Suck it up....rub some dirt in it...and get back in there!

That - is going to be my motto for the rest of the year. "Suck it up, rub some dirt in it..and get back in there!"

It sounds silly but really - it's pretty true. I have been approaching a lot of the things in my life as "oh geez, poor me" or "man this sucks, I can't believe I STILL am having issues with my leg and can't run".

On my way home from work yesterday I realized AND reminded myself....I don't have to do anything for anyone else but MYSELF. Yes. I have signed up for two races in the near future...but I am still having issues with my leg. No. I didn't know it would be like this. But really...do I want to risk injuring it further by getting pissed that it's not healing and knowing I won't have enough time to train for everything that I want to? No. I don't. So here's what I'm going to do:

Since I know rest helps it - I am going to do just that. I am still going to work out - but not run. Granted - that'll change how I eat and whatnot but I'd rather have a working leg than one that doesn't. Also - I am going to find a doctor and see if they can either recommend a specialist or something to help with the healing. After I do all that - I am going to see how it feels. IF and only IF it is better - I will run....I have a 10K in a few weeks - which - might be doable. HOWEVER - if my leg starts to hurt again afterwards - the Half Marathon - I'm afraid - is probably not going to happen. Yes - it'll suck paying the money and not running and yes - it'll suck because it's in Philly and I really wanted to run while my family was watching AND it's a cool place to run - but I don't want to have permanent damage.

All that being said - I still have to motivate myself to workout. The running was something I guess I took for granted. I am going to miss doing it. It has really changed the way my body looks - at least - to me it has. I might try to start riding again - I haven't in a while - I should give Brian a call.

And the motto isn't JUST for my athletic/physical side. I am seriously going to just suck it up when it comes to the things that are being thrown at me in life. I can't sit here and wallow. It drains me of my energy and then makes me not want to work out. I LOVE to do that...work out. I need to find that passion again.

In other realms - I am traveling this weekend to Arizona for a shoot. Should be fun. I haven't packed yet. I figure I'll do it tonight after I get home from the gym and do laundry. It's been about three weeks since LA - feels a lot longer though. I'm starting to realize how much I really do love traveling. I'm just itching to get out of the country and explore. My friend Pam and I are thinking about taking a trip to Italy next Spring - if it works out - and Paul is in Spain by then - I think I'm going to go to Italy and then go to Spain - kind of a two week vacation. Depends though - on money - timing - work and other things. May seems to be like it might be the best option as for timing.

Anywho - Happy Friday! Hope all is well in the world:-)