http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=97df0Q5qxa8
Watch/Listen to this - it will make you happy :-) It was just what I needed on my Pandora this morning. Isn't it great when a song comes on the radio or internet that either parallel's how you're feeling at that moment or just that kind of fits the mood that you're in? This song did that for me :-)
Anyway - it's been a hell of a week. Thankgoodness tomorrow is Friday. It hasn't been a bad week - just a busy and hectic one. Because of weather last week, our meet on Friday was moved to Monday which means we've had a meet on Monday, Wednesday and a third today. Three meets in a week are a lot and they also mean three less days without exercise. We all know how difficult it is for me to give up my daily workout but on days with meets, it's as if I am getting my own workout. They're long grueling days and I sleep so soundly on those nights. This morning, I just did not want to get out of bed. Probably also has a lot to do with the fact that its a windy/rainy/dreary morning here in Philly.
Aside from the crazy that is my work life - I am starting to get a little anxious about how much longer I have here at LM. I haven't heard anything from the teacher I am in for and I haven't heard anything from the administration either. I keep having these dreams where I am told I am staying for the rest of the year. I've had a lot of kids ask me if I am here til the end of the school year and all I can tell them is that 'I don't know'.
I suppose I should just go with the motto of the song that is currently playing on my Pandora - "Don't Worry, Be Happy". (Side note: I had this song/album on cassette tape. Yes. I did.)
Anyway...it's a brand new day....what're you doing with it?
Thursday, January 31, 2013
Friday, January 25, 2013
Content
The beginning of 2013 has been a whirlwind! To say the very least.....
Jan 2 I got a phone call from LM asking me to take a 6 week assignment for a teacher who was in a bike accident. um....HELL YES I WILL DO THIS!
Needless to say, I have been teaching and planning and loving life ever since! I only wish I could stay longer and I am trying to not think about when my time will be up as I am still not certain. I am hoping for at least 3 more weeks. My bank acct/bills will be happy and so will I.
In the mean time - my New Years was fabulous in so many ways. It was a nice upswing from the sad/teary-eyed Christmas I couldn't seem to get through. Seeing my therapist just after Christmas helped and I recently saw her. She agreed that the decisions I have been making are the steps in the right directions.
I've even lessened my load this Spring. Remember that crazy/hectic schedule I wrote out not too long ago? Well - the fact of the matter is - I am no longer working at Cabrini (because I am teaching), I am not teaching morning Spin (because I am teaching), and I am not working at Montco THIS SEMESTER (I will be back in the Fall - enrollment was down for the Spring so they were going to cancel my classes anyway). I decided (in regards to Montco) that if I was going to do something and do it well instead of half-assed, I should give it my all. I am definitely not complaining. Sure, the money would be nice but I am doing alright at the moment.
I am still teaching spin 2-3 times a week, coaching high school swimming (for at least another month - although that is dwindling too), and coaching and teaching lessons on Saturdays. For now, this is plenty for me. I am happy. And although I don't have much of a social life to boast about - there are times when it is much better than it's ever been.
I am still working on being happy in the moments and not being so concerned with what ifs or what was. I try to get on my yoga mat at least twice a week - it makes a big difference. I am also running more frequently and am really happy with myself about all of it.
As I was proctoring my last midterm this morning I finally realized....I am very lucky. My sister just lost her job and here I am working and flourishing. Things could be a lot worse. I have an amazing support group of friends and family. I might not always be the best at getting back to everyone but I am trying my best every day and that's really all I can do...that's all any of us can do.
My ultimate goal is, obviously, to get a full time teaching job....in the mean time, I am enjoying this opportunity for what it's worth and doing everything I can to get noticed here. Fingers crossed it leads to something really good :-)
I am content.
Jan 2 I got a phone call from LM asking me to take a 6 week assignment for a teacher who was in a bike accident. um....HELL YES I WILL DO THIS!
Needless to say, I have been teaching and planning and loving life ever since! I only wish I could stay longer and I am trying to not think about when my time will be up as I am still not certain. I am hoping for at least 3 more weeks. My bank acct/bills will be happy and so will I.
In the mean time - my New Years was fabulous in so many ways. It was a nice upswing from the sad/teary-eyed Christmas I couldn't seem to get through. Seeing my therapist just after Christmas helped and I recently saw her. She agreed that the decisions I have been making are the steps in the right directions.
I've even lessened my load this Spring. Remember that crazy/hectic schedule I wrote out not too long ago? Well - the fact of the matter is - I am no longer working at Cabrini (because I am teaching), I am not teaching morning Spin (because I am teaching), and I am not working at Montco THIS SEMESTER (I will be back in the Fall - enrollment was down for the Spring so they were going to cancel my classes anyway). I decided (in regards to Montco) that if I was going to do something and do it well instead of half-assed, I should give it my all. I am definitely not complaining. Sure, the money would be nice but I am doing alright at the moment.
I am still teaching spin 2-3 times a week, coaching high school swimming (for at least another month - although that is dwindling too), and coaching and teaching lessons on Saturdays. For now, this is plenty for me. I am happy. And although I don't have much of a social life to boast about - there are times when it is much better than it's ever been.
I am still working on being happy in the moments and not being so concerned with what ifs or what was. I try to get on my yoga mat at least twice a week - it makes a big difference. I am also running more frequently and am really happy with myself about all of it.
As I was proctoring my last midterm this morning I finally realized....I am very lucky. My sister just lost her job and here I am working and flourishing. Things could be a lot worse. I have an amazing support group of friends and family. I might not always be the best at getting back to everyone but I am trying my best every day and that's really all I can do...that's all any of us can do.
My ultimate goal is, obviously, to get a full time teaching job....in the mean time, I am enjoying this opportunity for what it's worth and doing everything I can to get noticed here. Fingers crossed it leads to something really good :-)
I am content.
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