A New Year - A New Perspective?

So often we find ourselves ringing in the new year telling ourselves, "This year will be different. This year I'm really going to do the things I set for myself as goals." Usually it's like that or something along those lines.

Here's the truth. I do this EVERY year. Sometimes, I accomplish them. More often than not, though.....I don't.

I'm starting over this year. I know I know. Everyone says that. It's January 1. Of course you're starting over. But you know, I really am.

This blog has always served a purpose for myself to basically whine to "no one" about the things going on in my life. I say "no one" even though I know a few of my friends read this on occasion. But my friends already know these things about me. That's why they're my friends.

From this point forward, I'm using this space to talk about the crazy things my mother does while I'm here at home (thank god it'll only be for a short period of time...a special post about living with your mother is yet to come!). It'll be about the choices I decide to make while I'm struggling to figure out what it is I want exactly in my life. It'll be about my constant desire to want to be healthy (read: skinny) and my struggle to know that I'll never be a super model nor will I ever look like one. Basically, It'll be about me - but in a less whiny manner.

I hope to amuse (first and foremost) and of course reflect on my life. I've been through a lot in the 28 years I've lived on this place we call Earth, but my goodness do I still feel like I have SO much to learn.

Shall I start with my supposed 2K10 RESOLUTIONS? (k, but don't hold your breadth...let's just say, if I can accomplish 1/3 of this list, I'll totally be thrilled)

1. Visit friends more/Be better at Keeping in Touch
2. Take a big trip to Europe
3. Finish Grad School
4. Get a head coaching job
5. Read more often
6. Help/Volunteer/Donate my time more
7. Make RTF Golf Outing awesome!
8. Write more
(Exercise goals)
1. Eat Clean
2. Eliminate Sugar
3. Run a Marathon
4. Get Six Pack Abs (haha)
5. Get my Spinning Certification
6. Get my training Certification
7. Work with a trainer
8. Ride with a Team

So I guess that's about it for now. There are more - but the "more" is really just on my Bucket List of life.

I think I can do almost all of these things this year. We'll see next January 1.

Suck it up....rub some dirt in it...and get back in there!

That - is going to be my motto for the rest of the year. "Suck it up, rub some dirt in it..and get back in there!"

It sounds silly but really - it's pretty true. I have been approaching a lot of the things in my life as "oh geez, poor me" or "man this sucks, I can't believe I STILL am having issues with my leg and can't run".

On my way home from work yesterday I realized AND reminded myself....I don't have to do anything for anyone else but MYSELF. Yes. I have signed up for two races in the near future...but I am still having issues with my leg. No. I didn't know it would be like this. But really...do I want to risk injuring it further by getting pissed that it's not healing and knowing I won't have enough time to train for everything that I want to? No. I don't. So here's what I'm going to do:

Since I know rest helps it - I am going to do just that. I am still going to work out - but not run. Granted - that'll change how I eat and whatnot but I'd rather have a working leg than one that doesn't. Also - I am going to find a doctor and see if they can either recommend a specialist or something to help with the healing. After I do all that - I am going to see how it feels. IF and only IF it is better - I will run....I have a 10K in a few weeks - which - might be doable. HOWEVER - if my leg starts to hurt again afterwards - the Half Marathon - I'm afraid - is probably not going to happen. Yes - it'll suck paying the money and not running and yes - it'll suck because it's in Philly and I really wanted to run while my family was watching AND it's a cool place to run - but I don't want to have permanent damage.

All that being said - I still have to motivate myself to workout. The running was something I guess I took for granted. I am going to miss doing it. It has really changed the way my body looks - at least - to me it has. I might try to start riding again - I haven't in a while - I should give Brian a call.

And the motto isn't JUST for my athletic/physical side. I am seriously going to just suck it up when it comes to the things that are being thrown at me in life. I can't sit here and wallow. It drains me of my energy and then makes me not want to work out. I LOVE to do that...work out. I need to find that passion again.

In other realms - I am traveling this weekend to Arizona for a shoot. Should be fun. I haven't packed yet. I figure I'll do it tonight after I get home from the gym and do laundry. It's been about three weeks since LA - feels a lot longer though. I'm starting to realize how much I really do love traveling. I'm just itching to get out of the country and explore. My friend Pam and I are thinking about taking a trip to Italy next Spring - if it works out - and Paul is in Spain by then - I think I'm going to go to Italy and then go to Spain - kind of a two week vacation. Depends though - on money - timing - work and other things. May seems to be like it might be the best option as for timing.

Anywho - Happy Friday! Hope all is well in the world:-)