Sometimes you eat the bar and sometimes....

well, he eats you.

It's been one of those weeks. There's been a lot going on and a whole lot more to come for the rest of August and I certainly hope things pick up.

I had some great evenings with friends this week - but all in all with the way things are at home right now let's just say I'm OVER it.

I'm over having to come home to misery-guts people all the time. With the exception of Bruce (my stepdad) - who happens to be on vacation this week - I am surrounded by a mother and sister who are miserable in their lives. I AM NOT MISERABLE! But it's getting unbearable to take. It's all I can do to stay out of the house. It's funny - when they're not home, all I want to do is sit by myself and watch some TV in peace and quiet and when they're home, I try my best to find myself something to do.

I'll spare y'all the details of the latest things to unfold but let's just say I am even MORE motivated to move out of this house now.

Some of the reasons why it'd be awesome to move out? aside from the obvious?
-No more watching 'Say Yes to the Dress' or being told , "oh kate you'd look so cute in that." or "i could see you wearing that".
-No more watching House Hunters and hearing, "I could see you living in a place like that."
-No more, "who's this guy and when do I get to meet him" (not that we've heard that lately haha! but it happens).
-No more, "who're you going out with? When will you be home? What's your schedule like today?"

That last one really bothers me mainly because for the first year when I moved home I made up a schedule so my family would know where I was and what I was doing. I put that thing up EVERY MONTH for a year and every day I still got questioned, "Where are you going?" or "What are you doing today?" IT'S ON THE FREAKIN SCHEDULE PEOPLE! So I stopped making it. They weren't reading it - why should I make it?

More reasons:
-No more drama ALL THE EFFING TIME
-Less gas spent on my car
-More free time to myself! (because if I'm on my own I'll want to be home more so I'll def change my sched - and in turn I'll spend more time with my friends!)
-I can have people over whenever I want without feeling embarrassed by my mother.
-The quiet. Believe it or not, I actually really enjoy sitting in silence with a good book. I usually end up falling asleep but still - it's nice to just enjoy the quiet every once in a while.

As I said before - this week has been a helluva week. I wasn't sad or unhappy - a bit emotional - weirdly enough I started out pretty cranky/grumpy - then went to sad and tired - then really happy - and now I'm just kind of glad a new week begins tomorrow.

I think some of the sadness is because I've neglected some of my friends and I'm worried their be mad at me. I guess if I haven't heard from them they're probably busy too? I know I'm not always the best at keeping in touch with people - I wouldn't blame my friends if they just gave up on me. I can say that even though I've been finished with Mermaid for two weeks, I feel like I'm finally getting things back to normal now......two weeks later.....

Here's hoping next week is better!
Hope everyone is doing great :-)