I'm ready to go!.....
I'm moving! I'm moving! I'M MOVING! yay! :-D
Here' is where I am moving:
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I'm so pumped I can't even describe. Of course the actual leading up to the move is kind of nerve-wracking. I feel so disorganized plus I am worried that the people I have helping me move will somehow back out on me (by no fault of their own - one of their family members is sick and could possibly pass away in the new few days). I keep thinking to myself, it's not that much stuff, it's not that much stuff - but then I remember that I'm using all of my sisters old furniture - of which I went to our storage space yesterday and rearragned so it would be easier to get it out come Saturday. What I am hoping for is to move a lot of smaller things on Friday so that on Saturday I just have the big things: Couch, Chair(s), Table(s), Sofa, Bed, etc. Of course all that moving I did yesterday has kind of made my back feel like an 80 year old man. I took some advil and plan on running in about an hour or so - I haven't run since Saturday so it should feel good to stretch my legs a bit. But I can't wait!
I have a lot to do before then but in the mean time I have a story to tell all of you (all 7 of you that read this, haha).
So I went to the Phillies game on Friday night with my sister. Unfortunately the Phillies lost but they were attempting a good comeback. However, the phils and their loss has nothing to do with this story. In fact, what I'm about to tell you could've happened anywhere.
As Kelly and I were looking for our seats, we ran into my eye doctor and his wife - who also happen to be old friends because I used to be best friends with her daughter (who's birthday is the day after mine and when she'd have birthday parties they were almost always on the date of my birthday so they would always have a separate cake for me - how nice, right? Ah childhood memories). So we start chatting with Linda and Scott and eventually leads to talking about how a friend of mine from high school is coming home for 3 weeks in October - which is fantastic news because he lives in Hawaii and I never get to see him or really talk to him. But I digress, Linda turns to me and says:
"You know why he's coming home then, right? And for that long, right?"
To which I say, "I'm guessing because his mom wants him to be home? I don't know."
Linda: "Well that and...Anne had to convince him to come home because you know, that's when Derek is getting married." And then she kept talking about Penn State and how the girl wasn't local so the wedding wasn't local...blah blah blah. I kind of started listening...until she said:
"He was the one that got away...or something...right"......so which I replied...."no, but he was a serious boyfriend of mine."
She must've seen my facial expression (which was pretty annoyed - and I'll tell you why in a few lines) because she said, "oh but you're over him...right? You don't care about that - that was so long ago."
I replied with, "Of course I'm over him but I really could've done without knowing that information..........of course he's the one that is missing out, you know?" To which she promptly replied, "Well of course." Which was hardly sincere but you get my point.
I've mentioned Derek on this blog a few times before - for whatever reason (hurt from love, having a hard time trusting guys, keeping my distance....whatever) - and when I found out he was engaged to 'she who shall not be named' I defriended him in all areas of my life. I no longer have his phone number, his facebook is completely blocked and even if he were to find me (which would be difficult) he couldn't friend me. I've also deleted his email address. I just knew that I didn't want to have any part of his life anymore and I DEFINITELY didn't want him to be a part of mine. Some of you might have noticed I changed my name on Facebook - it's for that reason and for the reasons that I don't want the school districts to go searching for my FB stuff so they can try to dig up some dirt on me...even though there isn't any - but tangent aside, I have to say, I was kind of thrown for a loop when Linda told me.
I knew he was getting married - I knew it was inevitable and I knew it was probably happening soon if not already. But I didn't want to know - I just didn't want to know anything else about him. That's why I took all of the above actions! I guess the universe has a funny way of making you realize that you have no control over that stuff. But anyway - until the game started, I was kind of unsure to what think. I was texting my friend Matt and told him what happened. I'm not sure why but I always think of things between Derek and I, now, as a competition....and somehow - he's won all of them. I DON'T KNOW HOW THAT HAPPENS!? And I know life isn't a competition and I'm the only one doing that to myself, but really? REALLY. That's a whole other tangent I could go off on but if I did many of you would think I'm still hung up on him - trust me, I'm not. It just irks me that someone had to tell me. I know I would've found out sooner or later but I was COMPLETELY FINE with that being later instead of Friday night when I was having a good time with my sister.
Luckily, the game distracted me pretty well and I didn't think about it the rest of the night. I thought about it briefly on Saturday morning while I was on my run but since then, with the exception of this post, nada. I honestly don't care at all. I don't want to know about him and I don't want him to know about me.
All that being said - I hope he has a great life and gets everything he deserves.
As for me - I'm moving!!! DID YOU FORGET!? I didn't :-D So much to look forward to this school year:
New apartment
Swim team(s)
New adventures of living alone!
Playoff baseball
Teaching Spinning close to my apartment
Lacrosse Season
Student Teaching!
Trying to get a job
Speaking of those things I'm looking forward to, expect a list of goals shortly after I move into my new place. I want to set some parameters for myself for the next 11 months (yeah, the lease is 11 months but I'll most likely be there for longer :-)!)
Tuesday, August 30, 2011
Friday, August 26, 2011
A long time coming....
Clear your mind. Ok? Alright, now imagine you're having a conversation with someone and it goes something like this:
Someone: "So did you have fun last night?"
You: "Yep"
Someone: "Where'd you go?"
You: "Teresa's in Wayne and then Christophers"
Someone: "Who'd you go with?"
You: "Andrew"
Someone: "Is that the same guy you went out with last time?"
You: "Nope"
Seems like a harmless conversation, right? Sure...but only if that "someone" is a friend and only if that friend is someone you want to tell that information to. Now imagine that "someone" is your mother. And imagine if you answer those questions with "I went out in Wayne"...and "I went out with a friend".....seems like those would be acceptable answers, yes? Well they're not...didn't you know?
To most of us, asking someone the 5 W's and 1 H is generally a good way to find out information - but at some point is just becomes plain nosy. My mother is nosy. She wants to know who, what, where, when, why, and how.....and personally, as a 30 year old woman, I don't feel as though I need to tell her that stuff. I can understand her being interested in what's going on in my life...but the minute I tell her things she asks MORE questions...and those questions lead to follow up questions days later. So, for example..in a few days, she'll ask me if I'm going to see Andrew again....she will. I swear. What she doesn't know is that Andrew is a coaching friend and we went out to meet up with other coaching friends. There is nothing going on there. But she hears of a guy that I go out with and instantly thinks to herself, 'maybe this'll be the one that she ends up dating and marring and blah blah blah....' you get the idea.
What she doesn't understand is that if it IS the guy that I'm going to date, I'm not bringing him home to her nor am I telling her about him because if it doesn't work out I don't want her to ask me questions about him a month later (like she does). "Have you heard from....fill in the blank"..and then I'm like....THANKSMOMFORBRINGINGUPSOANDSOWHENIHAVENTBEENTHINKINGABOUTHIMANDBEENDOINGALRIGHTWITHOUTHIM YES, that required all caps and a run-on sentence.
If you've never had this problem with your parents then I can honestly tell you that you are VERY lucky. Most people think that my mom is harmless but I can assure you that numerous sessions of therapy with my therapist will tell you otherwise and all she really wants is grankids - no joke. She said it the other night amongst our neighbors.
She DVR's 'Say Yes to the Dress' and 'House Hunters' and 'My Fair Wedding' and whatever other show there is to watch about weddings/moving/husbands/families to inadvertently create a subconscious in my head that will somehow turn into me finding a husband and magically defying the rules of pregnancy and not waiting 9 months before I have a baby. Yeah. I am not kidding. What she doesn't realize is that with each of these shows that she watches it makes me less and less interested in having a husband or even kids. And the sad thing is, I WANT THOSE THINGS! But on my own terms and in my own time.
So the question is - have y'all ever encountered a parent like this? What do you do to deal with it?
I can't wait to move out....
Someone: "So did you have fun last night?"
You: "Yep"
Someone: "Where'd you go?"
You: "Teresa's in Wayne and then Christophers"
Someone: "Who'd you go with?"
You: "Andrew"
Someone: "Is that the same guy you went out with last time?"
You: "Nope"
Seems like a harmless conversation, right? Sure...but only if that "someone" is a friend and only if that friend is someone you want to tell that information to. Now imagine that "someone" is your mother. And imagine if you answer those questions with "I went out in Wayne"...and "I went out with a friend".....seems like those would be acceptable answers, yes? Well they're not...didn't you know?
To most of us, asking someone the 5 W's and 1 H is generally a good way to find out information - but at some point is just becomes plain nosy. My mother is nosy. She wants to know who, what, where, when, why, and how.....and personally, as a 30 year old woman, I don't feel as though I need to tell her that stuff. I can understand her being interested in what's going on in my life...but the minute I tell her things she asks MORE questions...and those questions lead to follow up questions days later. So, for example..in a few days, she'll ask me if I'm going to see Andrew again....she will. I swear. What she doesn't know is that Andrew is a coaching friend and we went out to meet up with other coaching friends. There is nothing going on there. But she hears of a guy that I go out with and instantly thinks to herself, 'maybe this'll be the one that she ends up dating and marring and blah blah blah....' you get the idea.
What she doesn't understand is that if it IS the guy that I'm going to date, I'm not bringing him home to her nor am I telling her about him because if it doesn't work out I don't want her to ask me questions about him a month later (like she does). "Have you heard from....fill in the blank"..and then I'm like....THANKSMOMFORBRINGINGUPSOANDSOWHENIHAVENTBEENTHINKINGABOUTHIMANDBEENDOINGALRIGHTWITHOUTHIM YES, that required all caps and a run-on sentence.
If you've never had this problem with your parents then I can honestly tell you that you are VERY lucky. Most people think that my mom is harmless but I can assure you that numerous sessions of therapy with my therapist will tell you otherwise and all she really wants is grankids - no joke. She said it the other night amongst our neighbors.
She DVR's 'Say Yes to the Dress' and 'House Hunters' and 'My Fair Wedding' and whatever other show there is to watch about weddings/moving/husbands/families to inadvertently create a subconscious in my head that will somehow turn into me finding a husband and magically defying the rules of pregnancy and not waiting 9 months before I have a baby. Yeah. I am not kidding. What she doesn't realize is that with each of these shows that she watches it makes me less and less interested in having a husband or even kids. And the sad thing is, I WANT THOSE THINGS! But on my own terms and in my own time.
So the question is - have y'all ever encountered a parent like this? What do you do to deal with it?
I can't wait to move out....
Wednesday, August 24, 2011
Doctors, Lunches, and Cemetery's
In no particular order.
Those all relate to each other because I've been to or done all those things in the last week and a half.
Last Monday I got an email from my sister asking me to meet her at the doctor's that afternoon. Her physical health, while it could be better, is fine...it's her emotional health. Without getting into too much detail - things have since subsided but are still pretty prevalent. Let's just say she's working on it and to be honest this is 20 years in the making. She's needed to do this a long time ago. While I am worried about her I know this is something she has to do on her own. I'm just glad she's taking the right steps. I plan on helping her in any way I can and with whatever she needs.
This Monday (two days ago) would've been Rachel's 33rd Birthday. I visited her at the cemetery. It was the first time in over a year I've been to her grave. Sometimes I feel guilty that I don't go a lot but other times I know she's always with me. It might be weird to hear someone say it outloud but I truly believe that she's looking over me and keeping me in check. In the moments I find myself struggling, there is usually a sense of calm that comes over me. I believe it's her. I miss her a lot. I can't believe it's been 2 years since she left us. Still weird.
I went to lunch with a professor on Monday (before the cemetery) and it was a really refreshing situation. He's definitely someone to keep in touch with - he has a lot of contacts in the Education community and I think a good friend. He's a licensed psychologist - which is maybe why I feel so balanced now :-) haha. But truly a good guy. I'm also going to lunch with another (different) professor tomorrow. It'll be good to see him too. Another good person to keep in touch with - he also has some good contacts in the education field. I'm hoping he has a few leads for me as far as ways to make some extra income.
Elsewhere - some good changes coming around the bend.....I can't wait to tell y'all all about it! I just don't want to jinx it so I'll be telling everyone soon :-)
Those all relate to each other because I've been to or done all those things in the last week and a half.
Last Monday I got an email from my sister asking me to meet her at the doctor's that afternoon. Her physical health, while it could be better, is fine...it's her emotional health. Without getting into too much detail - things have since subsided but are still pretty prevalent. Let's just say she's working on it and to be honest this is 20 years in the making. She's needed to do this a long time ago. While I am worried about her I know this is something she has to do on her own. I'm just glad she's taking the right steps. I plan on helping her in any way I can and with whatever she needs.
This Monday (two days ago) would've been Rachel's 33rd Birthday. I visited her at the cemetery. It was the first time in over a year I've been to her grave. Sometimes I feel guilty that I don't go a lot but other times I know she's always with me. It might be weird to hear someone say it outloud but I truly believe that she's looking over me and keeping me in check. In the moments I find myself struggling, there is usually a sense of calm that comes over me. I believe it's her. I miss her a lot. I can't believe it's been 2 years since she left us. Still weird.
I went to lunch with a professor on Monday (before the cemetery) and it was a really refreshing situation. He's definitely someone to keep in touch with - he has a lot of contacts in the Education community and I think a good friend. He's a licensed psychologist - which is maybe why I feel so balanced now :-) haha. But truly a good guy. I'm also going to lunch with another (different) professor tomorrow. It'll be good to see him too. Another good person to keep in touch with - he also has some good contacts in the education field. I'm hoping he has a few leads for me as far as ways to make some extra income.
Elsewhere - some good changes coming around the bend.....I can't wait to tell y'all all about it! I just don't want to jinx it so I'll be telling everyone soon :-)
Tuesday, August 16, 2011
The Future is Now....
“When it comes to the future, there are three kinds of people: those who let it happen, those who make it happen, and those who wonder what happened.” ~Some random guy that I'm not sure who he is but his words are OH SO TRUE!
I saw this quote and it had to be mine....at least for today. It's my current FB status too. Ahh, how much do y'all love my etheral quotes? haha. I do actually get a lot of comments from friends on them - randomly albeit but ones that say, "I love your quotes"....esp from people who I never see all the time. So I got that goin' for me. Ha!
I, as I always do, have been thinking about the future. Why? What's the point? All I can do is work with the here and now. The future is so far away and yet it's now. Today is a day (and the month in general) that a few months ago I was thinking, "what am I going to do with myself in August?" Turns out, I don't know how to slow down. Actually, it turns out when I'm not busy, I don't do stuff! I'm a much better worker when I've got a lot of pots on the stove. Does anyone else ever feel like that?
I feel like I'm all out of wack because I have SO much free time and when I have things I have to do, I just avoid doing them. Is that the downward spiral to becoming unmotivated? I certainly hope not. I also find myself not as happy when I'm not busy. I really enjoy being busy - as weird as that sounds. I enjoy knowing I have something "next" to go to or to do in a day. Yesterday was one of those days where I had all my "stuff" done by 2PM. What did I do the rest of the day? Oh, I sat on the couch and watched TV. I could've been doing a million other things...but no, I sat. On my couch (Very comfy). Watched anything and everything I could do avoid doing simple things. Today, Wedneday, and Thursday will not be like this....Friday I have one thing to do and it isn't until 3PM. I've been trying to sleep in because for some reason I am having issues sleeping again - maybe that'll be Friday's goal - to sleep til 2 :-) haha.
So what does the quote have to do with the post? In my free time I find myself thinking about the up-coming year. Worrying - which is hardly helpful since worry gets you nowhere and yet I am a master sensi at it. Id like to think that everything I've been doing up until this point (over the last two and a half years) will be the things that "make it happen" for my future....it's only normal to have some sense of skepticism, right? Like I shouldn't push forward with blind optimism because if I'm atleast realistic about all of it, then I won't be 100% disappointed if it doesn't happen......right? I feel like in my life the more realistic I am about things, the easier it is to soften the blow when or if the expected doesn't happen.
I often think back to a time before I used to think this way.....when? Ha. I was in high school...and my first year of college really. It wasn't until my Sophomore year that I got to be so anxious. I guess that's one thing I'll always have from my ED. Anxiety and worry. It's gotten a LOT better since then - I mean, it has been 10 years since I began the program and 9 since I finished it....so I think I'm doing pretty okay all things considered.
That being said...I still take each day at a time and try to refocus my energies on the here and now. Because as we all know, you could be here one minute and gone the next....
I saw this quote and it had to be mine....at least for today. It's my current FB status too. Ahh, how much do y'all love my etheral quotes? haha. I do actually get a lot of comments from friends on them - randomly albeit but ones that say, "I love your quotes"....esp from people who I never see all the time. So I got that goin' for me. Ha!
I, as I always do, have been thinking about the future. Why? What's the point? All I can do is work with the here and now. The future is so far away and yet it's now. Today is a day (and the month in general) that a few months ago I was thinking, "what am I going to do with myself in August?" Turns out, I don't know how to slow down. Actually, it turns out when I'm not busy, I don't do stuff! I'm a much better worker when I've got a lot of pots on the stove. Does anyone else ever feel like that?
I feel like I'm all out of wack because I have SO much free time and when I have things I have to do, I just avoid doing them. Is that the downward spiral to becoming unmotivated? I certainly hope not. I also find myself not as happy when I'm not busy. I really enjoy being busy - as weird as that sounds. I enjoy knowing I have something "next" to go to or to do in a day. Yesterday was one of those days where I had all my "stuff" done by 2PM. What did I do the rest of the day? Oh, I sat on the couch and watched TV. I could've been doing a million other things...but no, I sat. On my couch (Very comfy). Watched anything and everything I could do avoid doing simple things. Today, Wedneday, and Thursday will not be like this....Friday I have one thing to do and it isn't until 3PM. I've been trying to sleep in because for some reason I am having issues sleeping again - maybe that'll be Friday's goal - to sleep til 2 :-) haha.
So what does the quote have to do with the post? In my free time I find myself thinking about the up-coming year. Worrying - which is hardly helpful since worry gets you nowhere and yet I am a master sensi at it. Id like to think that everything I've been doing up until this point (over the last two and a half years) will be the things that "make it happen" for my future....it's only normal to have some sense of skepticism, right? Like I shouldn't push forward with blind optimism because if I'm atleast realistic about all of it, then I won't be 100% disappointed if it doesn't happen......right? I feel like in my life the more realistic I am about things, the easier it is to soften the blow when or if the expected doesn't happen.
I often think back to a time before I used to think this way.....when? Ha. I was in high school...and my first year of college really. It wasn't until my Sophomore year that I got to be so anxious. I guess that's one thing I'll always have from my ED. Anxiety and worry. It's gotten a LOT better since then - I mean, it has been 10 years since I began the program and 9 since I finished it....so I think I'm doing pretty okay all things considered.
That being said...I still take each day at a time and try to refocus my energies on the here and now. Because as we all know, you could be here one minute and gone the next....
Sunday, August 14, 2011
Sometimes you eat the bar and sometimes....
well, he eats you.
It's been one of those weeks. There's been a lot going on and a whole lot more to come for the rest of August and I certainly hope things pick up.
I had some great evenings with friends this week - but all in all with the way things are at home right now let's just say I'm OVER it.
I'm over having to come home to misery-guts people all the time. With the exception of Bruce (my stepdad) - who happens to be on vacation this week - I am surrounded by a mother and sister who are miserable in their lives. I AM NOT MISERABLE! But it's getting unbearable to take. It's all I can do to stay out of the house. It's funny - when they're not home, all I want to do is sit by myself and watch some TV in peace and quiet and when they're home, I try my best to find myself something to do.
I'll spare y'all the details of the latest things to unfold but let's just say I am even MORE motivated to move out of this house now.
Some of the reasons why it'd be awesome to move out? aside from the obvious?
-No more watching 'Say Yes to the Dress' or being told , "oh kate you'd look so cute in that." or "i could see you wearing that".
-No more watching House Hunters and hearing, "I could see you living in a place like that."
-No more, "who's this guy and when do I get to meet him" (not that we've heard that lately haha! but it happens).
-No more, "who're you going out with? When will you be home? What's your schedule like today?"
That last one really bothers me mainly because for the first year when I moved home I made up a schedule so my family would know where I was and what I was doing. I put that thing up EVERY MONTH for a year and every day I still got questioned, "Where are you going?" or "What are you doing today?" IT'S ON THE FREAKIN SCHEDULE PEOPLE! So I stopped making it. They weren't reading it - why should I make it?
More reasons:
-No more drama ALL THE EFFING TIME
-Less gas spent on my car
-More free time to myself! (because if I'm on my own I'll want to be home more so I'll def change my sched - and in turn I'll spend more time with my friends!)
-I can have people over whenever I want without feeling embarrassed by my mother.
-The quiet. Believe it or not, I actually really enjoy sitting in silence with a good book. I usually end up falling asleep but still - it's nice to just enjoy the quiet every once in a while.
As I said before - this week has been a helluva week. I wasn't sad or unhappy - a bit emotional - weirdly enough I started out pretty cranky/grumpy - then went to sad and tired - then really happy - and now I'm just kind of glad a new week begins tomorrow.
I think some of the sadness is because I've neglected some of my friends and I'm worried their be mad at me. I guess if I haven't heard from them they're probably busy too? I know I'm not always the best at keeping in touch with people - I wouldn't blame my friends if they just gave up on me. I can say that even though I've been finished with Mermaid for two weeks, I feel like I'm finally getting things back to normal now......two weeks later.....
Here's hoping next week is better!
Hope everyone is doing great :-)
It's been one of those weeks. There's been a lot going on and a whole lot more to come for the rest of August and I certainly hope things pick up.
I had some great evenings with friends this week - but all in all with the way things are at home right now let's just say I'm OVER it.
I'm over having to come home to misery-guts people all the time. With the exception of Bruce (my stepdad) - who happens to be on vacation this week - I am surrounded by a mother and sister who are miserable in their lives. I AM NOT MISERABLE! But it's getting unbearable to take. It's all I can do to stay out of the house. It's funny - when they're not home, all I want to do is sit by myself and watch some TV in peace and quiet and when they're home, I try my best to find myself something to do.
I'll spare y'all the details of the latest things to unfold but let's just say I am even MORE motivated to move out of this house now.
Some of the reasons why it'd be awesome to move out? aside from the obvious?
-No more watching 'Say Yes to the Dress' or being told , "oh kate you'd look so cute in that." or "i could see you wearing that".
-No more watching House Hunters and hearing, "I could see you living in a place like that."
-No more, "who's this guy and when do I get to meet him" (not that we've heard that lately haha! but it happens).
-No more, "who're you going out with? When will you be home? What's your schedule like today?"
That last one really bothers me mainly because for the first year when I moved home I made up a schedule so my family would know where I was and what I was doing. I put that thing up EVERY MONTH for a year and every day I still got questioned, "Where are you going?" or "What are you doing today?" IT'S ON THE FREAKIN SCHEDULE PEOPLE! So I stopped making it. They weren't reading it - why should I make it?
More reasons:
-No more drama ALL THE EFFING TIME
-Less gas spent on my car
-More free time to myself! (because if I'm on my own I'll want to be home more so I'll def change my sched - and in turn I'll spend more time with my friends!)
-I can have people over whenever I want without feeling embarrassed by my mother.
-The quiet. Believe it or not, I actually really enjoy sitting in silence with a good book. I usually end up falling asleep but still - it's nice to just enjoy the quiet every once in a while.
As I said before - this week has been a helluva week. I wasn't sad or unhappy - a bit emotional - weirdly enough I started out pretty cranky/grumpy - then went to sad and tired - then really happy - and now I'm just kind of glad a new week begins tomorrow.
I think some of the sadness is because I've neglected some of my friends and I'm worried their be mad at me. I guess if I haven't heard from them they're probably busy too? I know I'm not always the best at keeping in touch with people - I wouldn't blame my friends if they just gave up on me. I can say that even though I've been finished with Mermaid for two weeks, I feel like I'm finally getting things back to normal now......two weeks later.....
Here's hoping next week is better!
Hope everyone is doing great :-)
Tuesday, August 9, 2011
A letter to the editor....
of my life.
Dear Universe,
First off, let me thank you for giving me relatively clean air to breathe in my lungs every day. I really do appreciate the fact that you haven't collasped on yourself like the dying star we all know you will be one day so....major props for holding out...even if 2012 really IS the end of the world....if you could just slow down that whole global warming thing you got goin on, I'd really appreciate it. Plus - I'm tired of these crazy-ass winters, random tsunami's, and unexpected shark attacks in waters they aren't supposed to happen in. All that being said - way to go for natural selection/survival of the fittest (you are proving Chuckie D right)....(too mean?).
Secondly, let's get real about some things. The world in which we live in - or rather the planet on which we exist (aka Earth) is kind of in disarray. Forget the US for a minute but what's with all this crap going on everywhere else? For the most part, I don't believe it's naive to think that people are generally good. Unfortunately, the news outlets think the only thing people want to hear about is sad, shocking, scary, weird information. How about you try to reverse all that? Huh? Can't do it? Then you're not as powerful as you think you are. Sure you did that whole 'Big Bang' thing...but if that's all you got then I'm not impressed. It's time to step it up a bit. Whaddya say?
Thirdly, a few odds and ends....Thank you for making the Phillies amazing again this year...maybe I really should be thanking Reuben Amaro? Either way - you're the best! In addition, the eagles?! I know people are saying this is a dream team but like...another order of awesomesauce for the entire city of Philly - you rock! And let's not forget my Blues! Chelsea is lookin' pretty phenom right now....let's go for the triple crown this year, whaddya say? I know Man U and Man City are good - but geez louise...we all know God is a Chelsea fan, else why would the sky be blue and white? Exactly. Major props to keeping It's Always Sunny...on the air...or should I just be thanking FX? Either way...I'm pretty pleased with that.
Finally, and more importantly, for me (ha!)....you didn't think I'd leave myself out of this did you? WTF. Like seriously. I know every thing is a learning experience and the people we meet are part of those experiences but like, WTF mate? Srsly, wtf. I am over your omnipotence. Just let me in - a little - on what you've got in store for me.....you know I've never been patient so what makes you think once I turned 30 I'd suddenly learn it? People tell me that all I can do is the best I can do every day...but is that really enough? And will I truly find my path if I just leave it up to you? I'm taking active approaches to the life I truly want to live and I really hope you don't go and ef it up for me. Especially if you do and people then tell me, "it wasn't meant to be" or "it'll happen just not now". Like, what? No. I won't accept that.
So basically this is me telling you I'm giving you 1 year. 1 year! 1 year to get me where I need to be. I've been working toward my second life for the last 3 years. I'm ready to move forward. Help a sista out! If, after that one year, I don't get what I want - I'm going to tell you to stick the firey ball of light we call the sun in a place where it won't shine and changing my path. To where? I have some ideas....but for now, let's just say this is my ultimatum to you. You have 1 year.....muahahahahahaha!
Love ya!
fitz ;-)
p.s. if you read all of that and didn't laugh y'all probably think i'm crazy....I'm not. I'm only partly serious.
Dear Universe,
First off, let me thank you for giving me relatively clean air to breathe in my lungs every day. I really do appreciate the fact that you haven't collasped on yourself like the dying star we all know you will be one day so....major props for holding out...even if 2012 really IS the end of the world....if you could just slow down that whole global warming thing you got goin on, I'd really appreciate it. Plus - I'm tired of these crazy-ass winters, random tsunami's, and unexpected shark attacks in waters they aren't supposed to happen in. All that being said - way to go for natural selection/survival of the fittest (you are proving Chuckie D right)....(too mean?).
Secondly, let's get real about some things. The world in which we live in - or rather the planet on which we exist (aka Earth) is kind of in disarray. Forget the US for a minute but what's with all this crap going on everywhere else? For the most part, I don't believe it's naive to think that people are generally good. Unfortunately, the news outlets think the only thing people want to hear about is sad, shocking, scary, weird information. How about you try to reverse all that? Huh? Can't do it? Then you're not as powerful as you think you are. Sure you did that whole 'Big Bang' thing...but if that's all you got then I'm not impressed. It's time to step it up a bit. Whaddya say?
Thirdly, a few odds and ends....Thank you for making the Phillies amazing again this year...maybe I really should be thanking Reuben Amaro? Either way - you're the best! In addition, the eagles?! I know people are saying this is a dream team but like...another order of awesomesauce for the entire city of Philly - you rock! And let's not forget my Blues! Chelsea is lookin' pretty phenom right now....let's go for the triple crown this year, whaddya say? I know Man U and Man City are good - but geez louise...we all know God is a Chelsea fan, else why would the sky be blue and white? Exactly. Major props to keeping It's Always Sunny...on the air...or should I just be thanking FX? Either way...I'm pretty pleased with that.
Finally, and more importantly, for me (ha!)....you didn't think I'd leave myself out of this did you? WTF. Like seriously. I know every thing is a learning experience and the people we meet are part of those experiences but like, WTF mate? Srsly, wtf. I am over your omnipotence. Just let me in - a little - on what you've got in store for me.....you know I've never been patient so what makes you think once I turned 30 I'd suddenly learn it? People tell me that all I can do is the best I can do every day...but is that really enough? And will I truly find my path if I just leave it up to you? I'm taking active approaches to the life I truly want to live and I really hope you don't go and ef it up for me. Especially if you do and people then tell me, "it wasn't meant to be" or "it'll happen just not now". Like, what? No. I won't accept that.
So basically this is me telling you I'm giving you 1 year. 1 year! 1 year to get me where I need to be. I've been working toward my second life for the last 3 years. I'm ready to move forward. Help a sista out! If, after that one year, I don't get what I want - I'm going to tell you to stick the firey ball of light we call the sun in a place where it won't shine and changing my path. To where? I have some ideas....but for now, let's just say this is my ultimatum to you. You have 1 year.....muahahahahahaha!
Love ya!
fitz ;-)
p.s. if you read all of that and didn't laugh y'all probably think i'm crazy....I'm not. I'm only partly serious.
Saturday, August 6, 2011
Easy, Breezy, Beautiful....
That's the kind of morning it is today in PA. It's finally less humid (although there are expected showers later today and definitely tomorrow), it's breezy, and it looks like it's going to be a b-e-a-utiful day :-). I hope it stays that way for my run I have planned.
A few tidbits of what's been new in the world of Katie (see, lots of catching up to do, I missed blogging for a month!).
At Cabrini:
We have a new Dean. She's nice. I helped hire her infact. But I still haven't decided if she's overly nice to the point where it's fake or if she's really like that. It's kind of annoying. Although I don't have much interaction with her, the one change that's happened since she's taken over is that I can't be on any kind of chat :-( Which means I can't talk to anyone at work when I'm bored except everyone else there who are also working a lot because they "need their job" so they're making themselves look busy. Bleh.
Exercise-wise:
I'm officially just over 700 miles on the year. Yeah! It didn't come without difficulty. I was really slackin' at the end of last month so I was forced to run 30 miles in one week - which is A LOT for me - maybe not for others but definitely a lot for me. This week I'm at 16 and with a (hopefully) 8 mile run today, I'll get my projected 24. I'm still teaching spinning - trying to get more classes now that I have all this free time (plus it's money). I tried some of the P90X workouts - I think I mentioned that I was disappointed by them - but I think I'll probably do it once my race season is over anyway. I did like the different workouts. I've been thinking about adding two a days maybe two times a week. I'm really slackin' on good eating too. I'm kind of just putting everything in my mouth that looks good to eat. I need to get back on that wagon too.
Emotionally:
I'm actually pretty good. Things at home are whatever. I'm working on getting out of the house. I'm working on taking out a loan to pay for student teaching so I can use my money to move out. I realize it puts a lot of eggs in one basket but a good friend told me if I don't do what's right for my emotional well-being then it won't matter how many other great things I'm doing in my life. It's true. I always worry about money and whether or not I'll have it. I think part of my emotional health with increase once I actually have myself completely organized.
I worry about my family - specifically my mom and sister. They're both just so emotionally sad and depressed. It's hard to live in an environment like that - hence my desire to move out and live on my own. I have a lead. But as I said before, I'll let you all know when I've made the decision. There are a lot of benefits and bonuses to me doing this....another post for another time.
Personally:
And by personally I mean with guys :-) - haha - nothing really happening here. It's to be expected. The one guy I'm truly interested in isn't even in the country. He won't be back until the 19th. That being said - I'm certainly not waiting for him - but I'd be lying if I told you that I wasn't hoping....obviously if something develops....well...I might share it with you ;-) For now though, I'm actually pretty okay with nothing going on in that part of my life. Does it make it hard because all of my friends are either married or dating someone? Sometimes but not always. My friend Lacey tells me sometimes she's jealous that I'm single and she's married with two kids. She remembers the freedom you have being single and the fun you can have. That's all true. I guess you always want what you don't have.....
But I will say this....if one more person tells me..."don't worry you have plenty of time"...or someone else tells me, "don't wait too long to have kids".....I'm going to punch them in the face. No. Really. I am. I'm SO tired of hearing this. Do they understand how long I've really been TRULY single? Do they?! I haven't had a serious boyfriend since 2003 and to be honest - it was probably before that because things went to shit between Derek and Me long before we broke up (although that Christmas was a pretty good one...but I digress). That's 8 years. 8 YEARS! Yes. I dated ben for a few months but let's get real here, that wasn't a serious relationship. I'm tired of being single. I'm TIRED of meeting a guy and thinking, "he could be the one" after one date. Have I told you the story about the guy that's away for the summer? The one I'm 'hoping' for? no?
A shortened part of the story - he actually asked me if I would still be single when he got back and then quickly said I'd probably be dating someone.....to which I replied...do you know the story of my life? Do you know my history with guys? Haha! I just laughed at him. And I'm not sitting here typing all this for a pity party - cause I'm not pitying myself. Seriously - I'm just realistic. I've learned to not get my hopes up at all when it comes to a guy I like or find interesting anymore. It's not sad - it's just realistic. It's a pattern. It goes as follows:
1. I meet the guy and we go out.
2. We have a GREAT time and he likes me - I like him. We agree to see each other again.
3. We go out a few more times (maybe 2 or 3) and our conversations start to get a bit more serious about what we're looking for, etc. (side note - I NEVER bring up the serious stuff...it's always the guy...I've learned to keep things light - always!).
4. I'll call or text the guy and responses get farther and farther apart until eventually I decide that I won't call him anymore until he calls me.
5. I never hear from them.
I will admit - I've been on the other side of this. I've definitely done this to guys I lose interest in so I'm not saying it's always the guy.
I guess it's like Bono says, "but I still haven't found what I'm looking for...."
I really am okay with it though. And I'm not just saying that to make it seem like I'm okay with it. I am. I promise y'all :-)
A few tidbits of what's been new in the world of Katie (see, lots of catching up to do, I missed blogging for a month!).
At Cabrini:
We have a new Dean. She's nice. I helped hire her infact. But I still haven't decided if she's overly nice to the point where it's fake or if she's really like that. It's kind of annoying. Although I don't have much interaction with her, the one change that's happened since she's taken over is that I can't be on any kind of chat :-( Which means I can't talk to anyone at work when I'm bored except everyone else there who are also working a lot because they "need their job" so they're making themselves look busy. Bleh.
Exercise-wise:
I'm officially just over 700 miles on the year. Yeah! It didn't come without difficulty. I was really slackin' at the end of last month so I was forced to run 30 miles in one week - which is A LOT for me - maybe not for others but definitely a lot for me. This week I'm at 16 and with a (hopefully) 8 mile run today, I'll get my projected 24. I'm still teaching spinning - trying to get more classes now that I have all this free time (plus it's money). I tried some of the P90X workouts - I think I mentioned that I was disappointed by them - but I think I'll probably do it once my race season is over anyway. I did like the different workouts. I've been thinking about adding two a days maybe two times a week. I'm really slackin' on good eating too. I'm kind of just putting everything in my mouth that looks good to eat. I need to get back on that wagon too.
Emotionally:
I'm actually pretty good. Things at home are whatever. I'm working on getting out of the house. I'm working on taking out a loan to pay for student teaching so I can use my money to move out. I realize it puts a lot of eggs in one basket but a good friend told me if I don't do what's right for my emotional well-being then it won't matter how many other great things I'm doing in my life. It's true. I always worry about money and whether or not I'll have it. I think part of my emotional health with increase once I actually have myself completely organized.
I worry about my family - specifically my mom and sister. They're both just so emotionally sad and depressed. It's hard to live in an environment like that - hence my desire to move out and live on my own. I have a lead. But as I said before, I'll let you all know when I've made the decision. There are a lot of benefits and bonuses to me doing this....another post for another time.
Personally:
And by personally I mean with guys :-) - haha - nothing really happening here. It's to be expected. The one guy I'm truly interested in isn't even in the country. He won't be back until the 19th. That being said - I'm certainly not waiting for him - but I'd be lying if I told you that I wasn't hoping....obviously if something develops....well...I might share it with you ;-) For now though, I'm actually pretty okay with nothing going on in that part of my life. Does it make it hard because all of my friends are either married or dating someone? Sometimes but not always. My friend Lacey tells me sometimes she's jealous that I'm single and she's married with two kids. She remembers the freedom you have being single and the fun you can have. That's all true. I guess you always want what you don't have.....
But I will say this....if one more person tells me..."don't worry you have plenty of time"...or someone else tells me, "don't wait too long to have kids".....I'm going to punch them in the face. No. Really. I am. I'm SO tired of hearing this. Do they understand how long I've really been TRULY single? Do they?! I haven't had a serious boyfriend since 2003 and to be honest - it was probably before that because things went to shit between Derek and Me long before we broke up (although that Christmas was a pretty good one...but I digress). That's 8 years. 8 YEARS! Yes. I dated ben for a few months but let's get real here, that wasn't a serious relationship. I'm tired of being single. I'm TIRED of meeting a guy and thinking, "he could be the one" after one date. Have I told you the story about the guy that's away for the summer? The one I'm 'hoping' for? no?
A shortened part of the story - he actually asked me if I would still be single when he got back and then quickly said I'd probably be dating someone.....to which I replied...do you know the story of my life? Do you know my history with guys? Haha! I just laughed at him. And I'm not sitting here typing all this for a pity party - cause I'm not pitying myself. Seriously - I'm just realistic. I've learned to not get my hopes up at all when it comes to a guy I like or find interesting anymore. It's not sad - it's just realistic. It's a pattern. It goes as follows:
1. I meet the guy and we go out.
2. We have a GREAT time and he likes me - I like him. We agree to see each other again.
3. We go out a few more times (maybe 2 or 3) and our conversations start to get a bit more serious about what we're looking for, etc. (side note - I NEVER bring up the serious stuff...it's always the guy...I've learned to keep things light - always!).
4. I'll call or text the guy and responses get farther and farther apart until eventually I decide that I won't call him anymore until he calls me.
5. I never hear from them.
I will admit - I've been on the other side of this. I've definitely done this to guys I lose interest in so I'm not saying it's always the guy.
I guess it's like Bono says, "but I still haven't found what I'm looking for...."
I really am okay with it though. And I'm not just saying that to make it seem like I'm okay with it. I am. I promise y'all :-)
Friday, August 5, 2011
Playing Catch up and being lazy...
There, I said it. I'm being lazy. I have a lot of catching up to do with things, people, life. I haven't seen a few of my friends in a few weeks and I feel really badly about that. I hope they won't hold it against me. I'm sure they've been busy too. Life gets in the way...I just need to stop being lazy and get back to a normalcy.
As I mentioned before, I'm house-sitting until Wednesday so I've got loads of free time. Funny thing is, I want to be anywhere but this place. It's nice to be away from my house but still....
Anyway - let's get back to this being lazy thing....since swimming has ended, I've felt really lackadaisical in my every day activities. Not that I don't care, I just, have no motivation to worry or think about whether or not I should get everything done in a timely manner when there are things that HAVE to be done in a timely manner. Anyone ever felt like this? I feel kind of apathetic right now - just in general. Maybe I just need a week away from it all?
I've decided I'm not going to take a vacation and I think my plane ticket I have is just going to waste. I can't believe I can't find a way to use it. I thought about flying somewhere for a weekend but I just can't justify taking that time for myself especially with some of the things I have on the horizon. I'll talk about those if they come to fruition. But let's just say it could be good :-)
Elsewhere I'm hoping to use this weekend as catch up time. I have some books I want to read. I have some organizing I need to do. I'm hoping to get them all done. I just need to make a list of what I have to accomplish and what my weekend/week will be like.
In the mean time, something to think about....it's August 5th! I can't believe we're in the 8th month! Crazy.
As I mentioned before, I'm house-sitting until Wednesday so I've got loads of free time. Funny thing is, I want to be anywhere but this place. It's nice to be away from my house but still....
Anyway - let's get back to this being lazy thing....since swimming has ended, I've felt really lackadaisical in my every day activities. Not that I don't care, I just, have no motivation to worry or think about whether or not I should get everything done in a timely manner when there are things that HAVE to be done in a timely manner. Anyone ever felt like this? I feel kind of apathetic right now - just in general. Maybe I just need a week away from it all?
I've decided I'm not going to take a vacation and I think my plane ticket I have is just going to waste. I can't believe I can't find a way to use it. I thought about flying somewhere for a weekend but I just can't justify taking that time for myself especially with some of the things I have on the horizon. I'll talk about those if they come to fruition. But let's just say it could be good :-)
Elsewhere I'm hoping to use this weekend as catch up time. I have some books I want to read. I have some organizing I need to do. I'm hoping to get them all done. I just need to make a list of what I have to accomplish and what my weekend/week will be like.
In the mean time, something to think about....it's August 5th! I can't believe we're in the 8th month! Crazy.
A brief interlude....
No real post this morning - possibly tonight when I'm chillin' at the Daly's but for now, I leave you with the playlist for this morning's spin class :-) (and directions). Enjoy!
Waking Up In Vegas
1. Waking Up In Vegas - Katy Perry - Warm Up with Pick Ups
2. Let it Rock - Kevin Rudolf ft. Lil' Wayne - Standing Sprints
3. All the Above - Maino ft. T-Pain - Standing Climb
4. I Believe - Yolanda Adams (Honey Soundtrack) - Standing Jog w/ Pick ups
5. Semi-Charmed Life - 3RD Eye Blind - Sprints
6. Dirty Little Secret - All American Rejects - Intersections
7. Ain't No Rest For The Wicked - Cage the Elephant - Seated Climb
8. Run This Town - Jay-Z ft. Rihanna and Kanye West - Standing Climb
9. Hey, Soul Sister - Train - Standing Jog w/ seated sprints
10. Soprano's Theme Song "Woke Up This Morning" - Seated, high cadence, false flat road
11. Light Up The Sky - Yellowcard - Standing Increase, Bursts of Speed
12. Higher Ground - Red Hot Chili Peppers - Intersections
13. Can't Go Back to Jersey - G. Love & Special Sauce - Climb
14. The Kill - 30 Seconds to Mars - Climb w/ Sprints
15. Paradise City - Guns N' Roses - Rolling Hills
16. Somewhere Over The Rainbow/Wonderful World - Israel Kamakawiwo'ole - Warm Down
17. Boston - Augustana - Warm Down
Waking Up In Vegas
1. Waking Up In Vegas - Katy Perry - Warm Up with Pick Ups
2. Let it Rock - Kevin Rudolf ft. Lil' Wayne - Standing Sprints
3. All the Above - Maino ft. T-Pain - Standing Climb
4. I Believe - Yolanda Adams (Honey Soundtrack) - Standing Jog w/ Pick ups
5. Semi-Charmed Life - 3RD Eye Blind - Sprints
6. Dirty Little Secret - All American Rejects - Intersections
7. Ain't No Rest For The Wicked - Cage the Elephant - Seated Climb
8. Run This Town - Jay-Z ft. Rihanna and Kanye West - Standing Climb
9. Hey, Soul Sister - Train - Standing Jog w/ seated sprints
10. Soprano's Theme Song "Woke Up This Morning" - Seated, high cadence, false flat road
11. Light Up The Sky - Yellowcard - Standing Increase, Bursts of Speed
12. Higher Ground - Red Hot Chili Peppers - Intersections
13. Can't Go Back to Jersey - G. Love & Special Sauce - Climb
14. The Kill - 30 Seconds to Mars - Climb w/ Sprints
15. Paradise City - Guns N' Roses - Rolling Hills
16. Somewhere Over The Rainbow/Wonderful World - Israel Kamakawiwo'ole - Warm Down
17. Boston - Augustana - Warm Down
Thursday, August 4, 2011
Lack of Motivation
Haha - I've already fallen off the wagon! My last post was Monday...it's um....Thursday. :-) Sorry people! I just...I got busy doing nothing :-D Hehe.
So what've I been doing this week? Well, Monday I went for a glorious 7 mile run....on the treadmill. Yuck. But it still felt great. I always run slower on the treadmill than I do outside. Not sure what that's all about since everyone I talk to tells me they can run faster inside than out. Not me. I'm just a weirdo :-) After that I finished my paper for my class that night and did some other errands. Monday we had class for all of 10 minutes until the electricity went out in the building. Woot! So we got to leave early :-)
Tuesday I taught a spin class in Bala Cynwyd (Painter - it's pronounced "kin - wood" - it's Welsh). It was the class that used to be mine (that and the Thursday class). Most of the people that came back in were like, "welcome back, are you back for good?!" and it made me feel really good :-) It was nice to know I was missed. It was a really good class too. I'm teaching the same set tomorrow in East Norriton. I'll probably add one more song since the music finished with like 6 minutes before the class was supposed to be over...but I digress. Then I went to Cabrini and worked there til about 3:30. I met up with Paul afterwards and we went out for dinner at Rock Bottom. Then....mini golfing. Let's just say...Paul is the new Sergio Garcia. Haha :-) It was still fun. I'm just a sore loser :-)
Wednesday I went for a run outside because there was a lot less humidity - 5 miles. I felt pretty good but slow. Turns out I was only going 8:44/mile. Slower for me but I guess my legs were tired so I'll chalk it up to that. I then headed over to Mermaid to drop off the awards and such. I also had a swim lesson - which we JUST got in before the rain. I was supposed to teach another lesson after that but the rain made it impossible so we rescheduled. It's nice to have a little extra income in that way that'll will most likely continue through the school year. I then proceeded home and watched the Phils sweep the Rockies! yeah baby! Then headed to my last class of the summer! Yay! We were there for all of 15 minutes. I met up with Brian after class since he was pretty persistent in hanging out (seriously, atleast once every three or four days). Had a few beers and some munchies....caught up a bit and then headed home. It was pouring last night - so nice to listen to on the roof. Isn't that the best? When you can hear the rain fall? Yes, I knew you'd agree :-)
Today I'm amping myself up for a run then I have to go back to Mermaid to drop off the present the coaches got our head guard to thank him for helping us this summer. Seriously, he was a huge help. Then I'm heading out to Cabrini then I'm stopping by my dad's. He had foot surgery a few weeks ago so he's been sitting on his butt for three weeks. Hopefully he'll get the stitches out tomorrow and be able to go to back to work at some point. I know he's bored out of his mind. I feel badly that I'm so busy but I know he understands.
This weekend, until Wednesday, I'm house sitting for one of my swimmers. I'm kind of excited to be alone and away from everyone this weekend. I plan on reading a LOT and plan on going on a nice long run on Saturday (as long as the weather holds up). I'm also meeting up with my swim team captains to discuss this year's team and expectations, so I'm pretty excited about that too. The jury is still out if I'm going to go out on Friday - Saturday I won't because I'm teaching spin on Sunday morning (hopefully cute Nathan will be there).
Anyway - I'm off to go run :-)
So what've I been doing this week? Well, Monday I went for a glorious 7 mile run....on the treadmill. Yuck. But it still felt great. I always run slower on the treadmill than I do outside. Not sure what that's all about since everyone I talk to tells me they can run faster inside than out. Not me. I'm just a weirdo :-) After that I finished my paper for my class that night and did some other errands. Monday we had class for all of 10 minutes until the electricity went out in the building. Woot! So we got to leave early :-)
Tuesday I taught a spin class in Bala Cynwyd (Painter - it's pronounced "kin - wood" - it's Welsh). It was the class that used to be mine (that and the Thursday class). Most of the people that came back in were like, "welcome back, are you back for good?!" and it made me feel really good :-) It was nice to know I was missed. It was a really good class too. I'm teaching the same set tomorrow in East Norriton. I'll probably add one more song since the music finished with like 6 minutes before the class was supposed to be over...but I digress. Then I went to Cabrini and worked there til about 3:30. I met up with Paul afterwards and we went out for dinner at Rock Bottom. Then....mini golfing. Let's just say...Paul is the new Sergio Garcia. Haha :-) It was still fun. I'm just a sore loser :-)
Wednesday I went for a run outside because there was a lot less humidity - 5 miles. I felt pretty good but slow. Turns out I was only going 8:44/mile. Slower for me but I guess my legs were tired so I'll chalk it up to that. I then headed over to Mermaid to drop off the awards and such. I also had a swim lesson - which we JUST got in before the rain. I was supposed to teach another lesson after that but the rain made it impossible so we rescheduled. It's nice to have a little extra income in that way that'll will most likely continue through the school year. I then proceeded home and watched the Phils sweep the Rockies! yeah baby! Then headed to my last class of the summer! Yay! We were there for all of 15 minutes. I met up with Brian after class since he was pretty persistent in hanging out (seriously, atleast once every three or four days). Had a few beers and some munchies....caught up a bit and then headed home. It was pouring last night - so nice to listen to on the roof. Isn't that the best? When you can hear the rain fall? Yes, I knew you'd agree :-)
Today I'm amping myself up for a run then I have to go back to Mermaid to drop off the present the coaches got our head guard to thank him for helping us this summer. Seriously, he was a huge help. Then I'm heading out to Cabrini then I'm stopping by my dad's. He had foot surgery a few weeks ago so he's been sitting on his butt for three weeks. Hopefully he'll get the stitches out tomorrow and be able to go to back to work at some point. I know he's bored out of his mind. I feel badly that I'm so busy but I know he understands.
This weekend, until Wednesday, I'm house sitting for one of my swimmers. I'm kind of excited to be alone and away from everyone this weekend. I plan on reading a LOT and plan on going on a nice long run on Saturday (as long as the weather holds up). I'm also meeting up with my swim team captains to discuss this year's team and expectations, so I'm pretty excited about that too. The jury is still out if I'm going to go out on Friday - Saturday I won't because I'm teaching spin on Sunday morning (hopefully cute Nathan will be there).
Anyway - I'm off to go run :-)
Monday, August 1, 2011
Thirty, Flirty and Thriving.....?
Anyone know which movie my subject/title is from? Anyone? Bueller? (not Ferris Bueller's Day Off)......it's from '13 Going On 30'. Love that movie. Watched it the night before my 30th Bday Shindig. Pictures will be posted eventually.
My apologies for my disappearing act - July was a CRAZY month. The swim team engulfed my life - literally - and I nearly had a breakdown on several occasions. Thank goodness for Lacey and AnnMarie (my assistant coaches)! They definitely helped keep me sane and as a sounding board to let me know I wasn't imagining things with this one parent from hell. I swear to you all that is NOT an exaggeration. If you want full details I can relish you with them some other time. I'd like to keep this particular post on a positive end :-)
So ....the question mark......at the end of my subject. Because the jury's still out. Am I Thirty, Flirty and Thriving? For the most part, yes. Yes to 30. Yes to Flirty. And partially Yes to Thriving. I've been so busy the last month that I haven't really had any me time and although I took some time for my birthday and a friend's birthday - I haven't done anything. I haven't seen some of my closest friends in a while. I miss them. I'm hoping August will help me with that. I have TONS more time this month, although I find myself doing whatever I can to keep myself busy. Did I mention how bad I am at relaxing? :-)
Things to do this month:
-Spend time with friends!
-Work on the RTF 5K stuff
-Finish my summer class
-Get my 2nd USSwimming Cert
-Get Re-certified in CPR/First Aid
-Go to Phillies Games
-Organize a Renfrew Presentation at LMHS
-Teach more Spin Classes
-Find a way to make more money (haha, as always)
-Eventually Relax
Those are just a few things that have been building up on my list of things to accomplish this summer. I have to say, after the June and July I had, I don't know if I am going to want to coach again next summer. The kids were amazing but it was a single parent that ruined what was supposed to be an awesome summer. Amazing how ONE bad apple can spoil the whole bunch. We'll see. I need some time away from it before I make any solid decisions.
I hope to blog every day this month. I have a lot to talk about. I haven't really had a chance to voice anything about what's going on in my head or heart as of late. So, Painter, just for you...I'll be sharing an extraordinary amount of personal information in the next month - hold on to your butts! :-)
As for now - I'm off to the gym (the one thing I did manage to continue with during my crazy two months) to run. Side note - I started doing some P90X workouts - not as tough as I thought they'd be....I was/am slightly disappointed.
Hasta luego!
My apologies for my disappearing act - July was a CRAZY month. The swim team engulfed my life - literally - and I nearly had a breakdown on several occasions. Thank goodness for Lacey and AnnMarie (my assistant coaches)! They definitely helped keep me sane and as a sounding board to let me know I wasn't imagining things with this one parent from hell. I swear to you all that is NOT an exaggeration. If you want full details I can relish you with them some other time. I'd like to keep this particular post on a positive end :-)
So ....the question mark......at the end of my subject. Because the jury's still out. Am I Thirty, Flirty and Thriving? For the most part, yes. Yes to 30. Yes to Flirty. And partially Yes to Thriving. I've been so busy the last month that I haven't really had any me time and although I took some time for my birthday and a friend's birthday - I haven't done anything. I haven't seen some of my closest friends in a while. I miss them. I'm hoping August will help me with that. I have TONS more time this month, although I find myself doing whatever I can to keep myself busy. Did I mention how bad I am at relaxing? :-)
Things to do this month:
-Spend time with friends!
-Work on the RTF 5K stuff
-Finish my summer class
-Get my 2nd USSwimming Cert
-Get Re-certified in CPR/First Aid
-Go to Phillies Games
-Organize a Renfrew Presentation at LMHS
-Teach more Spin Classes
-Find a way to make more money (haha, as always)
-Eventually Relax
Those are just a few things that have been building up on my list of things to accomplish this summer. I have to say, after the June and July I had, I don't know if I am going to want to coach again next summer. The kids were amazing but it was a single parent that ruined what was supposed to be an awesome summer. Amazing how ONE bad apple can spoil the whole bunch. We'll see. I need some time away from it before I make any solid decisions.
I hope to blog every day this month. I have a lot to talk about. I haven't really had a chance to voice anything about what's going on in my head or heart as of late. So, Painter, just for you...I'll be sharing an extraordinary amount of personal information in the next month - hold on to your butts! :-)
As for now - I'm off to the gym (the one thing I did manage to continue with during my crazy two months) to run. Side note - I started doing some P90X workouts - not as tough as I thought they'd be....I was/am slightly disappointed.
Hasta luego!
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