever) - and when I found out he was engaged to 'she who shall not be named' I defriended him in all areas of my life. I no longer have his phone number, his facebook is completely blocked and even if he were to find me (which would be difficult) he couldn't friend me. I've also deleted his email address. I just knew that I didn't want to have any part of his life anymore and I DEFINITELY didn't want him to be a part of mine. Some of you might have noticed I changed my name on Facebook - it's for that reason and for the reasons that I don't want the school districts to go searching for my FB stuff so they can try to dig up some dirt on me...even though there isn't any - but tangent aside, I have to say, I was kind of thrown for a loop when Linda told me.
I knew he was getting married - I knew it was inevitable and I knew it was probably happening soon if not already. But I didn't want to know - I just didn't want to know anything else about him. That's why I took all of the above actions! I guess the universe has a funny way of making you realize that you have no control over that stuff. But anyway - until the game started, I was kind of unsure to what think. I was texting my friend Matt and told him what happened. I'm not sure why but I always think of things between Derek and I, now, as a competition....and somehow - he's won all of them. I DON'T KNOW HOW THAT HAPPENS!? And I know life isn't a competition and I'm the only one doing that to myself, but really? REALLY. That's a whole other tangent I could go off on but if I did many of you would think I'm still hung up on him - trust me, I'm not. It just irks me that someone had to tell me. I know I would've found out sooner or later but I was COMPLETELY FINE with that being later instead of Friday night when I was having a good time with my sister.
Luckily, the game distracted me pretty well and I didn't think about it the rest of the night. I thought about it briefly on Saturday morning while I was on my run but since then, with the exception of this post, nada. I honestly don't care at all. I don't want to know about him and I don't want him to know about me.
All that being said - I hope he has a great life and gets everything he deserves.
As for me - I'm moving!!! DID YOU FORGET!? I didn't :-D So much to look forward to this school year:
New apartment
Swim team(s)
New adventures of living alone!
Playoff baseball
Teaching Spinning close to my apartment
Lacrosse Season
Student Teaching!
Trying to get a job
Speaking of those things I'm looking forward to, expect a list of goals shortly after I move into my new place. I want to set some parameters for myself for the next 11 months (yeah, the lease is 11 months but I'll most likely be there for longer :-)!)
Friday, August 26, 2011
A long time coming....
Clear your mind. Ok? Alright, now imagine you're having a conversation with someone and it goes something like this:
Someone: "So did you have fun last night?"
You: "Yep"
Someone: "Where'd you go?"
You: "Teresa's in Wayne and then Christophers"
Someone: "Who'd you go with?"
You: "Andrew"
Someone: "Is that the same guy you went out with last time?"
You: "Nope"
Seems like a harmless conversation, right? Sure...but only if that "someone" is a friend and only if that friend is someone you want to tell that information to. Now imagine that "someone" is your mother. And imagine if you answer those questions with "I went out in Wayne"...and "I went out with a friend".....seems like those would be acceptable answers, yes? Well they're not...didn't you know?
To most of us, asking someone the 5 W's and 1 H is generally a good way to find out information - but at some point is just becomes plain nosy. My mother is nosy. She wants to know who, what, where, when, why, and how.....and personally, as a 30 year old woman, I don't feel as though I need to tell her that stuff. I can understand her being interested in what's going on in my life...but the minute I tell her things she asks MORE questions...and those questions lead to follow up questions days later. So, for example..in a few days, she'll ask me if I'm going to see Andrew again....she will. I swear. What she doesn't know is that Andrew is a coaching friend and we went out to meet up with other coaching friends. There is nothing going on there. But she hears of a guy that I go out with and instantly thinks to herself, 'maybe this'll be the one that she ends up dating and marring and blah blah blah....' you get the idea.
What she doesn't understand is that if it IS the guy that I'm going to date, I'm not bringing him home to her nor am I telling her about him because if it doesn't work out I don't want her to ask me questions about him a month later (like she does). "Have you heard from....fill in the blank"..and then I'm like....THANKSMOMFORBRINGINGUPSOANDSOWHENIHAVENTBEENTHINKINGABOUTHIMANDBEENDOINGALRIGHTWITHOUTHIM YES, that required all caps and a run-on sentence.
If you've never had this problem with your parents then I can honestly tell you that you are VERY lucky. Most people think that my mom is harmless but I can assure you that numerous sessions of therapy with my therapist will tell you otherwise and all she really wants is grankids - no joke. She said it the other night amongst our neighbors.
She DVR's 'Say Yes to the Dress' and 'House Hunters' and 'My Fair Wedding' and whatever other show there is to watch about weddings/moving/husbands/families to inadvertently create a subconscious in my head that will somehow turn into me finding a husband and magically defying the rules of pregnancy and not waiting 9 months before I have a baby. Yeah. I am not kidding. What she doesn't realize is that with each of these shows that she watches it makes me less and less interested in having a husband or even kids. And the sad thing is, I WANT THOSE THINGS! But on my own terms and in my own time.
So the question is - have y'all ever encountered a parent like this? What do you do to deal with it?
I can't wait to move out....
Someone: "So did you have fun last night?"
You: "Yep"
Someone: "Where'd you go?"
You: "Teresa's in Wayne and then Christophers"
Someone: "Who'd you go with?"
You: "Andrew"
Someone: "Is that the same guy you went out with last time?"
You: "Nope"
Seems like a harmless conversation, right? Sure...but only if that "someone" is a friend and only if that friend is someone you want to tell that information to. Now imagine that "someone" is your mother. And imagine if you answer those questions with "I went out in Wayne"...and "I went out with a friend".....seems like those would be acceptable answers, yes? Well they're not...didn't you know?
To most of us, asking someone the 5 W's and 1 H is generally a good way to find out information - but at some point is just becomes plain nosy. My mother is nosy. She wants to know who, what, where, when, why, and how.....and personally, as a 30 year old woman, I don't feel as though I need to tell her that stuff. I can understand her being interested in what's going on in my life...but the minute I tell her things she asks MORE questions...and those questions lead to follow up questions days later. So, for example..in a few days, she'll ask me if I'm going to see Andrew again....she will. I swear. What she doesn't know is that Andrew is a coaching friend and we went out to meet up with other coaching friends. There is nothing going on there. But she hears of a guy that I go out with and instantly thinks to herself, 'maybe this'll be the one that she ends up dating and marring and blah blah blah....' you get the idea.
What she doesn't understand is that if it IS the guy that I'm going to date, I'm not bringing him home to her nor am I telling her about him because if it doesn't work out I don't want her to ask me questions about him a month later (like she does). "Have you heard from....fill in the blank"..and then I'm like....THANKSMOMFORBRINGINGUPSOANDSOWHENIHAVENTBEENTHINKINGABOUTHIMANDBEENDOINGALRIGHTWITHOUTHIM YES, that required all caps and a run-on sentence.
If you've never had this problem with your parents then I can honestly tell you that you are VERY lucky. Most people think that my mom is harmless but I can assure you that numerous sessions of therapy with my therapist will tell you otherwise and all she really wants is grankids - no joke. She said it the other night amongst our neighbors.
She DVR's 'Say Yes to the Dress' and 'House Hunters' and 'My Fair Wedding' and whatever other show there is to watch about weddings/moving/husbands/families to inadvertently create a subconscious in my head that will somehow turn into me finding a husband and magically defying the rules of pregnancy and not waiting 9 months before I have a baby. Yeah. I am not kidding. What she doesn't realize is that with each of these shows that she watches it makes me less and less interested in having a husband or even kids. And the sad thing is, I WANT THOSE THINGS! But on my own terms and in my own time.
So the question is - have y'all ever encountered a parent like this? What do you do to deal with it?
I can't wait to move out....
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