So so what! I'm still a rock star...I got my rock moves...

And I don't need you..and guess what? I'm having more fun..and now that we're done...I'm gonna show you tonight...I'm alright...and it's fine...and you're a tool so...so what! I am a rock star. I got my rock moves and I don't want you tonight!

That's P!nk's new song. I love it. It gets me pumped for my runs. Speaking of which I didn't run today but I did go to the gym and spun for about an hour and a half. Felt good to sweat out the alcohol I drank last night at the game. Speaking of which....here's a pic from the game:



My dad flew down for the game - it was awesome and a once in a life time experience - and I will never forget it. AND THEY WON!

But so back to my song. Like I mentioned in previous posts - I am dating again. I'm kind of trying to go into this whole thing with the same attitude as the song....so what if it doesn't work out? I'm still a rock star:-) At least in my mind anyway. I'm a great girl - i've got a lot to offer. I will find someone some day.

Things are pretty good right now for me. I gotta say. Usually I have something to complain about - but not so much right now. I'm pretty happy - and honestly - it's about freakin' time:-) These things come in cycles - and thankfully I'm on the upswing of it and I'm having a good time. My friend Reagan is town this weekend and hopefully it'll be a good weekend. There have been a few changes on the front of the friendship with TJ - who knows what'll happen there. He actually asked me to hang out with all of them tomorrow night. I was shocked. I still kind of can't believe it. Maybe they'll change their minds. We'll see. I'll keep it updated as things go on this weekend.

I'm just really excited to see Reagan! I haven't seen him since January! It's been forever.

LET'S GO PHILLIES!!!!

A less weighty katie

So I was watching "You Are What You Eat" on BBC America the other week...and there was a girl on there who shared my name and "a less weighty katie" was a tag for a bump out/in of the show. It kind of stuck with me and I've kind of been telling myself this is what I need to do.

I need to stop calling myself fat. I need to focus on what's truly important to me again - which always was - being healthy. I can't let it get out of control. I am healthy and I am fit. I just wish I was a less weighty katie. So. I'm going to do what I can. I'm going to workout hard...eat well...drink less...eat less sweets...and get more sleep! I've found the sleep thing is by far and away the thing that affects me on a more immediate level. If I don't sleep enough the night before, my workouts are as effective the next day and I tend to hurt more (my muscles and joints) during the next few days.

I recently talked to Brian - my old trainer. He basically told me - as long as I'm running - one upper body workout a week should suffice. Which is good because it's what I've been doing anyway. I've cut out leg workouts for now - I've noticed a difference. My legs (my calves anyway) look trimmer. I'm still working on toning up my tummy some more - but cutting out the alcohol has helped in that department significantly. If I do drink - it's usually a glass of wine and only one.

Elsewhere - things are pretty decent. I had a bad day last week - but it was the start of my pmsing - and thankfully that is done now. I am going home this coming weekend for my friend Kristie's wedding - I am so excited for her:-) I'm also gonna get to see my cousins and my friend Pat who I haven't seen in nearly 2 years. Should be interesting.

On other fronts - I head out to LA to visit Kelly at the end of the month and am REALLY excited about this half marathon. I think - and am pretty sure - I am signing up for the Philadelphia Marathon in November. It falls on the Sunday before Thanksgiving and I'll probably be home then anyway - plus Jackie's birthday is the next day so win win:-) But I'm still gonna see how I feel after this half marathon. I know I can do 13.1 ....but 26.2....that's a helluva long way farther...so....we'll see.

yay:-)

When I grow up.....I wanna be famous...

wanna be a star...I wanna be in movies...When I grow up..I wanna see the world...drive a nice...I wanna have boobies...

haha. Yeah. I want all those things:-)....

the purpose for that subject is basically to touch on the point of how much actual growing up I've done in the last five years.....and why I'm pretty proud of myself lately...

Over the course of the last few days, I've been house sitting. These people who's house I was at - have a scale. A SCALE. I know - doesn't sound daunting - but for me - scales are the devil....for a variety of reasons...allow me to explain....

When I was sick (aka - not eating/exercising too much aka anorexia/orthorexia) I began the process of weighing myself on a daily basis and THEN it was more like three or four times a day - and THEN it was after I would eat something or workout. It was bad and I pretty much lived and died by that scale and the numbers on it. I hated it but I loved it too - it was a really bad addiction. When I started the recovery process - I was told not to weigh myself - and as hard as that was at first - in order to recover - I would HAVE to stop doing it. Eventually I stopped but I gained weight and because I was afraid of knowing how much I weighed, I just stopped getting on any scale unless I wanted to torture myself. I think it's one of the reasons I don't go to the doctor too. I just can not stand knowing that someone else would know what I weigh let alone myself. I figure, I feel good, my clothes fit, I should be ok....I stay away from ANY scale - because I like where I'm at right now - and I know no matter what the number is, I'm not going to be satisfied...so I stay away from them entirely.

There were moments in these last few days where I was tempted - the scale at their house was definitely calling to me - and in a way I told myself - well if you just do it once, you can know how much you have to lose...yada yada...but honestly, I don't want that pressure. I'll lose weight - I'll get down to the size I want - it'll take time - I just have to keep exercising and eating healthy.

I do know a few things I need to do. I need to eat clean - no drinking - no desserts - no junk - for a little bit. I honestly feel better and it will definitely take away from some of that added poundage that I don't want.

Whatevs...I'm proud of myself for the last few days...

It keeps you running....yeah it keeps you running....

Lately I've been really in to running - I'm not sure if it's just because I really enjoy the solitude or if I know in the back of my head that I am running a half marathon in about two months with the hopes of doing a full just a few months after that. All this being said - I was reading a blog from Hot Thick Chick and she did a meme about running so I thought I'd humor myself and whomever reads this (which is like - two people)...and do it...here goes

1. How would you describe your running 10 years ago?
10 years ago - actually - I was a senior in high school - and honestly - that year, I started running - to lose weight and stay in shape when swimming was over. I always swore to myself that I would never run - I HATED running - I mean, despised it. Which is kind of ironic because I played sports in which I had to run - field hockey, lacrosse, soccer - I guess things change over time. But 10 years ago - I would run every other day after school was over and swim season was over - about 6 miles - and I distinctly remember running to ESPN Jock Jams over and OVER .....ah, memories

2. What is your best and worst run/race experience?

I haven't really had a bad race experience YET...but so far my best race experience was the 15k I ran at disney in May - I did pretty well - 1:24:45 (about 9 mins)...so I'm hoping to get a little faster for my half marathon and hopefully do a sub 4 for the marathon

Worst: I do remember a run I did last year at my old house - my back was KILLING me about 2 miles into the run - I had to stop and walk back home - i was laid up the rest of the day :-( it was no fun

3. Why do you run?
Honestly - I'm pretty much addicted to it now....I run for the solitude...I run for the stress relief....I run for the high afterwards...I run to feel good...I run so I can eat whatever I want....I run because I can get more mileage in an hour than if I walk:-)

4. What is the best or worst piece of advice you've been given about running?
I don't really ask about running - I read everything I can - but I've definitely learned to never wash or put my sneakers in the dryer.....


5. Tell us something surprising about yourself that not many people would know.
As much as I like running outside - I totally prefer running on a treadmill.



Side note to all of this - I am pretty sure I am going to join a masters swim team - I just miss it