They yester, and I’m today....

Seriously diggin' the new Lupe Fiasco Album. If you haven't heard of him or it - check it out. Lasers by Lupe Fiasco. He's pretty awesome.

And now for something completely different.....(anyone? bueller?) Please tell me SOMEONE knows the phrase and/or spinoff show.....

Guess I'm just a Monty Python nerd then :-)

So I ran the Phillies 5k yesterday! OMG it was awesomesauce! I totally PRed with a 23:37. Just over 7 and a half minute miles. I can't believe how fast I was running - that's fast for me atleast. A few pictures:
















My Results:
KATIE FITZGERALD Overall: 165/3000 Official Time:23:39  Pace:7:37    Age Division Place(20-29):15/594   Sex Division Place: 30/1410  F

Needless to say, I'm pretty pleased with the race! I PRed and I felt great. Only bad part about yesterday was the allergy attack I had immediately following the race. No joke - sneeze-o-mania! Thankfully I was able to go to the drug store and get some Allegra. It has since helped!

I went to a house warming party last night for Jack's and Mark! Fun times as always :-) No rock band was broken out (hehe)...maybe next time! lol :-)

Today I got up (I got a sub for my spin class) and ran 7.6 miles. I felt GREAT! It's COOOOLD out there and I should remember to wear vasoline on my face from now on when I run outside but other than that - I felt so great! About 1 month til Broad Street. Here's hoping it's another PR!

I should really be doing homework right now but I'm heading out shortly to meet up with one of my swimmers' parents for an end of the season recap. It'll be nice to see her and see how her daughter is doing with track so far.

Other than that - another busy week ahead. We have THREE lacrosse games this week - ALL AWAY - ugh. I'm trying to arrange a happy hour/hang out with the coaches after the game on Friday since we'll all already be together. Hopefully that can work out.

Lots of things coming down the pike - two research papers, a presentation, getting student teaching together, finding a summer job, more running, more reading, more researching, more coaching, etc. Who has time for a social life? ha - not me - oh that's good cause I don't have one anyway :-)

Alrighty - time to go get ready. Ciao!

Do not worry.....

“Therefore I tell you, do not worry about your life, what you will eat or drink; or about your body, what you will wear. Is not life more than food, and the body more than clothes? Look at the birds of the air; they do not sow or reap or store away in barns, and yet your heavenly Father feeds them. Are you not much more valuable than they? Can any one of you by worrying add a single hour to your life?"

“And why do you worry about clothes? See how the flowers of the field grow. They do not labor or spin. Yet I tell you that not even Solomon in all his splendor was dressed like one of these. If that is how God clothes the grass of the field, which is here today and tomorrow is thrown into the fire, will he not much more clothe you—you of little faith? So do not worry, saying, ‘What shall we eat?’ or ‘What shall we drink?’ or ‘What shall we wear?’ For the pagans run after all these things, and your heavenly Father knows that you need them. But seek first his kingdom and his righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well. Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own. ~Matthew 6:25-34

I often think of this bible passage when things start to get a bit anxious or hectic for me. I thought last week my troubles were quelled - little did I realize a few things:

1. The Student Teaching deadline for certain schools is earlier than some - Lower Merion is one of them. I need to get my information in before April 1. Yes, that's two weeks away - but - I'd like to have a teacher lined up for it so I don't have to worry about possibly not coaching next year. That - would seriously be devastating for me. I actually am even considering putting off student teaching for a semester if I can't get placed at Lower Merion simply because I want to keep coaching there. Yes, that means my life takes a backseat but then you understand how important coaching this team and these girls are to me.

2. I worry that I'm not doing a good job with coaching lacrosse. Nothing has been brought to my attention about it and the head coach hasn't said anything to make me think this - I'm just preemptively worrying. I know, I know - silly. But you know me, I like to be good at everything I do!

3. Money - it's always a big factor and a high anxiety topic for me. I don't have much. I want to move out. I'm looking for a summer job that helps me to do this - but then, if I can't student teach - I'll have to find a regular job that still allows me to coach. SO MANY THINGS TO THINK ABOUT! I also have to figure out how I'm going to pay for student teaching (isn't that a rip-off? you have to pay to student teach? lame). I've been thinking about talking to my Aunt Kim and seeing if she'll give me the money that she's leaving me for inheritance, early, so that I can pay for it. I don't think it's totally implausible since she was giving Kelly money for grad school.

I suppose the biggest thing on my mind right now is the student teaching thing. I already have an email out to a teacher and hopefully she can help point me in the right direction. I just really want things to finally work out for me. I suppose the anxiety is my own fault since I should've probably looked at the deadline sooner and had this thing wrapped up. I'd like to be able to bring my student teaching papers in this week so I don't have to scramble at the last minute. God, I'm a mess.

Falling off the 'wagon'

The proverbial wagon that is.

No, I do not have a drinking problem - so I'm not talking in the sense that I started drinking again (as if I were an alcoholic - besides, they go to meetings! haha just kidding - it's not funny and if you happen to have a friend or relative that is, it's a serious problem....but I digress).

Here I was all set to do this 30 day challenge and I've been seriously slacking on my duties. I would love to tell you that I'm going to update them all in this particular post but I'm going to talk about something else.

The subject doesn't just refer to my tardiness of posting in that challenge but in areas of my life where I'm just kind of like, "whatevs".

Maybe it's because with every year I get older I realize what's REALLY important, or maybe it's because I had that panic attack last week and need to 'take a moment'. IDK. Either way - I've fallen. And I'm picking myself back up - albeit slowly but surely. That's not to say that I've fallen and I'm sad. I've just fallen. Had a setback if you will.....nothing huge....although that last post might have you thinking otherwise.

I pride myself on being SUPER organized. In fact, anyone that wants to see it - I'll show you my day planner - then the calendar I make on top of that - THEN the weekly to do list (which already exists in my planner - THEN my daily routine for each week. Kind of crazy? Yes and no. The thing is, my schedule is always subject to change. When I was in college - I would've told you that THAT is my schedule for the week/month - and nothing can change it. If I wrote it down - you might as well considered it written in stone. Of course, I also wrote everything in pen back then - I've since learned that unless I am certain - it gets written down in pencil.

What I'm saying is, I've learned to be flexible. I've learned to let things go and that I don't have to do everything....even if, at times, it seems like I am. I don't have to be everywhere and I just can't physically or emotionally anyway.

I've fallen off the wagon of caring in some areas. What are they? The shortened version/list:
-My Shakespeare Class - yes, I still do the work - but it's an online class and we have things due by Monday at Midnight - so what do people do? Wait til Monday afternoon to post their responses. MONDAY IS MY BUSIEST DAY. And by the time I get home from class, I'm exhausted and want to go to bed. So last night, instead of sitting up and going through everyone's responses - I went to bed. It was a tough decision to make but you know what, it's not my problem if they're slackers. I'll have to email the professor though (so I guess I do care a bit, eh?)
-Cabrini - not necessarily all of it - but working in the GPS. I still like being there because the people are great - but I feel like I've been there forever. I need a change or I need them to start paying me because I'm there an AWFUL LOT for someone who doesn't get paid and only get's ONE class of tuition remission. If they gave me more, I could be finished with classes this summer and student teaching in the fall - but no dice.
-Guys and anything that has to do with them beyond friendship. Yes, I've said this probably a thousand times. But really - I've just lost all hope for them. I have some guy friends reading this now saying - "oh katie, don't be silly" (I'm lookin at you Paul!) - but really - I've just kind of resolved to not think anything more into what they say to me. Take everything with a grain of salt and just throw it over my shoulder. Sure, they might be interested. Sure, they might be a good guy. But 9 times out of 10, they're only interested in one thing. And that one thing IS fun - but really? Really. That being said - there is a guy that I'm planning on seeing this week - but I can already tell there's probably no hope for him either. Part of me thinks I should just not hang out with him. The other part is like - WTF Katie - just go. It'll be fun. And it will be - and I'm going to go....because the other alternative is sitting at home thinking about those STUPID signs and the fact that I allowed myself to slip up and make another mistake (two weeks ago) with the same guy that definitely likes me but is too dumb to realize what an awesome thing he has in front of him.
-I've fallen off the wagon in trying to do my work for the RTFoundation. I feel SO guilty about that. I'm now the treasurer and although it's not THAT important (right now) - I feel like I should and could be contributing more. I am just SO busy right now that it's not a priority and I feel so bad when I get to meetings and have nothing to say. We have a meeting this Wednesday night and I am dreading it because I know that I'll feel badly about not having anything to report about. I'm doing a terrible job - at least - that's how it feels. Maybe I should just talk to Sue about it. :-/ The Foundation means the world to me and I truly TRULY want to have it succeed. I always mention it to people and tell them about it. I miss Rachel and Troy deeply. And the thought of backing away has crossed my mind but then what does that make me?

So those are just a few things going on - outside of: class @ Cabrini, Lacrosse @ LM, Swimming @ Baldwin, Teaching Spin for LAF, Looking for a summer job, trying to figure out how I'm going to move out of my house......

Thoughts and suggestions are always appreciated.