They call me 'her'
They call me 'Jane'
That's not my name
That's not my name
That's not my name
That's not my name
~The Ting Tings
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So it's the start of a new week! Lots of things to report on...but first, in reference to what the song means....
Thursday morning I had my doctor's appt, and the nurses (for some reason) decided I was ok with being called 'kate'. Now, anyone who knows me..knows that unless you are my family...it is NEVER ok to call me this. My name is KATIE. K A T I E. Katie. It's not short for anything...it's just Katie.
That being said, I let the first instance go by, thinking to myself - well maybe I'm just out of sorts, I didn't sleep last night and maybe she won't do it again. So the first nurse went out and didn't say my name again..but the second one came in and did my IV and she called me 'kate' also. So I quickly corrected her saying, "um sorry, excuse me but could you call me Katie. That's my name". And like that the incident resolved. But just...GRRRRRRRR I can't stand when people do that. I can't stand when people give nicknames/shorten a name when they don't even know you. My name is written KATIE...not KATE.
OK...enough on that rant...updates elsewhere...
Saturday night was so much fun! I have pictures...but I don't have my camera wire to upload the pics...but they'll be on once I get back to Florida. It was so great to see my friends and have them come out! I had a blast. :-) Of course..I drank WAY too much and realized that the next morning when I woke up only to tell myself - I am not a college kid anymore...I can't drink like that! I seriously overdid it...but whatevs. I had a great time:-)
Yesterday I dealt with the hangover, went for a run, went to my dads, went to Josh's and saw the other set of parents and got dinner and a great conversation with him. We haven't done that in awhile..so it was so nice to see him. I'm glad I'll get to spend more time with him once I move home.
When I woke up this morning - I felt like there was so much still to be done. But then I reread my previous post and realized most of it is finished. I do still have to do the Ikea thing...book mom a flight...and enroll at cabrini. I'm going to apply for an aide position at colonial..and probably another school district...so that takes care of that...and other than that...today I'm going to do some Yoga and then head to the gym for a spin session. I do also want to open a bank acct...but I guess if I go with Bank of America I can just do it when I get back to Orlando:-)
Other than that...I can't really think of anything else I'm supposed to do.
It's rainy here today...but that's ok - the weekend was amazing! I'm so glad I didn't waste it. I ran twice this weekend - first run was just over 8 miles and yesterday I ran about 6. Im hoping to find new running routes once I move back and hopefully get more involved with a running club. All in good time.
As for other stuff - think good thoughts for kelly - she finds out today if she gets her Teach for America position.
Monday, April 20, 2009
Friday, April 17, 2009
Tomorrow you'll be thinking to yourself
Where did it all go wrong?
But the list goes on and on
Truth be told I miss you
Truth be told I'm lying
When you see my face
I hope it gives you hell, I hope it gives you hell
When you walk my way
I hope it gives you hell, I hope it gives you hell
If you find a man that's worth the damn and treats you well
Then he's a fool you're just as well hope it gives you hell
Now you'll never see
What you've done to me
You can take back your memories
They're no good to me
And here's all your lies
If you look me in the eyes
With the sad, sad look
That you wear so well
When you see my face
I hope it gives you hell, I hope it gives you hell
When you walk my way
I hope it gives you hell, I hope it gives you hell
If you find a man that's worth the damn and treats you well
Then he's a fool you're just as well hope it gives you hell
~All American Rejects
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Okay, okay. I know I've used this song as a pre-post - and pretty recently too. But it really is my song of the moment. Especially since I'm home in Philly for the weekend. Here's the lo-down:
-Doc's appt yesterday - KATIE IS A-OK! Yay for that! Basically the result is that I have IBS - so from now on I have to monitor my diet...which I already do and can continue to do. I'm even thinking of going partial raw for a lot of meals. I've been reading this one blog from a girl who is a raw vegan and she makes it seem so easy! So I might just steal some of her recipes.
-Today, April 17, is the most recent ex's birthday. Enough about that. This blog is about me.
-I'm going to see Netty tonight! I'm driving out to Reading to visit her and enjoy happy hour/dinner with her. It's been awhile since I've gone out to see her..and she's been really stressed because of Nursing school. I'm just hoping a friendly face will help a bit:-)
-I have several things to accomplish while I am home (until wed). I have to open a bank acct. I think I am going to enroll in summer courses at Cabrini (so I'd like to take care of that asap). I need to get my eyebrows done. I'm hoping to stop by a few schools in the area and drop off my resume for them to consider employing me so I don't have to take out a loan for grad school. I have to go and visit my dad. I also have to go to ikea with my mom to look at closet units because since I haven't lived at home in 7 or so years, they re-did all the rooms and my mom took out my original closet (which is just as well cause the one I had was awful.
-Tomorrow night (saturday), I'm going to see lotses of my friends! We're all going out and gonna have a good time! Yay:-)
So...as you can see...lots to accomplish.
As for how the song applies to this post....just the mood I'm in this morning:-)
But the list goes on and on
Truth be told I miss you
Truth be told I'm lying
When you see my face
I hope it gives you hell, I hope it gives you hell
When you walk my way
I hope it gives you hell, I hope it gives you hell
If you find a man that's worth the damn and treats you well
Then he's a fool you're just as well hope it gives you hell
Now you'll never see
What you've done to me
You can take back your memories
They're no good to me
And here's all your lies
If you look me in the eyes
With the sad, sad look
That you wear so well
When you see my face
I hope it gives you hell, I hope it gives you hell
When you walk my way
I hope it gives you hell, I hope it gives you hell
If you find a man that's worth the damn and treats you well
Then he's a fool you're just as well hope it gives you hell
~All American Rejects
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Okay, okay. I know I've used this song as a pre-post - and pretty recently too. But it really is my song of the moment. Especially since I'm home in Philly for the weekend. Here's the lo-down:
-Doc's appt yesterday - KATIE IS A-OK! Yay for that! Basically the result is that I have IBS - so from now on I have to monitor my diet...which I already do and can continue to do. I'm even thinking of going partial raw for a lot of meals. I've been reading this one blog from a girl who is a raw vegan and she makes it seem so easy! So I might just steal some of her recipes.
-Today, April 17, is the most recent ex's birthday. Enough about that. This blog is about me.
-I'm going to see Netty tonight! I'm driving out to Reading to visit her and enjoy happy hour/dinner with her. It's been awhile since I've gone out to see her..and she's been really stressed because of Nursing school. I'm just hoping a friendly face will help a bit:-)
-I have several things to accomplish while I am home (until wed). I have to open a bank acct. I think I am going to enroll in summer courses at Cabrini (so I'd like to take care of that asap). I need to get my eyebrows done. I'm hoping to stop by a few schools in the area and drop off my resume for them to consider employing me so I don't have to take out a loan for grad school. I have to go and visit my dad. I also have to go to ikea with my mom to look at closet units because since I haven't lived at home in 7 or so years, they re-did all the rooms and my mom took out my original closet (which is just as well cause the one I had was awful.
-Tomorrow night (saturday), I'm going to see lotses of my friends! We're all going out and gonna have a good time! Yay:-)
So...as you can see...lots to accomplish.
As for how the song applies to this post....just the mood I'm in this morning:-)
Tuesday, April 7, 2009
"hope it gives you hell...."
Tomorrow you'll be thinking to yourself
Where did it all go wrong?
But the list goes on and on
Truth be told I miss you
Truth be told I'm lying
When you see my face
I hope it gives you hell, I hope it gives you hell
When you walk my way
I hope it gives you hell, I hope it gives you hell
~All American Rejects
I think that song is pretty appropriate for this next part of my post. I found it via my livejournal friend. I thought it'd be interesting to do...
In a sentence or two, write what you learned from your past and present relationships. You don't have to list every boy or girlfriend you've ever had, just ones that you feel were/are important. Make sure you indicate how old you were during the relationship!
I'll probably list as many as I can think of...ha
Josh Graham taught me that I wouldn't be boyfriendless (as much as I thought I would be when I was the only one in middle school without a boyfriend): Age 13/14
Matt Stern taught me that if someone really cares about you, they'll wait for you (and don't have a zillion other things going on...ie swimming, nhs, classes and whatnot): Age 16
Mike Schmidt taught me how to feel really strongly about music and the words that are being said within songs: Age 16
Joe McKeontaught me that kissing can be VERY fun...and pretty much perfected my ability to kiss well: Age 16
Anthony (cant remember his last name) taught me it is possible to make another guy jealous...and that if you don't kiss a 16 year old boy at the end of a date...they won't want to take you out again. HAHA : Age 16
Derek Drechsel taught me how you can love someone completely and have them be your best friend all at the same time. He also taught me how it feels to lose the person you love the most in the most unexpected way and at the worst time....and that no matter how much time passes, you will always look back on that person as someone who will always be a part of your life. Age 17-22
Dave Wilson taught me that you can love someone so much even though you know you can't do anything about it....and that being the "good guy" doesn't always work out well in the end. (we never dated..but we might as well have...) Age 18
Sean Greene taught me that it is possible to make out with someone's ear (yes, he did that)...and he also taught me that I wasn't over derek the way I thought I was...Age 18
Paul Contino (despite never having dated him officially he's been one of my closest guy friends for a long time) has taught me that it's possible to be just friends with a guy. Age 18 - Present
TJ Hubbard taught me that it's possible to love a "rebound" and that when you're in your most vulnerable state, guys will "swoop" in to try and fix it....AND...that future girlfriends/wives will shut you out of their life. Age 21 - 24
Reagan Smith (again, never dated but another great guy friend) taught me and still teaches me to this day...that I am worth it...and I deserve to be with someone who is amazing. Age 21 - Present
Allan Wertheimer taught me that getting involved with guys who are younger can be fun...but not always the smartest idea. Age 23 - 25
Pat Brown taught me how intense love and heartache can be...and that no matter how much time passes...there will always be an attraction between certain people...always. Age 24 - Present
Simon Yorinks taught me that I can love Dave Matthews Band again....one of the BEST things I ever got out of a relationship. Age 25
Ben Elisha taught me that what you see isn't always what you get. Age 26
Ben Roma taught me a lesson I learned already...younger guys aren't always the best choice. That jumping in to things before you really know someone is a mistake...and that I am more comfortable with who I am now than I ever have been. So...in a way...thanks. Age 27
For all the guys to come.....I look forward to finding out what you can teach me....or what I can teach you.
GOOD LUCK! haha:-)
Where did it all go wrong?
But the list goes on and on
Truth be told I miss you
Truth be told I'm lying
When you see my face
I hope it gives you hell, I hope it gives you hell
When you walk my way
I hope it gives you hell, I hope it gives you hell
~All American Rejects
I think that song is pretty appropriate for this next part of my post. I found it via my livejournal friend. I thought it'd be interesting to do...
In a sentence or two, write what you learned from your past and present relationships. You don't have to list every boy or girlfriend you've ever had, just ones that you feel were/are important. Make sure you indicate how old you were during the relationship!
I'll probably list as many as I can think of...ha
Josh Graham taught me that I wouldn't be boyfriendless (as much as I thought I would be when I was the only one in middle school without a boyfriend): Age 13/14
Matt Stern taught me that if someone really cares about you, they'll wait for you (and don't have a zillion other things going on...ie swimming, nhs, classes and whatnot): Age 16
Mike Schmidt taught me how to feel really strongly about music and the words that are being said within songs: Age 16
Joe McKeontaught me that kissing can be VERY fun...and pretty much perfected my ability to kiss well: Age 16
Anthony (cant remember his last name) taught me it is possible to make another guy jealous...and that if you don't kiss a 16 year old boy at the end of a date...they won't want to take you out again. HAHA : Age 16
Derek Drechsel taught me how you can love someone completely and have them be your best friend all at the same time. He also taught me how it feels to lose the person you love the most in the most unexpected way and at the worst time....and that no matter how much time passes, you will always look back on that person as someone who will always be a part of your life. Age 17-22
Dave Wilson taught me that you can love someone so much even though you know you can't do anything about it....and that being the "good guy" doesn't always work out well in the end. (we never dated..but we might as well have...) Age 18
Sean Greene taught me that it is possible to make out with someone's ear (yes, he did that)...and he also taught me that I wasn't over derek the way I thought I was...Age 18
Paul Contino (despite never having dated him officially he's been one of my closest guy friends for a long time) has taught me that it's possible to be just friends with a guy. Age 18 - Present
TJ Hubbard taught me that it's possible to love a "rebound" and that when you're in your most vulnerable state, guys will "swoop" in to try and fix it....AND...that future girlfriends/wives will shut you out of their life. Age 21 - 24
Reagan Smith (again, never dated but another great guy friend) taught me and still teaches me to this day...that I am worth it...and I deserve to be with someone who is amazing. Age 21 - Present
Allan Wertheimer taught me that getting involved with guys who are younger can be fun...but not always the smartest idea. Age 23 - 25
Pat Brown taught me how intense love and heartache can be...and that no matter how much time passes...there will always be an attraction between certain people...always. Age 24 - Present
Simon Yorinks taught me that I can love Dave Matthews Band again....one of the BEST things I ever got out of a relationship. Age 25
Ben Elisha taught me that what you see isn't always what you get. Age 26
Ben Roma taught me a lesson I learned already...younger guys aren't always the best choice. That jumping in to things before you really know someone is a mistake...and that I am more comfortable with who I am now than I ever have been. So...in a way...thanks. Age 27
For all the guys to come.....I look forward to finding out what you can teach me....or what I can teach you.
GOOD LUCK! haha:-)
Wednesday, April 1, 2009
"but how we survive, is what makes us who we are"
Somewhere between happy, and total fucking wreck
Feet sometimes on solid ground, sometimes at the edge
To spend your waking moments, simply killing time
Is to give up on your hopes and dreams, to give up on your...
Life for you, has been less than kind
So take a number, stand in line
We've all been sorry, we've all been hurt
But how we survive, is what makes us who we are
An obvious disinterest, a barely managed smile
A deep nod in agreement, a status quo exile
I shirk my obligations, I miss all your deadlines
I excel at quitting early, and fucking up my life
Life for you, has been less than kind
So take a number, stand in line
We've all been sorry, we've all been hurt
But how we survive, is what makes us who we are
~Rise Against
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I found this band a few weeks ago...well I say "found" but really I had heard of them before. My friend Greg had recommended them to listen to for getting anger out...and while I was in the car with my friend Sean, he just gave me his compilation CD of these guys. They're awesome. I really resonate with their music and this song in particular. The first time I heard it I was like...yes. It's so true.
So what am I getting at? Well....to be entirely honest...I've had lots of ups and downs in the last few weeks. Lots of good! Some bad. And the moments when I just kind of was like...is this really my life? Sounds so dire right? Ha, it's not. I'm fine....I'm just a thinker:-)
It's the start of another new month...geez, it feels like I just wrote my "thank goodness it's march" post the other day. Hard to believe how quickly time goes! But, I have lots of things to look forward to this month too!
-This weekend, I'm heading to EPCOT for my friend Christy's farewell extravaganza. She wants to drink around the world:-) I won't be partaking in the drinking but definitely want to be there since I missed her engagement party (due to other personal issues).
-Next week I am working three days - Cheer Event in Daytona. Apparently this is the funnest event all season, so I'm looking forward to that...and to getting even more of a tan than I already have:-) (thanks baseball games!)
-Next weekend is Easter and Masters's weekend...so all in all should be fun. I can officially drink again! Yay for Easter Sunday Brunch:-) hehe
-The following week/weekend - I head home to Philly for a week (15th to the 22nd). I have a doc's appt and a weekend of debauchery in store with a group of my friends. Should be a good time.
-The weekend after that, I have the final Cheer event of the season here in Orlando. Sigh. It'll be sad (only because I probably won't see any of those people ever again...not because I'll miss the screaming cheerleaders).
-And the weekend after that is the first weekend in May!....which also has lots in store:-)
Here's hoping that I can score a few days at Golf Channel at the end of the month this month....just for a little extra money.
Elsewhere...the sad moments are few and far between but when they hit it just kind of feels like a brick hits me in the face. I was reading this blog when I realized that I have so much to look forward to as I get older. My twenties really are full of me wondering when "everything" is going to happen for me. I guess all I can hope is that I'm taking the right steps in the right direction in order for my "dreams" to become a reality.
Feet sometimes on solid ground, sometimes at the edge
To spend your waking moments, simply killing time
Is to give up on your hopes and dreams, to give up on your...
Life for you, has been less than kind
So take a number, stand in line
We've all been sorry, we've all been hurt
But how we survive, is what makes us who we are
An obvious disinterest, a barely managed smile
A deep nod in agreement, a status quo exile
I shirk my obligations, I miss all your deadlines
I excel at quitting early, and fucking up my life
Life for you, has been less than kind
So take a number, stand in line
We've all been sorry, we've all been hurt
But how we survive, is what makes us who we are
~Rise Against
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
I found this band a few weeks ago...well I say "found" but really I had heard of them before. My friend Greg had recommended them to listen to for getting anger out...and while I was in the car with my friend Sean, he just gave me his compilation CD of these guys. They're awesome. I really resonate with their music and this song in particular. The first time I heard it I was like...yes. It's so true.
So what am I getting at? Well....to be entirely honest...I've had lots of ups and downs in the last few weeks. Lots of good! Some bad. And the moments when I just kind of was like...is this really my life? Sounds so dire right? Ha, it's not. I'm fine....I'm just a thinker:-)
It's the start of another new month...geez, it feels like I just wrote my "thank goodness it's march" post the other day. Hard to believe how quickly time goes! But, I have lots of things to look forward to this month too!
-This weekend, I'm heading to EPCOT for my friend Christy's farewell extravaganza. She wants to drink around the world:-) I won't be partaking in the drinking but definitely want to be there since I missed her engagement party (due to other personal issues).
-Next week I am working three days - Cheer Event in Daytona. Apparently this is the funnest event all season, so I'm looking forward to that...and to getting even more of a tan than I already have:-) (thanks baseball games!)
-Next weekend is Easter and Masters's weekend...so all in all should be fun. I can officially drink again! Yay for Easter Sunday Brunch:-) hehe
-The following week/weekend - I head home to Philly for a week (15th to the 22nd). I have a doc's appt and a weekend of debauchery in store with a group of my friends. Should be a good time.
-The weekend after that, I have the final Cheer event of the season here in Orlando. Sigh. It'll be sad (only because I probably won't see any of those people ever again...not because I'll miss the screaming cheerleaders).
-And the weekend after that is the first weekend in May!....which also has lots in store:-)
Here's hoping that I can score a few days at Golf Channel at the end of the month this month....just for a little extra money.
Elsewhere...the sad moments are few and far between but when they hit it just kind of feels like a brick hits me in the face. I was reading this blog when I realized that I have so much to look forward to as I get older. My twenties really are full of me wondering when "everything" is going to happen for me. I guess all I can hope is that I'm taking the right steps in the right direction in order for my "dreams" to become a reality.
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